I have done something that could hurt another person if she found out. which she won't... I love my friend and I want him to be happy in this relationship if he chooses to stay in it. I don't intend to embark on an affair, I just feel like I have allowed him to release something that has been repressed. I am of the belief that we all have potential to be reached and I don't like to see parts of peoples personalities being squashed because of their partner. I see another side to him that I think he should embrace and celebrate. he is a young man who likes sex but loves his girlfriend, who doesn't give him enough. They are not sexually compatible. it is a common problem I have come across before and it is very sad because that person feels torn between loving their girlfriend and wanting to do right by her, but at the same time having sexual urges that cannot be ignored forever.
I would like to talk to him about it at some point, coz I guess he has no one else to talk to about it as none of our other friends know that their relationship is less than perfect. That would be more helpful than having sex with him.
It is a difficult one, coz my motivation to sleep with him comes from being a best friend and responding to his wishes to sleep with me (he is driven by lust). So I think that is why i don't feel that guilty. It just doesn't feel like a bad thing, whereas if it was more lustful and passionate for me then I would feel more involved and feel more guilt. I don't want him to leave her for me, and he hasn't given any indication he ever would. so I don't see I am a threat.
but I probably will get hit by karma. I deserve it
