yes it is awkward because straight after I just wanted to go...and he wanted to talk and cuddle and go again :/ I stayed and we laughed and chatted some more and then I went home at some ungodly hour. I don't feel bad, I knew what I wanted to achieve and did so and he isn't desparately beating down my door so all is well for now.
And the reason I don't do FWB is that, I probably would catch feelings or start to think I had a place and a say in things. The first time around when we were exploring each other, it was a lonely thing and I was hesitant then because he was rebounding. Then we both met others and called it quits and happily went to explore other avenues. His lasted 4 years and mine not at all. He came looking for me 6 months ago and we have maintain a distant friendship since.
I've never had the chance to have "the talk" I was going to, last time I was here in the Cappy threads asking for advice but I really didn't see him much after that. I kept putting his invites off and things had really cooled down and then I got selfish. It may amount to nothing, maybe he feels that I will come running now like the last time when I happily jumped into a FWB, I mean he is a man and it worked last time lol