I know I didn't try or fight harder but I strongly felt it wasn't a good time to raise a child under that circumstances. Few days ago it was me to ema him about how disappointed I was when he didn't try to win me back by actions and also explained the pressure from my family and all related reasons so that the timing was mature enough.(not to mention it was he to point me to leave and plan to pay for the abortion--angry talk?) so anyway I expressed how I still love him and care about him, would like to try work things out if he agrees. We can take things slow this time to have better communication. I asked him not to hurry in reply, maybe think about it and take a day or two to answer me. However, he didn't only use 30mins to reject me but use bad words to criticize on me for getting an abortion over an argument. "Saying how much he begged me but I still made this dicision. He couldn't imagine I actually did it but how much he loved me and our baby. He said he was in huge pain thus can't even think about it and couldn't even look at me again."
I wanted a try but he refused. I didn't reply on him while afterwards he sent me more emails to beat me up even worse. It's like I'm the only one who made the mistake and cause the problem. However, I feel he is still noticing on me but why being so hard? If two people love eah other why not put this all behind and work on our problems. I now put lotta efforts in this forum to understand him better and I truly do. How come he isn't willing to give it a try but blaming all this on me? Hurt someone you love make you happy or feel better? Guess maybe he has no more love for me only hate
