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WaterDevil
joined May 06, 2017
27 years old
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by Gemitati
    I see perfect couple here!
    Hope in a few months we going to all be invited to the wedding!
    I would stay away from any mushrooms except porcini...
    Otherwise I might ruing the wedding...🥂
    . ewww marriage. yuck. treetrunk no.
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by Arielle83
    Posted by WaterDevil
    Posted by Arielle83
    Posted by Arachnophobia
    Posted by WaterDevil
    Posted by Arachnophobia
    Do MDMA with her


    No. I dont mess with that anymore.


    do it


    Ketamine.
    Lol what’s that like Arielle ??


    Dissasociative. You wouldn’t be thinking you’re falling in love. That’s for sure.

    On mushies I just laugh and talk mad smack.

    I don’t get the falling in love thing.

    On ghb I get crazy horny and then feel dirty about it and never wanna see the person again. Or I get real pornstar lust.

    On mdma I’m like gimme a massage and good night

    On e I just dance then bump of k and smoke a j and I’m on the best buzz.

    Never fallen in love on drugs. I know I’m not myself on them so I don’t even go there emotionally.
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    . sheesh lol. but yeah im already a dissociative person. so maybe its best i just stick with the earthy tings. iv done my fair share of trash in the past to thats for sure
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by -sierra-
    Posted by WaterDevil
    Posted by -sierra-
    i love how you're in love every other day lol


    GIRLLLL this is ONE of TWO in the last 2 years I said I “LOVED”. Sure I lust a lot. But I don’t drop “LOVE” freely. Go fact check.


    i'm just kidding lol

    you come off very enthusiastic to me actually, always so giddy
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    . lol! thank you smile Im a cancer with a Libra rising and sag moon...sooooooo...
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by -sierra-
    i love how you're in love every other day lol


    GIRLLLL this is ONE of TWO in the last 2 years I said I “LOVED”. Sure I lust a lot. But I don’t drop “LOVE” freely. Go fact check.
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by Arielle83
    Posted by Arachnophobia
    Posted by WaterDevil
    Posted by Arachnophobia
    Do MDMA with her


    No. I dont mess with that anymore.


    do it


    Ketamine.
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    Lol what’s that like Arielle ??
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by boxcarmirnta
    Posted by WaterDevil
    Posted by boxcarmirnta
    Posted by WaterDevil
    Posted by boxcarmirnta
    You can fall in love with a mailbox on mushrooms....jus sayin....



    FALSE. I tested this theory with a friend who I tripped with on the SAME mushrooms a week before I tripped with this woman Im speaking of. My friend who I tripped with first is also a pisces I was crushing on and knew for a little bit now. We have a flirty relationship, and doing mushrooms together definitely opened us up to one another and made us super close and cudly and intimate and vulnerable and all that. But by the end of the trip, I realized how it opened my eyes that I love her yes, but ONLY as a FRIEND. And it brought our friendship closer, but no we didnt fall in love. And I think you are confusing ACID with Shrooms. ACID makes people fall in love artificially. Shrooms allow you to see and feel whats ALREADY in existance quicker and stronger because the pscilociben lets down your ego and allows you to actually SEE the world and the feelings ect. It doesnt fabricate. it doesnt in all reality make you "trip" even. Life is already "trippy". We can only see it when our egos are down.
    yea i stand by my story sorry ive heard it more times than i can count.
    . k
    the man i was in love with cheated on me and said they did mushrooms and fell in love. They knew eachother like a week.......:/
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    I’m sorry.. that must have really hurt you Sad. But I have KNOWN this girl since January. And on a deep level from the start, it was never superficial. And finally we met in person in June but already talked each other’s ears off and both joked how it was nice that we already knew each other and were solid friends before I came down. It didnt feel awkward at all just felt right. Like we were already best buddies. But than when we met feelings that were never forseen apprehended us even before we ate the mushrooms. The night before I slept over she cuddled with me all night. And I knew I had feelings than but didn’t really think too much in to it. Next morning before we ate the mushrooms I kissed her. Because I wanted to... and I didn’t want to do it while we were tripping because I wanted her to know at the least that’s THAT was real. And I didn’t want the trip to be about that at all. After the kiss even I didn’t expect the shrooms to show us how much we truly care about each other and always have. And understand each other. we saw each other’s souls. Listen... this wasn’t my first trip and Iv tripped with people I love VERY much and some of which are pseudo plotonic. this was very much real.. pscylocibin just showed us what was already there.. we didn’t even want to have sex or anything. Our hearts were just BLEEEDING for each other we were so connected to the point where our waves were the SAME and our trip basically got extremely synced up. Maybe your ex was LUSTING this girl and feeling it on over drive while tripping. But shrooms just make you feel what you are already feeling HARDER. That’s why they say “don’t do them when you are in a bad mood”. Cause you’ll feel even worse.
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by boxcarmirnta
    Posted by WaterDevil
    Posted by boxcarmirnta
    You can fall in love with a mailbox on mushrooms....jus sayin....



