Not good, I want her even more after what happened yesterday, but she claims that she feels "nothing".
She went back to town, we met in person yesterday to talk, in her apartament because it wa raining. We both had teras in our eyes: I, because I felt that eventually we would lost contact forever, she because she sees how hard I try but she still feels nothing and she feels guilty about that. We were talking for about 2 hours - recalling memories, laughed, cried, everything I held her hand. I asked her what she feels, because I was writing and texting to her but she never said a word about what she feels. Finally she told me that all what she wants now it's sex and we did it, felt amazing, the intimacy was mind-blowing. After that she was very sad but satisfied, I asked why: because I used you and you still have hope. I replied that I agreed to be used. She told that I'm good in bed, she is great too. Then we were lying next to each other saying few words and looking in each other's eyes. I asked her can we contact each other, she replied OK. We fall asleep, but I woke up: told her that I must go because I have work tomorrow, gave her a kiss and told to not feel guilty that she feels nothing. I spent there over 4 hours.
I totally don't know what to do now. I still love her. I'm now sitting in my office, can't focus on anything because she pops in my head. Is there any chance? I still feel in my gut that we should be together.