The Drowning Gemini - Welcome to the Dark Side


Life Path - 38/11

Sun - Gemini - 8th House
Moon - Scorpio - 12th House
Asc - Scorpio
Mercury - Gemini - 7th House
Venus - Cancer - 8th House
Mars - Cancer - 9th House
Jupiter - Gemini - 8th House
Saturn - Capricorn - 2nd House
Uranus - Capricorn - 2nd House
Neptune - Capricorn - 2nd House
Pluto - Scorpio - 1st House
North Node - Aquarius - 4th House
Chiron - Cancer - 8th House


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xXxAliciaxXx tried to expose the DXP members who were involved in the cult so now they are after her and she's in hiding 😑


She's not hiding

She'll be right back to business once she starts posting again! 😁😁😁

Lol I know just having fun. She's the fiercest woman on DXP 😊


God!!! I always tried to ignore this , but I see Alicia everywhere in almost every thread !! Who is she ?? What happened?? Someone plz tell me!!

Oh she just left or took a break before the holidays or something.

Aries girl who used to drag people hard and snatch them by their scalps. lol!


She was there even before I was away for a while. I always thought she's cool. Now I feel like I missed on something very huge. I'm not very curious in general. But you guys..lol!!


Nothing dramatic happened & she'll be back.


Hopefully @nemilicious & @truefantasy come back too.


Also dolluxe
Come back everyone!!!


Aw. Yes! I didn't realize dolluxe deleted... :/
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What!!!! She did? Aww man
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Posted by blackphase
Being stabbed..

It's a really irrational fear, but it's one I have had as long as I can remember and it really takes it's toll on my mind. I get paranoid about it and it's really dumb.


that's so weird.

like a past life regression as someone else mentioned here....

I get normal fears like on the list and in the video,

but nothing too much like that.
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I don't seem to have a lot of the normal fears.. Just fkn stupid ones. Lol
And yes, I am very interested in this past life regression, someone did mention it and I think it could be helpful to me here.
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I'm dedicating one to myself.. not waiting for you fools Hahah



Hehe!


u so predictableπŸ˜„
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I know...
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Being stabbed..

It's a really irrational fear, but it's one I have had as long as I can remember and it really takes it's toll on my mind. I get paranoid about it and it's really dumb.


wow - sorry that is horrible ... sounds like you may do with a past life regression session to see if that is where this is coming from and hopefully putting some of that behind you ...


I often wonder if that is where the fear comes from.. As it doesn't really make sense for me to fear this as much as I do.. but it almost runs my life. I am scared to be home alone or go anywhere alone at night. I can't get in my car without checking the back seats.. it's just dumb. Where could I get a past life regression reading? :/


I don't know but check into it - @yupvirgo got one - had a nice thread about it ... research and get someone good if you're paying for it ... sounds like that might "help" with your fear - and also do you carry "protection" ? a handgun perhaps or just mace ? something so you allay your fears a bit if you do have a bit of protection ...


@yupvirgo.. where did you get yours at?

And, no I do not carry protection aside from crystals and stones I wear. I have a black belt even but that doesn't help my fear.


I searched the internet for a nearby hypnotherapist of course and I found 2.

I didn't want the "quack doctor" ones coz there are plenty of them around here.

So I looked for ones that are actual doctors- the one I found nearest me specialized in hypnotherapy and alternative cancer treatments.

I don't carry around crystals and stones.. what do you suggest carrying for protection?
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So it's a Hypnotherapist that you went to? :/
Did they specialize in past life regression.. I didn't know Hypnotherapists did that.. I'll have to see what I can find more specifically to past life regressions here.

For protection - Amethyst, Hematite, Onyx, Goldstone
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Being stabbed..

It's a really irrational fear, but it's one I have had as long as I can remember and it really takes it's toll on my mind. I get paranoid about it and it's really dumb.


wow - sorry that is horrible ... sounds like you may do with a past life regression session to see if that is where this is coming from and hopefully putting some of that behind you ...


I often wonder if that is where the fear comes from.. As it doesn't really make sense for me to fear this as much as I do.. but it almost runs my life. I am scared to be home alone or go anywhere alone at night. I can't get in my car without checking the back seats.. it's just dumb. Where could I get a past life regression reading? :/


I don't know but check into it - @yupvirgo got one - had a nice thread about it ... research and get someone good if you're paying for it ... sounds like that might "help" with your fear - and also do you carry "protection" ? a handgun perhaps or just mace ? something so you allay your fears a bit if you do have a bit of protection ...