    FALSE. I tested this theory with a friend who I tripped with on the SAME mushrooms a week before I tripped with this woman Im speaking of. My friend who I tripped with first is also a pisces I was crushing on and knew for a little bit now. We have a flirty relationship, and doing mushrooms together definitely opened us up to one another and made us super close and cudly and intimate and vulnerable and all that. But by the end of the trip, I realized how it opened my eyes that I love her yes, but ONLY as a FRIEND. And it brought our friendship closer, but no we didnt fall in love. And I think you are confusing ACID with Shrooms. ACID makes people fall in love artificially. Shrooms allow you to see and feel whats ALREADY in existance quicker and stronger because the pscilociben lets down your ego and allows you to actually SEE the world and the feelings ect. It doesnt fabricate. it doesnt in all reality make you "trip" even. Life is already "trippy". We can only see it when our egos are down.
    yea i stand by my story sorry ive heard it more times than i can count.
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    . k
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    my father.
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by boxcarmirnta
    You can fall in love with a mailbox on mushrooms....jus sayin....



    FALSE. I tested this theory with a friend who I tripped with on the SAME mushrooms a week before I tripped with this woman Im speaking of. My friend who I tripped with first is also a pisces I was crushing on and knew for a little bit now. We have a flirty relationship, and doing mushrooms together definitely opened us up to one another and made us super close and cudly and intimate and vulnerable and all that. But by the end of the trip, I realized how it opened my eyes that I love her yes, but ONLY as a FRIEND. And it brought our friendship closer, but no we didnt fall in love. And I think you are confusing ACID with Shrooms. ACID makes people fall in love artificially. Shrooms allow you to see and feel whats ALREADY in existance quicker and stronger because the pscilociben lets down your ego and allows you to actually SEE the world and the feelings ect. It doesnt fabricate. it doesnt in all reality make you "trip" even. Life is already "trippy". We can only see it when our egos are down.
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by tiziani
    I think just give it time and show each other that you can both get what you want AND be productive.

    Distance does not help. How are you meant to show each other anything from afar?

    If it's still just distance, texting and reflecting over what's the best way to go forward, that is just more circles.


    damn. That is so painfully true.
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by tiziani
    Posted by WaterDevil
    Posted by tiziani
    Posted by WaterDevil
    Point is. Don’t know if I should fight to fight this darkness with her...or leave her be? I just want to do the right thing, but she keeps thinking we are doomed.. but I don’t see it like that Sad


    Let's be real "I'm with her because it's the right thing to do" said no one ever.
    . but the truth is I DO want to be with her. I said this to her. But i dont think thats right of me. I think it would be selfish of me. And I have my own toxic history I dont want to revert back to.. but I really believe when Im around her and we see eachother's faces Im able to help steer things to make them more productive. But maybe she needs to just work through it first. But she wont get help, and that worries me so much. But who am I? I cant push help on to anyone. But I cant help in the back of my head and feel like she wants me to show up at her door but I dont know if she wants me to. I even said that once amongst a previous text and she pretended like I didnt. I cant tell if shes testing me, and I REALLLY dont like that. I sent her nirvana-"heart shaped box" following my voice note. I just said "not sure if you heard this song before but kurt cobain (pisces) wrote this about his wife courtney love (cancer). I figured she may relate but I left that out as to let her decide for her self. She always sends me songs when Im upset... I just wish she understood that I care... And that I just want the best for her.


