About 6 years ago he had his first real scare, he had bi-pass surgery and has tried to reach out in his way and then as his sisters dropped away, I think that's when he realised his mistakes, however all too late for 3 out of 4 of his children!

I'm going to pick up the phone tomorrow and speak to his wife and him if he can, I know there isnt a convienient time for this but right now I'm in the middle of some things that need me here, if I left I could only spare 3 days at the most!

And then there is the funeral...do I miss that to see him prior?

Mmmmm, I'm not big on sharing...she is rather cute though

Thing is I've have tried all my life...when a daddy leaves a little girl and she is told that she is his favourite all her life but there is and hasnt been any evidence of it, even though there has been plenty of opportunities...you harden the fuck up and realise that your Real Dad (step dad) that bought you up from a teen is your father.

If I go back it would only be because the Libran in me cant hurt someone and it would be because he has asked for me...

Although after speaking to my brother tonight, his liver has packed up and he is home with his wife and maybe incoherent now. When my brother gets there tomorrow he will call and let me know..

The scales are going crazy and I dont know which way to go

OMG P Angel and PP are the same...talk about opposites!

I think she wants us both!

You're high right now arent you Pandy???

She can work in your club Don...the classy one of course

lol

Just got a call from Mum and she says that my Dad is dying...he lives back in NZ and I'm in Auss. My brother also in NZ is flying up to see him. I thought about it for 2 seconds and then decided not to go. But I feel a little guilty...

He left me and my brothers when I was 5yrs old and I never saw him again until I was 16, I found him. No support was ever paid. He would visit his sister when she was alive occassionally, I was a very regular visitor with my Aunt, she was like my only relative growing up and I would take my kids there when he came so they could at least meet him and know him a little. Then as his sisters and family passed we saw each other at funerals etc. Funny enough even though I had only seen him a half dozen times throughtout my life, he was very familiar and it felt as if I knew him and he had always been there. ( Maybe because my Aunt and he had similar mannerisms and looks )

Anyway Fast Forward about 3 years ago after I moved to Aussie he asked me if he could come and visit. I welcomed him into my home with my children and he proceeded to sit at my breakfast bar every night for the first 4 nights at 5pm like clockwork and drink himself stupid. (Mum says it's a habit he developed after the army, sitting at the RSL with mates every night) I took offense to it, I mean how dare he after all these years do that around MY family, it was obvious to me that he hadnt changed at all. He was still a drunk loser father and I didnt want my kids to see anymore so I kicked him out and he went to stay with my brother for the remainder of his holiday.

I decided then that I wasnt interested in trying to keep a relationship with him, didnt talk much when he rang and never gave my new phone number when I moved. Problem is, as a Libran, will I regret feeling this cold? I am his favourite, the only girl out of 4 and he has always expressed that and mum confirmed through the years. He only ever wanted a daughter...so that makes me feel stink that he maybe on his death bed. Would you go see someone dying because you know it would mean alot to them?

to be taught something you have to want to learn, nothing wrong with upping your skills in life, however if the other person on their high horse is forcing you to better yourself for their image, that seems rather controlling and will it stop there??? What else about you dont they like and want to change? *Red Flag*

You e-love me dont you?

You sound like you are defeated already before you actually get anywhere!!! Soooo negative and that will surely be the end result because it is what you are looking for.

If I were you, play it one day at a time and as Amey says, go witht he flow and stop looking for trouble, he'll pick up on it and then you will have regrets!!!!

I meant Pandoras cute little gig...I've hand picked a sexy pic for you

I was in a similar situation and as I was told it's all in your head, little signs you make out to be more than they are becasue you want him. He hasnt and wasnt responding to you and all your texts goodnight. He did when he was drunk and put down some words that obviously he regrets texting becuase he hasnt even offered up an apology for it. He still chooses to ignore you or not do anything to give you hope that he wants you, that says he wants nothing more than a friendship with you...you are making all the advances.

If a guy is really into you, he will move like lightening...I know it's not what you want to hear, as i didnt and went down that path and learnt the hard way, but it seriously appears that "he is just not that into you"

Love that avatar, it's so delightful Although you cant really tell someone off with it and them take you seriously!

Handcuffing me to the sink wont do much...I have lovely long legs, we'd reach, of course it'd be a hell of a site sooo no video taping

Has he ever been a player?? A player would use those words without hesitaion!

Thanks Spica, you arent Mistery too are you? lol It pretty much fits me and alot of what Libras are.

As one born on this October 9 birth date yours is a path in life of diversity, and you will tend to seek diversity purely for the sake of being different. As example, you are inherent of a fervent freedom of spirit, and there will be those occasions in life when can feel like expressing a bit of rebelliousness if only for its own sake.

this is me to a tee, I get so bored with myself that I want to almost rebel and do something completely different and so out of character but it never really amounts to much because teh other side reins me in again!!!


@ VB, It's not really an explosive relationship but sadly I cant be bothered spending much time with her because it mostly ends horrid...Sad to not really like being around your own child much...and that's it, I love her but cant understand her thinking for the life of me and her Dad is of the exact feeling. And it's not just us that see it, alot of people scratch their heads at her thoughts! And she is 21...perhaps the years and experience will change her.

Wow is all I can say unforgiven, I am a Libra and you are Scary and way too intense and I'd be running and blocking you too...You really need to get a grip on reality!

Bit of drunken flirting there...But only the Don brings that out in me!