i have just started seeing a sag. he's great but there's someone holding me back from feeling too much for him. i was seeing this other guy for a while last year (leo) but it was kind of suspended as the timing was bad on both sides. i withdrew from him completely, making brief contact just before christmas which he was very pleased about but it made me withdraw even further because i feel i still like him too much. the thing is, these two guys know each other and i feel like i should contact the leo to guage what it is that i feel for him and get him either out of or into my system once and for all before committing to anyone else but i don't want to do that behind the sag's back. i also don't really want to tell him beforehand as he will over react (on the basis that he thinks the leo's an marker just out to play me). i have been very open with the sag about my misgivings on having a relationship but it pisses him off as he feels like he's bearing the brunt of all my bad experiences but i don't feel ready to move on from the leo. i'm still pretty obsessed with him, although he has no clue probably. it doesn't help that both men live in the same area either. the chances of bumping into the leo are very high and i don't know how i'll react if i haven't had a chance to talk to him before. he already appears on the sag's facebook constantly and he checks out my reaction every time. i don't know what to do. |