@yupvirgo.. where did you get yours at?

And, no I do not carry protection aside from crystals and stones I wear. I have a black belt even but that doesn't help my fear.


wow interesting that having a black belt doesn't help you feel more comfortable - what is it in ? may I ask ?


Uechi-Ryu is the style I did. I think I have more of a fear of my skin being penetrated.. I also have a fear of needles as well.. The thought of any sharp object puncturing my skin sends me over the edge.. I can't even watch it in movies when people are being stabbed or given needles. It turns my insides as I always imagine what it feels like.

I used to struggle a lot when showering. I always thought my boyfriend was going to stab me in the shower.. I felt this way with both of my exes.. so it wasn't just one person. People that I know loved me and that I trusted, I would still have this fear of.


what about nail scratches that you get from other people when they grab you too fast or roughly?
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No.. it's more surface, doesn't bother me so much. I have given myself stick and poke tattoos, that doesn't bother me. What we are made of on the inside disgusts me.. the thought of anything poking or probing, moving inside me.. it's that which really bothers me. As you can guess, surgery is definitely a great fear as well. It's not something I think I could ever do.
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Who would be the members?

@GetMisted
@blackphase because she's mysterious
@Hide
@tiziani

Who do you guys think? These are some of my picks 😊


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And, no I do not carry protection aside from crystals and stones I wear. I have a black belt even but that doesn't help my fear.

wow interesting that having a black belt doesn't help you feel more comfortable - what is it in ? may I ask ?

Uechi-Ryu is the style I did. I think I have more of a fear of my skin being penetrated.. I also have a fear of needles as well.. The thought of any sharp object puncturing my skin sends me over the edge.. I can't even watch it in movies when people are being stabbed or given needles. It turns my insides as I always imagine what it feels like.

I used to struggle a lot when showering. I always thought my boyfriend was going to stab me in the shower.. I felt this way with both of my exes.. so it wasn't just one person. People that I know loved me and that I trusted, I would still have this fear of.

omgoodness - wow - in a past life you could have been violated by a loved one - or tattooed to death lol not funny sorry ... and I'm sure that dark side comes through in your creativity ...


Yeah, it's kinda odd. Would be nice to have some insight on the matter for sure, could help tame it down.
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Being stabbed..

It's a really irrational fear, but it's one I have had as long as I can remember and it really takes it's toll on my mind. I get paranoid about it and it's really dumb.


wow - sorry that is horrible ... sounds like you may do with a past life regression session to see if that is where this is coming from and hopefully putting some of that behind you ...


I often wonder if that is where the fear comes from.. As it doesn't really make sense for me to fear this as much as I do.. but it almost runs my life. I am scared to be home alone or go anywhere alone at night. I can't get in my car without checking the back seats.. it's just dumb. Where could I get a past life regression reading? :/


I don't know but check into it - @yupvirgo got one - had a nice thread about it ... research and get someone good if you're paying for it ... sounds like that might "help" with your fear - and also do you carry "protection" ? a handgun perhaps or just mace ? something so you allay your fears a bit if you do have a bit of protection ...


@yupvirgo.. where did you get yours at?

And, no I do not carry protection aside from crystals and stones I wear. I have a black belt even but that doesn't help my fear.


wow interesting that having a black belt doesn't help you feel more comfortable - what is it in ? may I ask ?
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Uechi-Ryu is the style I did. I think I have more of a fear of my skin being penetrated.. I also have a fear of needles as well.. The thought of any sharp object puncturing my skin sends me over the edge.. I can't even watch it in movies when people are being stabbed or given needles. It turns my insides as I always imagine what it feels like.

I used to struggle a lot when showering. I always thought my boyfriend was going to stab me in the shower.. I felt this way with both of my exes.. so it wasn't just one person. People that I know loved me and that I trusted, I would still have this fear of.
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Being stabbed..

It's a really irrational fear, but it's one I have had as long as I can remember and it really takes it's toll on my mind. I get paranoid about it and it's really dumb.


wow - sorry that is horrible ... sounds like you may do with a past life regression session to see if that is where this is coming from and hopefully putting some of that behind you ...


