Sorry for my grammar mistakes and typos and spelling mistakes.
He tested me back on the day we were supposed to meet, to say he wont make it. That was the 5th time he had not met me after all my planning. He teases me for always planning but then I said I love him so much I really want to be with him. In fact, I have given up hopes of growing in my company where we both work because I never want him to think I love him because he is my boss. It was never about that.
We have been friends for a year before we started getting to know each other and I fell in love with him. He shares his deepest secrets with me and I will never betray him. However it hurts that he wont let me into his inner circle of friends or take me out to meet some of them. He does not need to say we are dating if it makes him feel bad. He is such a private person. He has only brought me to one of his homes ONCE. For a man with so many homes there seem no place for us to meet in private even in one of them. Perhaps he will wait for a couple more years before he will fully understand how much I love him and that I will want to be with him even if we live in a hut together.
I get it that his neighbours likes to drop in unexpectedly esp if they notice a visitor in his house. So what? He thinks he is that much older but to be honest, 14 years is nothing to me. We are soul mates and if it means we just hold hands, cuddle and be together? I would be happy.