Scorpio Moon and Control

What are your thoughts on an relationship between an Aries moon and sun guy and a Scorpio moon with sun in Cancer?

I'm the Aries guy and to be honest is the most intense thing I ever experience in my whole life by far. My closest family members or friends are either Scorpios or Cancers so I'm naturally drawn to these guys so they are to me.

With this girl it was something magnetic from the very beginning. She was coming after a huge break-up with a Scorpio guy and she was all at his feet because he got into a relationship with one of her friends that betrayed her. She was totally miserable, and I sensed that and I wanted to help her because she was being used in the most ruthless way by the guy. I'm more sensitive than most Aries because my personality type (ENFJ) and I used all my social skills in order to get close to her and gave her the trust in herself that she needed. I started to conquer all her social circle of friends gaining their respect until even her ex and his group of friends looked up to me because of my achievements in our college, and also to her because it was clear as crystal that I liked her and I valued her. She got all the attention that was directed to me, and that meant all the damn college. I have to mention, most of the girls I know confessed me that I'm really hot (I hit the gym and I put all my effort into being the best in everything, ya know, Aries stuff). She fell for me too, I sensed it, her feelings for me were as strong as mine. She got close to my circle of friends and just manipulate them all in order to have a reason to be around me without actually spending time with me. She knows that all my wildest achievements in the last few months are for her.

But here it comes, the strange aspect of the Scorpio moon, as she felt my attention and managed to detach from her ex and became independent, as I liked her to be from the begging, because damn, she is beautiful af when she is confident, she became more closed with me. I saw that she always made huge efforts to hide her feelings from me and try to show me that she doesn't care, in the most brutal ways she could after a while of my restless pursuit.

I told her that I loved her and wrote her some romantic letters in the good old fashioned way, and she enjoyed like hell every gesture of love and affection I showed her. But she refused to admit that she felt the same and because I told her that I can see In her eyes that she liked me and she couldn't lie to me about it, she started to do the meanest stuff to me to convince me that she doesn't. I can see that she want to be in control of everything, but I just can't be controlled, is something in my default mode. Is my free choice to love her, despite all her manipulation attempts she just can't accept that she have to respect my free will and she prefer to detach as much as she can. She just told me every time that she wants me to leave her alone and move on to other girls, but I can see is a damn lie.

I saw how tightly she cross her legs when I sit next to her after a few days I ignore her because she did something very mean to me. Damn she even quivers. We had almost no physical contact because she refuse it like hell, but when it happen a few times to touch our hands it felt like fire for both of us. I even hanged out with her once and it was one of the best dates I ever been, even that she even refused to sit next to me. At the end i hugged her close and I felt her whole body melting in my arms as she sniffed my perfume (it was the most expensive one I could afford with my own money and I bought it especially for her, and she knows it).

Is something really strange with our interaction because we can feel how the other feel just by getting a short glimpse of eachother. We both strive to be the best in the thing we do and have magnetic personalities being the alfa in our groups. The whole context is so perfect for us to be together but she just refuse it with all she has and do all the possible things to screw me up.



We end up blocking each other on all social media because of her drama, and after this she refused to spend time in my presence even without speaking. But I didn't care and I just get all the chances I got to sit around her, and again I just feel her melting slowly when I'm around, she can't help it.

The climax of our interaction was my 20th birthday. I started the day totally ignoring her because she made a huge drama with me a few days ago, but she knew well my buttons so she did the most Scorpio-like things to get my attention (like pretending to drop something right in front of the chair I was sitting on to have a reason to stick that perfect ass right in front of my face at like 20 cm). I also was tired af with 2 sleepless nights of work so I was very vulnerable to that kind of behavior, so it took me like 3-4 hours until ,despite my attempts to deny her, I was starring at her like the last idiot on earth. We were at a long event where I had to present the project I was working for and (damn the universe) it happened to be with her group. So we had to be around eachother for a looong long time.The thing was that I was when one of our common friends handed me a paper note I left her a few days ago that was stepped all over, I felt miserable, I had to make a huge effort to hold back some tears. She just sit right next to me for hours texting another guy, holding her phone so I could see it perfectly. After that she make me look like the last person on earth in front of her friends because I wanted to talk to her, but I didn't care I stayed there with my head up like 1 hour until her friends finally left. She mentioned with them loud and clear that she is home alone in that evening and I realized that it might be something for me for me because it was something kinda out of context. We managed to talk and she told me that she don't want us to be even friends and that I bored her, but again I saw in her eyes that it was a a damn lie, she couldn't even look me straight in the eyes when she told all that stuff. I told her in the face that I can see all her potential to be a good person despite her attempts to prove me wrong, and right after that I asked her who she think it will believe in her as much as I do looking her right in her eyes. It hit her like a sledge hammer. She left but I came after her and she was just delighted, she wanted me to follow her, but right when we were about to enter in the metro she told me the thing that you should never tell an Aries, and that burned me like all hell break loose. ''You are no different from all the guys I've dated'' and I couldn't hold it anymore... It was the last drop. I told her that I'm leaving and I'm not coming back and I walked away. She literally screamed 'WHAT ARE YOU DOING?' and I turned to her and I screamed 'JUST WATCH ME, FOR THE NEXT 20 YEARS'. And we both turned around and left.

I want to leave all this behind because is just sick, but I want her so badly. Sex at this point would literally drive both insane. I feel so frustrated by this and a feel a strong urge to sleep with all the girls I can so I can forget her, even if that until this point I've been loyal to my feelings for her to the fault. I don't want to hurt her, but she pushes me into doing it.

What the fck I should do? I can move on if I really want to but I don't.

Guys, god dammit, I backed up, and this time I prefer to kill myself than talk to her again, and it was my intention to just go away for 12198 times. I'm not mad or something.

She does stuff every time I did this, she messaged me in the first month telling me to say if something was wrong, posted songs that I liked, and posted stuff on her tumblr after she saw I followed her, she don't post on that stuff without reason, her last posts there where from months ago... then after she saw I keep coming back she just spend time in my proximity acting sad, because she knew that it was enough.

I just want some peace of mind, because I work a lot, but this woman just keep popping up in a way or another when I'm exhausted, like she has a radar that draw her when I'm vulnerable to her shit. I'm not the one to blame I just try my best to solve this situation because is bugging me a lot. All this stress made me start smoking again, after half year of break.

You sound bit full of yourself and self-centered. Throughout the whole thing I just heard me me me... What you want and how much you want her... Well have you considered what she wants? And that she just got out of relationship and she might not be interested in dating right now? Or that she might be actually telling the truth about not wanting to be involved with you and you just perceiving that as a lie because you think it can't be the truth? Just because you feel certain way about someone, the way you're attracted to them physically and spiritually doesn't mean they feel the same way about you, although it seems they have to because of how strong your feelings are. When somebody shares the attraction and the feelings they don't have a reason to not indulge in that with the other person. Usually from my experience if two people are attracted to each other they wanna touch each other and get involved, both of them, without having problem with it. Otherwise it's called harassment. As a scorpio moon myself if I like someone I don't ignore them, I'm not trying to push them away on the contrary the control part is about keeping that special someone for myself! The idea of that special person fooling around with someone else would just make me sick. I don't think she's having such a strong feelings towards you that you keep talking about... I'd consider moving on.

I just want to know what motives she possibly have to knowingly put me trough all of this. I never did anything wrong to her, or she may thing I did but it is obvious that it was never on purpose.