Have you seen the movie The Holiday- with Cameron Diaz, Kate Winslet, Jude Law and Jack Black? There's a few scenes that remind me of my life: The part where she gets him a gift and he didn't get her anything so she feels like a fool. Also there's a part where she's at the house she rented and she's happy and playing music and then the guy she has a thing for calls and she then closes all the blinds, hides under the pillows and blankets and becomes depressed again.
I am torn. Part of me is happy that we're freinds, and we talk and get along. I see him and my heart races and then it drops as i realize "oh yeah he doesn't see me the same way". Then it recycles every day Monday thru Friday. I need to just get over it.