I often wonder if that is where the fear comes from.. As it doesn't really make sense for me to fear this as much as I do.. but it almost runs my life. I am scared to be home alone or go anywhere alone at night. I can't get in my car without checking the back seats.. it's just dumb. Where could I get a past life regression reading? :/


I don't know but check into it - @yupvirgo got one - had a nice thread about it ... research and get someone good if you're paying for it ... sounds like that might "help" with your fear - and also do you carry "protection" ? a handgun perhaps or just mace ? something so you allay your fears a bit if you do have a bit of protection ...
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@yupvirgo.. where did you get yours at?

And, no I do not carry protection aside from crystals and stones I wear. I have a black belt even but that doesn't help my fear.
@tcta - I guess that's the gentler version of my dream

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The white picket fence isn't meant to keep anyone out. It's for curb appeal. Part of the American Dream from the 50s is to live in a safe, happy, suburban neighborhood where you don't need walls or to even lock your doors at night.


Okay, yeah this is pretty much what I was going to say.. The fence is just for looks.. Lol
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Being stabbed..

It's a really irrational fear, but it's one I have had as long as I can remember and it really takes it's toll on my mind. I get paranoid about it and it's really dumb.


wow - sorry that is horrible ... sounds like you may do with a past life regression session to see if that is where this is coming from and hopefully putting some of that behind you ...
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I often wonder if that is where the fear comes from.. As it doesn't really make sense for me to fear this as much as I do.. but it almost runs my life. I am scared to be home alone or go anywhere alone at night. I can't get in my car without checking the back seats.. it's just dumb. Where could I get a past life regression reading? :/
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"The Drowning Gemini...Welcome to the Dark Side." Yes, my "light" and funny Gemini is so fun and playful, but ABSOLUTELY has that dark side. We all do! I have never in my life been put in my place with mere words. He possesses the ability to kick my ass with his words. We when argue, he will say something that leaves me dumbfounded. Sometimes I am just like...what...wait...what happened?? Hey, what you tryin' say?


Hahaha. We do have our way with words. Although my "welcome to the dark side" was never in regard to my Gemini influence, it's all the water in my chart that causes me to see only the darkness in the world.
Being stabbed..

It's a really irrational fear, but it's one I have had as long as I can remember and it really takes it's toll on my mind. I get paranoid about it and it's really dumb.
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So, I keep reading that Scorpios are controlling in relationships. I know that they are controlling during the flirting and chasing stage, mostly of how the interactions go, and I've seen how that looks. Do you think you are controlling once you are in a committed relationship? If so, how? What does control mean to you? Is it about fear of cheating; are other things involved? Scorpio partners or former partners, feel free to chime in.


8th House Sun, Scorp Moon, Asc & Pluto.

Find it funny that you know them to be more controlling during the initial stages.. That's when I am at my best.. It gets worse after that. I struggle with control issues in every aspect of my life.. with my time, my job, everything. In relationships I think it's more due to my insecurity that really peaks it.


Well, I was trying not to divulge too much about my own situation. I have never dated a Scorpio. I am interested in one (that's an understatement) and we've been in a standoff for many reasons, not all his fault. Mostly not his fault, in fact. Anyway, I can sense that he controls things, and he's confided in me about some things that would explain why. He may very well get more controlling in a committed relationship. I'm trying to learn what that's all about. Maybe it should scare me off, but it doesn't. I know I'm not really controllable, I guess. ;P


I can tell you for sure.. He WILL be more controlling in a committed relationship :/ Sorry


So, how do you control? Can you give an example?


Hmm.. It's not even something I am conscious about when doing it a lot of the time.. I recognize it after. I just tend to tie people down, they spend all of their time with me.. and it's not even anything I am doing, not like it's something I force.. I guess I have just been lucky that all of my relationships have been with people that don't mind being up one anothers ass 24/7.


LOL! Sounds like me.. Love being up under each others asses! It's difficult for me now that I'm with a cappy man.. have to learn to be apart for long periods of time! lol


Haha. Yeah, the Libra and I have been apart for quite some time now.. Not easy on my head at all. I have a very self sabotaging mind.


