I would lay low key, brood in my feelings about how they did me wrong and plot. Watch their actions, lives, personality etc..
Than I would come back into their lives become their best friend, do sweet things, raise them up and right when I knew they got super close.. I would remove the pedestal from underneath them and cut it off.
I was ruthless, and cold but than again my past made me this way. Having to always fend for myself from bad people. I was used and mistreated for so long that I was tired of more people hurting me. Negative and positive energy is karmic, and eventually I got mine.
I’m not like that now. I’m honest, tell them I’m not interested having them in my life and wish them the best. I let go and leave in the hands of the big man upstairs, life is a lot better since changing my ways.
So to answer your question, yes I feel bad and regret it.
Be honest and tell him. Either he takes it or not.
I trtrked up big time, he used to be so open, energetic, charismatic and affectionate near me. Now he’s hesitant, distant and cold. He watches me with distrust.
The long drives, the long conversations at night on the phone telling me about his goals/ambitions til he fell asleep, stuffing our face together, playing around, joking, him playing the guitar and singing to me, karaoke, when he laid his head on my lap and I would massage his scalp, the forehead kisses... sigh 😔
That’s what I’m noticing and as an Aries moon, I do.
well most of us show our real "form" when we are private with someone we trust (like a lot), and feel we can be disinhibited without people misinterpreting what we do, I had past acquaintances were a hug could be taken as interest, I don't do hugging anymore, there's a lot of normal expression of affection I don't do anymore.
we can love a lot, and are very serious about it, is the cappy/cancer axis, as much love as cancer, but we don't smoother, we swallow all that, cuz people can't be trusted.
cap, as anything ruled by saturn is like an old-fashioned dad, he's always there watching over you, with that frowned expression of disapproval, but we love you, otherwise we wouldn't be putting with all your "peopleness" lmao now you have to put your story of betrayal, so we can understand why he's like "sigh, this one again"
Posted by pinkbird03 My guess is he’s not comfortable around you. Is there too much pressure? Are you asking too much from him? Are you being dramatic? Are you showing him too much of yourself and not creating a mystery?
He’s not comfortable because of the events that happened between us last year.
We started dating January 2018, everything was going great but my insecurities started creeping out from my past relationship and at that time my ex was still texting me and harassing, calling me a just like me slut and other horrible things because I was finally moving on. My ex couldn’t handle the thought, he was being obsessive stalking me even though we had separated years before. He’s a Scorpio moon.
Well all this that was happening started affecting me heavily, I would lay in bed crying myself to sleep, thinking I didn’t really deserve love; believing the things my ex was telling me. One day while sag and I were still on good terms I caught it off with him, saying I was gonna date other people and I hurt him but the truth is I made that excuse I really wasn’t going to date, I just felt I wasn’t good enough for him.. and he deserved better. 😞
I couldn’t get over my feelings for him so a month passed and I contacted him again. He immediately replied, excited to hear from me but still my insecurities were lingering so I asked if he wanted sex and nothing else. He was hesitant but agreed to it. I could sense that’s not what he really wanted from me and that’s not what I really wanted either, I just wanted to be close I wanted to touch him, hold him, and see him. I didn’t feel adequate to be his woman.. he’s this successful man who’s attractive, sweet, funny, intelligent with an amazing heart.
He hits me up one night asking for sex but something felt off he was more aggressive.. he never acted that way with me. His words, “ yeah come on let’s trtrk that’s what you want because that’s all it is right?” I come over and he was drinking, smells like beer. He looks messy, beard full grown and looks exhausted, stressed like he hasn’t slept in days. Before that when things were good he was always great about his appearance and trimmed up. We had sex and it was good but kinda cold, with confused tension between us. When we’re laying in the bed, he starts opening up to me spilling about his life and work, I felt this craving from him that he wanted from me but he held back. I decided to leave because it was getting late so I started getting dressed, he followed me out to the living room showing me his finances how much he makes (action), I praised him but kept walking out the door, he meets me at his truck, he’s still talking opening up. Shows me his guitar and the music he’s written (action), looking right me. I wasn’t trying to be rude but I wanted him to say something, anything about how he felt but all I feel was despair in his eyes. He walked me to my car and that was that. I went home laid in bed, and I knew at that moment I soul tied with him. I felt his energy/presence surging through my body. I couldn’t sleep, I kept tossing and turning.. it felt like he was laying next to me and I was starting to fall for him. I dreamt about him that night. I wake up and I don’t contact him til a week later but my text came off like I wasn’t interested, that’s not true I worded it wrong.. months later he keeps watching my snaps than deletes me.
first - I do things for them, help out, accept favours and show small gestures of love now and then, like doodle something that is not an obvious ‘I’m in love’ thing and just leave it there
second - I touch them. depending on how they reciprocate, I either back off, go slow or just go all in. I’m bad at talking, so all things physical is my comfort zone here
I think this might be why fire moons can struggle with a Cap Moon...the lack of words.
This is exactly what I deal with... he even has Scorpio mercury so that makes it worse. So I have to sense everything off of him if he’s not being physical or showing actions. He’s not a blunt sag whatsoever, he’s more silent and serious.
Dang :/ that's another placement that's not much for words.
"So I have to sense everything off of him if he’s not being physical or showing actions." ---> Does this happen often and is there ever a case where what you sense is not correct?
No not often because I’m trying to come back into his life but I know when he’s stepping back to observe me from behind the scene.
I feel my environment, and the people in it. So let’s say I’m spending time with him and he’s not talking it’s like.. I know what he’s feeling in general or toward me because of the type of energy he exudes. I also watch his body language, remember certain words he’s said to me.
As of now, we haven’t met in person yet, which I want to do because it’s easier to feel out the situation that way. We’ve only been messaging, the last time I saw him was March 2018.
What's stopping you from meeting up with him?
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His standoffish behavior, so I’m waiting til he’s comfortable to initiate something.