And After that shock I told her that I've got some mixed feelings and skipped the topic.
After such exciting night I got few hours of sleep, and meet with my Aquarius. I was sad and detached, she was stressed and asked for eating her. Did that, asked for something for me - NO! I was sad even more. While I was driving to my home I texted to Cancer that I want to talk. She couldn't but later she said that we can go out for a walk at night. 9:30PM we talk and talk I started with Aquarius topic and told the truth that I fell that I don't love her anymore. We changed the place, and suddenly one of our friends [Mine, AQ and C] spotted us on a walk at 1AM, he told his GF - friend of AQ. It was uncomfortable, but we played it out somehow - he was drunk. We got uber and got back to her house, talked like an extra hour. I felt that we both "feel something" we even told that to each other when I was getting back home. I wanted to go home - I was tired and stressed, she told me if I go out she will cry. I went back home, got some sleep.
Two days after GF of a friend talks with me about it and asked me for same goddam questions: - Do you love her? - Are you happy together? - Is it really that bad? Silence, again. She told me she will not tell anything to AQ but I should talk about it. I replied: I'm just planning when should we break up.
Should I: - end it up with AQ, and try to be friends - I would like to be able to talk with her, she's so intelligent - Give AQ another chance, just being ultra honest but not about Cancer - Break up with AQ and get with Cancer SLOWLY - Break up and just give some time to myself, and maybe get with Cancer
I think about it all the time, I know what to do but I'm somehow scared about consequences The worst is that AQ seems so unconscious about that - hard hit.