    There are too many conflicts of interest here.

    For example you second guessing her motivations and wondering if you should take them personally.

    I'd just say if you pursue her romantically it is like you said, you're doing it because you want to.

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    Yeah thats the sole reason of my boundaries that iv adopted. Because my ego be getting in the way easy as treetrunk... but she brings out the best in me, because my heart more than anything wants to just do the thing that makes HER happy. And I mean that.
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by tiziani
    Posted by WaterDevil
    Point is. Don’t know if I should fight to fight this darkness with her...or leave her be? I just want to do the right thing, but she keeps thinking we are doomed.. but I don’t see it like that Sad


    Let's be real "I'm with her because it's the right thing to do" said no one ever.
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    . but the truth is I DO want to be with her. I said this to her. But i dont think thats right of me. I think it would be selfish of me. And I have my own toxic history I dont want to revert back to.. but I really believe when Im around her and we see eachother's faces Im able to help steer things to make them more productive. But maybe she needs to just work through it first. But she wont get help, and that worries me so much. But who am I? I cant push help on to anyone. But I cant help in the back of my head and feel like she wants me to show up at her door but I dont know if she wants me to. I even said that once amongst a previous text and she pretended like I didnt. I cant tell if shes testing me, and I REALLLY dont like that. I sent her nirvana-"heart shaped box" following my voice note. I just said "not sure if you heard this song before but kurt cobain (pisces) wrote this about his wife courtney love (cancer). I figured she may relate but I left that out as to let her decide for her self. She always sends me songs when Im upset... I just wish she understood that I care... And that I just want the best for her.
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by Piscoi
    Posted by WaterDevil
    Posted by Piscoi
    Psychologically damaged Pisces are tough... just know, that you’re going to have to fight long and hard to get through to her.


    Yeah I can’t even physically be there or if show up to her job already and pick her up. I don’t know what to do at this point, what’s best. Fight or flight? I want to fight. I have SO MUCH in me. But in the past that has proven to be the wrong choice... I also have a hero complex I need to watch.


    Honestly, it’s a lot of work, and even if you have the fight, it may become too tiring on both ends. Let the situation go.
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    Yeah I think it’s for the best at this point. I seem to trigger her anyway... ugh just as I fall for someone there always seems to be a problem. When we are together tho I bring out the best energy out of her. I don’t do well with low vibrating people. And how she’s acting now is not how she was in person. We were able to talk and every time she’d go too deep in to something I was able to pull her out of it quite swiftly with a simple smile, explaining that everything is “all good”. And reminding her to just enjoy the moment. It wasn’t until I left that all these low vibrations happened. And this does feel bad and toxic right now. I’m thinking this is one of those teaching moments for the both of us.... if it’s meant to be it’ll be.. right? :/ love really is a cookiemonster
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Point is. Don’t know if I should fight to fight this darkness with her...or leave her be? I just want to do the right thing, but she keeps thinking we are doomed.. but I don’t see it like that Sad
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by tiziani
    "if its not a good time than its not a good time."

    That was the best line for me. Basically she has zero boundaries.


    I said that not her.
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by Piscoi
    Psychologically damaged Pisces are tough... just know, that you’re going to have to fight long and hard to get through to her.


    Yeah I can’t even physically be there or if show up to her job already and pick her up. I don’t know what to do at this point, what’s best. Fight or flight? I want to fight. I have SO MUCH in me. But in the past that has proven to be the wrong choice... I also have a hero complex I need to watch.
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    Posted by Arachnophobia
    Do MDMA with her


