There seems to be progress in my relationship with my crab, but I don't know towards what? We saw each other 3 times in 2 weeks. This is a lot considering the few times we saw each other in one year. Something has changed about her approach towards me after I've shut my phone off for a few days. Now she involves me in almost every step she makes. Actually she informs me about everything she does right now.
She gave me a cute present last time we saw each other, we phone much more. We have talked a lot about relationships and how we are, her exes, her dates (men and women). She left little to the imagination. She said that she can make a distinction between love and lust. Her dates (during the time we were knowing each other) were pure lust. She gave honest answers to all the questions about her recent ex.
She mentioned she wants to go on a holiday with me soon. Yesterday night she was texting me saying she wants to be with me and if I could come over (I knew she had a few extra drinks, she confirmed this morning). She is open about me towards her family and friends (though I haven't met them yet)(my cultural/religious background seemed like an issue for her parents, but she told them all about me and they don't mind when she's with me).
Still... I don't know where I'm at, so I'm kinda holding her off in everything, but I know I can't do it for much too long. I'm just too hurt, but not showing it, after all the push and pull and after all my declarations of me wanting to be with her. Somehow, I feel like second best (i've got LEO rising, I want to be first!).
I want to discuss 'us', but I don't want to ruin it, because there's no 'us' in the flow of conversations, it would be awkward. We have deep conversations, but never did it involve 'us'. How should I interpret her behavior towards me? Am I just a friend she puts absolute trust in or more than that?