You're NOT the only one my scorpion friend!.. My mind thinks all types of stupid butter.. "He's cheating" "he doesn't like me like I like him" "he's playing me" MAN oh man!! I have to keep myself even busier than I normally am...to shut my thoughts up.. Cause he always is doing exactly what he says he has to do.. he doesn't have a lot of time for me so he damn sure has no time for others..& we video chat often.. makes me feel a bit secure.. LOL! you know how Scorpios are... LOL! But I stay busy like him..I have my own business and work a 9-5.. I travel often and am invited to a lot of events.. He's a workaholic and we are in a LDR! SAD SAD Situation for a woman like me that wants so much of my partners time! I wanna be up under his ass!
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I can completely relate to that! He talks to me all damn day and video chats me, but it doesn't stop my head from doing what it does. It's a curse!
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So, I keep reading that Scorpios are controlling in relationships. I know that they are controlling during the flirting and chasing stage, mostly of how the interactions go, and I've seen how that looks. Do you think you are controlling once you are in a committed relationship? If so, how? What does control mean to you? Is it about fear of cheating; are other things involved? Scorpio partners or former partners, feel free to chime in.


8th House Sun, Scorp Moon, Asc & Pluto.

Find it funny that you know them to be more controlling during the initial stages.. That's when I am at my best.. It gets worse after that. I struggle with control issues in every aspect of my life.. with my time, my job, everything. In relationships I think it's more due to my insecurity that really peaks it.


Well, I was trying not to divulge too much about my own situation. I have never dated a Scorpio. I am interested in one (that's an understatement) and we've been in a standoff for many reasons, not all his fault. Mostly not his fault, in fact. Anyway, I can sense that he controls things, and he's confided in me about some things that would explain why. He may very well get more controlling in a committed relationship. I'm trying to learn what that's all about. Maybe it should scare me off, but it doesn't. I know I'm not really controllable, I guess. ;P


I can tell you for sure.. He WILL be more controlling in a committed relationship :/ Sorry


So, how do you control? Can you give an example?


Hmm.. It's not even something I am conscious about when doing it a lot of the time.. I recognize it after. I just tend to tie people down, they spend all of their time with me.. and it's not even anything I am doing, not like it's something I force.. I guess I have just been lucky that all of my relationships have been with people that don't mind being up one anothers ass 24/7.


I'm a homebody, and my ideal dating situation is to end up married, so I don't think I'd set off someone's jealousy very often on that front. I do like to spend a few hours alone in my office every day, though. I'm a writer. I need solitude more than to mingle with other people. I do like chatting with random people on the internet, though.


I am a homebody too. And I can relate to needing some time to yourself with your thoughts. Awesome that you are a writer, how did you get into that? That's something I could see myself doing.


It was always one of the things I wanted to be when I grew up. I went to graduate school for it. I've taught writing and literature and have written for companies. I'm trying to finish my first novel now. You can tell how well I'm doing by how much posting I've been doing here.


Hahaha! That is something I had always thought of doing as well.. but I don't have any education for it. What is your novel about?


You don't actually need education to be a writer. You just need to write.

My novel is about a revenge killer. She finds her victims on the internet. Dun dun dun!
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Nah, but I figured the education would help you freelance jobs to make money while writing a novel

Ouu, that would be a cool story!
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So, I keep reading that Scorpios are controlling in relationships. I know that they are controlling during the flirting and chasing stage, mostly of how the interactions go, and I've seen how that looks. Do you think you are controlling once you are in a committed relationship? If so, how? What does control mean to you? Is it about fear of cheating; are other things involved? Scorpio partners or former partners, feel free to chime in.


8th House Sun, Scorp Moon, Asc & Pluto.

Find it funny that you know them to be more controlling during the initial stages.. That's when I am at my best.. It gets worse after that. I struggle with control issues in every aspect of my life.. with my time, my job, everything. In relationships I think it's more due to my insecurity that really peaks it.


Well, I was trying not to divulge too much about my own situation. I have never dated a Scorpio. I am interested in one (that's an understatement) and we've been in a standoff for many reasons, not all his fault. Mostly not his fault, in fact. Anyway, I can sense that he controls things, and he's confided in me about some things that would explain why. He may very well get more controlling in a committed relationship. I'm trying to learn what that's all about. Maybe it should scare me off, but it doesn't. I know I'm not really controllable, I guess. ;P


I can tell you for sure.. He WILL be more controlling in a committed relationship :/ Sorry


So, how do you control? Can you give an example?


Hmm.. It's not even something I am conscious about when doing it a lot of the time.. I recognize it after. I just tend to tie people down, they spend all of their time with me.. and it's not even anything I am doing, not like it's something I force.. I guess I have just been lucky that all of my relationships have been with people that don't mind being up one anothers ass 24/7.