    No. I dont mess with that anymore.
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    This is my Pisces lady that lives 6 hours away. We tripped on mushrooms together and fell in love (unspokenly). She told me she loved me twice accidentally during that trip and we havnt seen each other since. And barely spoke. She called me a few nights ago hella drunk. Crying because she cant be there for me. Continuously crying. I was rathe brutally honest with her about how hard she is on her self, because she kept saying she wants to make everyone happy but cant. And we laughed, and she cried. And that was that. next day she texted me at 7am to ask if Im "feeling ok". And I asked her the same and if she remembered our ONLY productive conversation we had since I left. And she didnt remember. She wanted to know what we spoke about . "in detail throught text". I told her it wasnt a good idea to text her, and she insisted that she was at work and didnt mind, which was a red flag for me so I said to her "if its not a good time than its not a good time." Than the next day she face timed me. I was being Icy for the first few moments because I wasnt sure if she was gonna blow it off again or not. I put my phone down for one secod to tie my hair and she said . "Ill call you back" and hangs up. I texted her why and she said "something needs my attention." I gave her 5 hours and just texted "." She responded basically saying she doesnt feel comfortable texting cause she feels like she wont be able to get her words out. I didnt answer till a few hours later because I needed to think, an I was out and realized tonight wasnt a good night so I texted her that I was out and asked if I could get at her later. She than texted me a long ass article titled "The dark truths about pisces". Followed with (clifs notes) "this is really me, and im iscusted with my self. And you deserve a better friend than me and im toxic ect ect". I took that as a cry for help and I was DRUNK AF when she texted me.So when i got home I sent a long ass text that honestly was barely legable. Than called her a couple times and she answered "Got work in the moring". (As if she wasnt texting me hella late). So i simply said "ok" and hung up. She texted "please understand its best we arnt friends (like who asked you)" And I didnt answer and went to bed. I woke up at 7am ( still drunk).. and was feeling really sad for her. Someone (and I know this for fact from our past convos) really treetrunked her up and traumatized her in to believing she is respinsible for the feelings of others. So I sent her a VERY long voice note. Telling her about our talk when she drunk facetimes me a few days prior. And explaining to her that I wasnt disappointed with her (like she expressed she thought). That I was mad, but Im aloud to have my feelings but they are not her responsibility. I told her how heartbroken I am for her, because I see her pain when we last spoke. And that I wish shed let me be there for her. And how I wish I could take her pain and that she needs to do that for her self. And that im here for her, but if she doesnt want my friendship than Ill respect that, and Ill be fine. To not worry about my feelings. I than sent her a song, she always does that for me when Im sad. it was nirvana "heart shaped box". And left it at that. Im so deeply hurting for her right now. She told me so much more about her past that I wont say here as to keep between the two of us, but I know what shes going through. And its like watching someone drown while you are sitting on a raft. One moment she loves me, and the next she doesnt even want a friendship and randomly expressing it out of the blue. We never even talked about that. I know shes a mutable pisces. And Im willing to be patient and fight... but this kinda seems like it would be the selfish thing for me to do. That she really does need to work on her self and heal some more. More than even the mushroom healing experience that we shared. And Im afraid she might actually need to stay single to do that. Im here for her, but I dont think it would be right for me to pursue her anymore. It tears me apart. But this is the only way I could help.
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    This is my Pisces lady that lives 6 hours away. We tripped on mushrooms together and fell in love (unspokenly). She told me she loved me twice accidentally during that trip and we havnt seen each other since. And barely spoke. She called me a few nights ago hella drunk. Crying because she cant be there for me. Continuously crying. I was rathe brutally honest with her about how hard she is on her self, because she kept saying she wants to make everyone happy but cant. And we laughed, and she cried. And that was that. next day she texted me at 7am to ask if Im "feeling ok". And I asked her the same and if she remembered our ONLY productive conversation we had since I left. And she didnt remember. She wanted to know what we spoke about . "in detail throught text". I told her it wasnt a good idea to text her, and she insisted that she was at work and didnt mind, which was a red flag for me so I said to her "if its not a good time than its not a good time." Than the next day she face timed me. I was being Icy for the first few moments because I wasnt sure if she was gonna blow it off again or not. I put my phone down for one secod to tie my hair and she said . "Ill call you back" and hangs up. I texted her why and she said "something needs my attention." I gave her 5 hours and just texted "." She responded basically saying she doesnt feel comfortable texting cause she feels like she wont be able to get her words out. I didnt answer till a few hours later because I