Posted by -CapriquariusPosted by MaxianPosted by -Capriquarius
I just went thru my first Saturn return and it's been very accurate. It started when I got my Bachelor degree, I started to looking forward to start my career. I started as single, uninterest in family life. I was avoiding my demons and looking just for anything that won't bother my deep self to much.
So the first Saturn return is about asking yourself who you are and where you are going. That's very accurate to even psychological aspect of life when you are turning 30. I remember one time I was talking to my friend from the university I was studying in. She was much older than me and I asked her was she ever afraid of getting old and becoming andult in her 20s. She said yes, but once you turning 30, you will see that you are able to survive everything. She was never into astrology.
So as she said and as I learnt later, my Saturn return started. Interestingly, it's like game - you start on easy level, you think you doing it right then when time passes, it gets hard and you feel more pressured, confused and you starting to despair if you doing anything right?
My Saturn falls in Capricorn, In first house stellium that includes 6 planets, so it impacted my whole life. The Capricorn teaches you to find balance between privat life and career. It ask you to face your family issues. The first house ask you to concider the truth of your relationships with people. It teaches you that you won't survive if your approach to life will be lone wolf like only. As humans, we are built to live in society, as spiece we are built to creat life like everything on this planet - you won't do it without others.
So at my 27 birthday I started to feel shadow of my Saturn return when I got fired from very well paid job for being antisocial. Then I had just little money to finish my degree, when I had big project ahead to do. It coast me fortune and a lot for nerves to finish it, because art studies were always very expensive in Poland.
After that I got new job but I was put under massive pressure, as I was to confident as a single worker again. Again it didn't work out because it was team work.
The pandemic was announced during my 30th birthday. I ended up closed in home, without job. Then I lost a lot of friends due to other life issues.
I remember how once I posted here that I have enough and I wish my life ends. That was a most difficult moment of this event in my life.
When I was between 30 and 31 years old I met my twin flame for first time and I realised that I didn't learn shit from my Saturn return when it comes to my family issues. He mirrrored me in most accurate way as we were one person in two bodies. At the end when I thought it's over, some evens happen that turned my life upside-down.
Finishing my thought - Yes, Saturn return is one of those moments in life where I honesty belive in astrology.
Side topic, are you with your Twin Flame at the moment? Is that the positive outcome of Saturn return?
No. We never had chance to be together. The positive outcome is that I started working on toxic influence of my family on me, I stoped getting involved in toxic relationships, I found out who is real friend for me and I started to working thru creating my own family instead of spending unhealthy amount of time and energy on my career. I started to enjoy life more and appreciate fact I'm healthy and there are people I can relay on.click to expand