Mate I am not an Aqua and my closest dealings with an aqua was my ex which I spoke to you about.
I just want to say that I think you are a good person and I hope you resolve your issues. I may not be able to give you an aqua point of view or experience, but if you need to vent or just chat, message me!!!
You helped me out at a time where I was confused and at a low point, and if I can I would like to return the favour.