Okay so this is me trying to write out what I think whats going wrong currently. I'm suppose to talk with my friends next time we hang out about it. So if I can write out my thoughts correctly I might be able to say what I need to say to the group so changes can be made and I can feel a lot more apart of my group.
Anyway at the last party:
Mainly it was me and 4 other girls. The start of the party it almost felt like musical chairs. Every time I went to the bathroom and came back people were sitting in other spots. But the problem was every time I sat down by anyone, they stayed there for a few and got up and sat with someone else, leaving me by myself. Anyway it pretty much ended up with all the girls sitting with each other while I was left out sitting alone. I almost felt like I wasn't really meant to be invited to that party, like it was meant for the girls to get drunk and mess around with each other. But thats like every party. They're all together. I'm left out sitting alone on the couch. Its not right. Usually another couple is apart of this (They didn't come this time) and even the guy is usually apart of this girl thing sitting along with them and possibly doing whatever. If all of the party is sitting being close with one another, everyone should be there. Not leaving certain people out.
I'm feeling like I'm being run over by girls. If you really want to use the term, like a beta male (I don't believe the alpha/beta bullbutter that is everyone spats out on this site) So if the plan was to get drunk and mess around with each other. Everyone in the party should be included. Part of it is I should change my own behavior and the group should change how they treat me.
So basically I said something in the group chat about it yesterday. They said we can talk in person next time we see each other. Because texting over it can lead into miscommuication. We usually hang out on Fridays. Last time though one of my friends got pushed out of the group due to he was hitting on a girl that didn't want it (Shes in a relationship). They talked about like they were going to talk to him about it. But that never happened because no one wanted to confront him about it. So eventually it just ended up him not hanging out with the group anymore. He also had a girlfriend so that shouldn't of been happening in the first place. So I'm hoping we actually talk about it instead of having the same butter happen to me.