I have it.
I agree that in my younger years, I was full on. If I liked you, I was all in day 1.
If those feelings were reciprocated, I turned to manipulative games trying to coerce something out of the other person. Games on top of game. Crash and burn.
I'm 36 now and I've calmed down alot because I have had my love reciprocated so I know what it feels to let open the floodgates and not have the other person run away scared.
I need someone who sees my emotions as exciting and comforting.
Find comfort in my emotions. Treat yourself.