Sorry this Taurus wouldn't take you back, I doubt he is either - from what you describe he took it hard, look at that downward spiral trip he went on... nope if I got hurt that bad, which I have and my ex came begging back, which he did and even though i wanted that, I really did, I didn't do it. Because I cant ever open up and be trusting again, instead, I would always be waiting for the other shoe to drop and thats no good for anyone. You have made changes for the better, move on, forgive yourself and never do it again.