LOL! Sounds like me.. Love being up under each others asses! It's difficult for me now that I'm with a cappy man.. have to learn to be apart for long periods of time! lol
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Haha. Yeah, the Libra and I have been apart for quite some time now.. Not easy on my head at all. I have a very self sabotaging mind.
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So, I keep reading that Scorpios are controlling in relationships. I know that they are controlling during the flirting and chasing stage, mostly of how the interactions go, and I've seen how that looks. Do you think you are controlling once you are in a committed relationship? If so, how? What does control mean to you? Is it about fear of cheating; are other things involved? Scorpio partners or former partners, feel free to chime in.


8th House Sun, Scorp Moon, Asc & Pluto.

Find it funny that you know them to be more controlling during the initial stages.. That's when I am at my best.. It gets worse after that. I struggle with control issues in every aspect of my life.. with my time, my job, everything. In relationships I think it's more due to my insecurity that really peaks it.


Well, I was trying not to divulge too much about my own situation. I have never dated a Scorpio. I am interested in one (that's an understatement) and we've been in a standoff for many reasons, not all his fault. Mostly not his fault, in fact. Anyway, I can sense that he controls things, and he's confided in me about some things that would explain why. He may very well get more controlling in a committed relationship. I'm trying to learn what that's all about. Maybe it should scare me off, but it doesn't. I know I'm not really controllable, I guess. ;P


I can tell you for sure.. He WILL be more controlling in a committed relationship :/ Sorry


So, how do you control? Can you give an example?


Hmm.. It's not even something I am conscious about when doing it a lot of the time.. I recognize it after. I just tend to tie people down, they spend all of their time with me.. and it's not even anything I am doing, not like it's something I force.. I guess I have just been lucky that all of my relationships have been with people that don't mind being up one anothers ass 24/7.


I'm a homebody, and my ideal dating situation is to end up married, so I don't think I'd set off someone's jealousy very often on that front. I do like to spend a few hours alone in my office every day, though. I'm a writer. I need solitude more than to mingle with other people. I do like chatting with random people on the internet, though.


I am a homebody too. And I can relate to needing some time to yourself with your thoughts. Awesome that you are a writer, how did you get into that? That's something I could see myself doing.


It was always one of the things I wanted to be when I grew up. I went to graduate school for it. I've taught writing and literature and have written for companies. I'm trying to finish my first novel now. You can tell how well I'm doing by how much posting I've been doing here.
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Hahaha! That is something I had always thought of doing as well.. but I don't have any education for it. What is your novel about?
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What... I thought he left forever ago :/


no he stayed to become a PM secret lothario
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Damnn.. I guess I was not one of the chosen ..XD
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So, I keep reading that Scorpios are controlling in relationships. I know that they are controlling during the flirting and chasing stage, mostly of how the interactions go, and I've seen how that looks. Do you think you are controlling once you are in a committed relationship? If so, how? What does control mean to you? Is it about fear of cheating; are other things involved? Scorpio partners or former partners, feel free to chime in.


8th House Sun, Scorp Moon, Asc & Pluto.

Find it funny that you know them to be more controlling during the initial stages.. That's when I am at my best.. It gets worse after that. I struggle with control issues in every aspect of my life.. with my time, my job, everything. In relationships I think it's more due to my insecurity that really peaks it.


Well, I was trying not to divulge too much about my own situation. I have never dated a Scorpio. I am interested in one (that's an understatement) and we've been in a standoff for many reasons, not all his fault. Mostly not his fault, in fact. Anyway, I can sense that he controls things, and he's confided in me about some things that would explain why. He may very well get more controlling in a committed relationship. I'm trying to learn what that's all about. Maybe it should scare me off, but it doesn't. I know I'm not really controllable, I guess. ;P


I can tell you for sure.. He WILL be more controlling in a committed relationship :/ Sorry


So, how do you control? Can you give an example?


Hmm.. It's not even something I am conscious about when doing it a lot of the time.. I recognize it after. I just tend to tie people down, they spend all of their time with me.. and it's not even anything I am doing, not like it's something I force.. I guess I have just been lucky that all of my relationships have been with people that don't mind being up one anothers ass 24/7.


I'm a homebody, and my ideal dating situation is to end up married, so I don't think I'd set off someone's jealousy very often on that front. I do like to spend a few hours alone in my office every day, though. I'm a writer. I need solitude more than to mingle with other people. I do like chatting with random people on the internet, though.
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I am a homebody too. And I can relate to needing some time to yourself with your thoughts. Awesome that you are a writer, how did you get into that? That's something I could see myself doing.