needed to think, an I was out and realized tonight wasnt a good night so I texted her that I was out and asked if I could get at her later. She than texted me a long ass article titled "The dark truths about pisces". Followed with (clifs notes) "this is really me, and im iscusted with my self. And you deserve a better friend than me and im toxic ect ect". I took that as a cry for help and I was DRUNK AF when she texted me.So when i got home I sent a long ass text that honestly was barely legable. Than called her a couple times and she answered "Got work in the moring". (As if she wasnt texting me hella late). So i simply said "ok" and hung up. She texted "please understand its best we arnt friends (like who asked you)" And I didnt answer and went to bed. I woke up at 7am ( still drunk).. and was feeling really sad for her. Someone (and I know this for fact from our past convos) really treetrunked her up and traumatized her in to believing she is respinsible for the feelings of others. So I sent her a VERY long voice note. Telling her about our talk when she drunk facetimes me a few days prior. And explaining to her that I wasnt disappointed with her (like she expressed she thought). That I was mad, but Im aloud to have my feelings but they are not her responsibility. I told her how heartbroken I am for her, because I see her pain when we last spoke. And that I wish shed let me be there for her. And how I wish I could take her pain and that she needs to do that for her self. And that im here for her, but if she doesnt want my friendship than Ill respect that, and Ill be fine. To not worry about my feelings. I than sent her a song, she always does that for me when Im sad. it was nirvana "heart shaped box". And left it at that. Im so deeply hurting for her right now. She told me so much more about her past that I wont say here as to keep between the two of us, but I know what shes going through. And its like watching someone drown while you are sitting on a raft. One moment she loves me, and the next she doesnt even want a friendship and randomly expressing it out of the blue. We never even talked about that. I know shes a mutable pisces. And Im willing to be patient and fight... but this kinda seems like it would be the selfish thing for me to do. That she really does need to work on her self and heal some more. More than even the mushroom healing experience that we shared. And Im afraid she might actually need to stay single to do that. Im here for her, but I dont think it would be right for me to pursue her anymore. It tears me apart. But this is the only way I could help.
  • WaterDevil
    27 years old
    This is my Pisces lady that lives 6 hours away. We tripped on mushrooms together and fell in love (unspokenly). She told me she loved me twice accidentally during that trip and we havnt seen each other since. And barely spoke. She called me a few nights ago hella drunk. Crying because she cant be there for me. Continuously crying. I was rathe brutally honest with her about how hard she is on her self, because she kept saying she wants to make everyone happy but cant. And we laughed, and she cried. And that was that. next day she texted me at 7am to ask if Im "feeling ok". And I asked her the same and if she remembered our ONLY productive conversation we had since I left. And she didnt remember. She wanted to know what we spoke about . "in detail throught text". I told her it wasnt a good idea to text her, and she insisted that she was at work and didnt mind, which was a red flag for me so I said to her "if its not a good time than its not a good time." Than the next day she face timed me. I was being Icy for the first few moments because I wasnt sure if she was gonna blow it off again or not. I put my phone down for one secod to tie my hair and she said . "Ill call you back" and hangs up. I texted her why and she said "something needs my attention." I gave her 5 hours and just texted "." She responded basically saying she doesnt feel comfortable texting cause she feels like she wont be able to get her words out. I didnt answer till a few hours later because I needed to think, an I was out and realized tonight wasnt a good night so I texted her that I was out and asked if I could get at her later. She than texted me a long ass article titled "The dark truths about pisces". Followed with (clifs notes) "this is really me, and im iscusted with my self. And you deserve a better friend than me and im toxic ect ect". I took that as a cry for help and I was DRUNK AF when she texted me.So when i got home I sent a long ass text that honestly was barely legable. Than called her a couple times and she answered "Got work in the moring". (As if she wasnt texting me hella late). So i simply said "ok" and hung up. She texted "please understand its best we arnt friends (like who asked you)" And I didnt answer and went to bed. I woke up at 7am ( still drunk).. and was feeling really sad for her. Someone (and I know this for fact from our past convos) really treetrunked her up and traumitizzed her in to believing she is respinsible for the feelings of others. So I sent her a VERY long voice note. Telling her about our talk when she drunk facetimes me a few days prior. And explaining to her that I wasnt dissapointed with her (like she expressed she thought). That I was mad, but Im aloud to have my feelings but they are not her responsibility. I told her how heartbroken I am for her, because I see her pain when we last spoke. And that I wish shed let me be there for her. And how I wish I could take her pain and that she needs to do that for her self. And that im here for her, but if she doesnt want my friendship than Ill respect that, and Ill be fine. T