We got back together full force, in love like hell. Like magnets. Saw each other everyday. He moved. Got into stupid argument when I asked to help me with a line from a case I'm doing for work. He said he was "too busy" cleaning up house. Haven't spoken to him since. Sadness. :;tear::
^^ Song about katy perry (scorp). I like following their relationship. Gives me hope. They were so much in love with each other but it didn't work out. She wrote almost every song for him in her albums including "The One" (that got away- because she was still in love with him when marrying the brit comedian.) Then she divorced brit because rumors have it that she was still in love with Travis (Leo) and they still remained in contact ( Katy's jealous ex-hubby gemini wouldn't have it). She couldn't stand even being in the same state as Gemini so she even relocated. Then it is confirmed she went back to Travis (despite writing hateful songs such as "Circle the Drain" after break up) for support and comfort. And as a typical leo is broke his heart and he was there for her. ::sigh::
I find it honorable and cute that even though she wrote "Circle the Drain" when they were having issues calling him a junkie and a loser..he couldn't even come to terms with calling her any kind of names. Even when asked what he thought about her writing negative songs about him...he said "I'm just stoked that she finally has a song with some substance on her record. Good job." Which is not too negative at all in comparison.
Katy Perry Writes negative break up song about Travis McCoy:
Although Katy Perry and Rhianna were best friends that helped each other cope with their "insane relationships"=love, I believe it's quite different.
Katy Perry and Travis McCoy LOVED AND LOVE each other.
Chris Brown tried to CONTROL Rhianna and abused her, not love.
Leo and Scorp/ Katy + Travis is actually inspiring because out of all these broken hollywood fake relationships, they showed each other their love through their music, you could tell they really meant it, and stayed together.
They stuck by each other, and as crazy as that might seem...it is very touching.
Biggirlpanties: Sometimes people mature, i.e. grow up and realize how to handle things differently.
"If they avoid the worst case scenario, the many Leo-Scorpio couples prove this is a dynamic combo that spurs eachother to greater heights. Scorpio intuits the Lion's need for praise, and offers feedback that has weight to it. Leo's smiley ways and sense of celebration lure Scorpio into moods that bring out the very best in their complex nature. Their intimate life is by turns intense and playful, and a great catharsis for any tensions that build up between them. If they resist driving the relationship over a cliff, there's a sense of loyalty and exciting sexual chemistry that is more than enough to sustain a lifelong passion."
Avoid worst case scenario or...possibly persevere and grow through the worst case scenario?
btw I'd think that then it would be insane to : work at your job (repetitive) have a schedule everyday (repetitive) work out (repetitive) go to school (repetitive) raise your children (repetitive) cook (repetitive) clean (repetitive) sex (repetitive)...list goes on.
Self improvement and acknowledgement yet perseverance = Insanity?
SMH. You need to get out of this toxic, controlling, obsessive relationship while you still have your sanity. Yet again you have shown him you will go back to him no matter what butter he puts your way. He's winning all the way. This isn't love, BGP is right, its insanity.
Well I meant we love each other a lot. lol. Not hell. When we are together it's amazing. We are completely in love when together. It's not hell, he never lay a hand on me, and he never called me any degrading names, he never kept me captive (I've been with him on my own free will) and he never treated me like "he was using me" or "just a treetrunk". He has said he cares about him and likewise I've said and felt the same. And when we aren't going arguing (which everyone goes through in a healthy relationship) he is completely supportive. He wants me to succeed and the best in life and he has TOLD me this. I wish the same for him. The only problem...and I agreed with Sheath with this and I still do...is that we aren't completely open with what we actually feel deep inside for each other.
Although I have told him I've loved him in spurts and not really gone into it.
There have been times where he has expressed that he has deep feelings, concerns, and he cares but he doesn't want to go into it (because I guess feelings about being a man and expressing feelings, or repression) He has also even stated that he doesn't really want to go into his feelings but that he does have some.
I really don't want to bash him, maybe it's a leo thing. But I am kind of depressed about the whole thing...honestly I've been in love before (with a cap/ that I'm still friends with and still kind of awkwardly misses/loves me)
But I have not felt or experienced the love with that Cap (that was supposedly head over heals and still is) within the 10 years I was with him, that I experienced with the Scorp during the 1 year.
It was very different let me demonstrate:
Cap
Saw him once every couple of weeks sometimes even up til a month even though he has a car and I wasn't too far from him.
Scorp
Saw him every single day.
Cap
Barely picked up the phone, and now picks up the phone more frequently but sporadically.
Scorp
Picks up the phone every single time (whether or not I do the same) except when we are arguing (where sometimes he feels compelled to call me back- even though he's hurt, or pick up after he's comfortable)
Cap
Was only there for me when I needed him during the end of our relationship and now he's almost never there physically only via phone.
Scorp
Physically always there for me when I need him and over the phone as well.
Cap
Spoke badly about me to his friends sometimes and I had to find this out.
Cap: Meet his friends only during social events didn't introduce me really. But it was known that I was "his". Always chose friends over me.
Scorp: Meet most of his friends and he always chose me over his friends whether it be to hang out or defense wise.
Cap: Rarely depended on me for advice, to rant about his life, or to tell me anything personal/intimate that was going on.
Scorp: Always tells me what is going on in his life, asks for advice, takes advice, tells me EVERYTHING personal/intimate that is going on.
This is what I'm going by.
He might not have much (financially), might not be that stable (environment/in life in general/ and emotionally), and we might argue from time to time (which is bound to happen in any relationship) but I'm not going to bash him because I do love him and I really did appreciate what we had.
I'm scared of losing him not because "I know he'll never talk to me again"...because he most likely will.
But because I'm the type of person that once something is over I see the person differently, they are usually in the past an I feel nothing for them. I'll be there for them...but not there with them..
And I don't want that happening because I do love him.
mistake : *he has said he has cared about me. (obviously he cares about him as well, he's in his head lol :-P) THAT WAS a freudian slip ^^^ definitely lol
Biggirlpanties: Every time we get together it's not toxic. The toxic part is when we aren't. Call it codependent. But even the most independent person is establishes codependence or interdependence through their relationships with friends collegues lovers spouse or any other relationship where you obviously mutually depend on each other for support. EVERYONE needs some sort of support. Whether the co-dependence has evolved into something that is unhealthy is a different issue.
I haven't showed up in to house demanding that he see me. Haven't even tried calling him or texting or messaging lately in my depression.
I don't depend on him for money, to be there (if he can't he can't and if he is that's his choice), or anything else.
I just simply love him.
I don't really even depend on his love, for if he doesn't love me there is nothing I can do about it. (I'm pretty mature and realize I can't force a situation and if a situation is forced it's doomed to work out)
I've been in toxic relationships when I was young and immature where I was treated like complete butter..and I've also taken myself out of those situations.
In every single relationship I've been in , the man has begged for me to come back and I've refused because there was obviously a reason why it wouldn't work out and I know how to move on.
However, I do love this person and it's not due to dependence, it's due to respect, gratitude, appreciation, strong feelings of affection, and understanding.
If he never wants to talk to me again, I'm depressed now but I understand.
However, that doesn't refute the fact that I love him and I will always be there for him...whether or not I will always love him (and that is what scares me...that if he pushes me away now...one day I won't..and I will simply move on...and like the many (including a scorp that begs to NO END for me to be "his") I will refuse to come back.)