Had to Get My Mind Right

Hey, hey, hey. I have been reading all the newer. Not really commenting too much. I had to take a little break this week as I think I was exerting a tad too much energy on ole' Mr. Cap. On Monday, I think I told you all about him saying he was sick which he probably (which exaggerating about) and getting upset over me telling him a story about a mutual male friend. Well after that little escapade, I decided to chill out on him. As tiki says, lean all the way back and as K says, put his ass on ice. Lol.

I relaxed. I did not call him it contact him in anyway. This is the weird part. Rarely do I contact him. But for some reason last week, I was so anxious to contact him. Why?? Bc that m f'er had gotten into my head and started to set up shop. Or, I had gotten into my own head and somehow convinced myself that I need to over compensate. I fought the urge and just chilled the eff out. One thing I know about him, he comes for me when he wants me. I applied that knowledge, some self control and respect and relaxed. I didn't go on Facebook during work like I usually do when we chat. I just did me. On Tuesday and Wednesday he contacted me to say hi and make small talk. Nothing of any real substance. However, on Thursday he came hard. He called, left a messages texted a few times, blew up my Facebook pg with comments about how beautiful I am in pics and comments on my statuses. Then he asked if I missed him via text. I didn't answer the question bc 1) I was really busy that day at work and 2) I honestly didn't miss him bc we have not spent that much time together bc he is on his slooooow roll. About an hr later, he says, "ouch I guess not. But I miss you and i would like to see you tonite." I told him I was free and we could go out.

We picked me up, we went to a really good mexican food restaurant. He was a perfect gentleman. Kept telling me how beautiful I looked, asking if I was ok, if I liked the food, opening doors for me, etc. We had a really good convo. He told me that he is interested in pursuing a relationship with me. That he finds me physically attractive and admires my dedication and passion to my career. Then he tells me I'm going to make a good wife. I just listened. I tried to keep my head above water and not be too wooed by his WORDS. I kept it simple and told him that I look forward to getting to know him and enjoy being with him. At the end of the nite, he dropped me back home, we had a long peck and that was that.

He called me when he got home said he had a good tome, called again on Saturday echoing the same sentiments. So we shall see....

:0 amazing lol

Which part miifoo? Lol

Btw, sorry for all the typos. Typed from my iPhone. :0/

Purple - I spoke to him a few times. He doesn't excite me... kind of boring. Go figure. Ha! BUT I will continue to see where things go with him. Things might pick up? He asked if I was free for dinner this wk. I told him, possibly, depending on the day. I asked him to let me know and get back to me. That was this morning. Hes a really nice guy just a little wet behind the ear I suppose. Lol.

This is only the beginning, if your struggling now just wait...it get's worse

BREATHE

Find something else to do and think about

Tiki - Thanks! Yes, I have an IDEA of the bumps and lumps that might come up with Cap. Not going to focus on him or the situation. Just live my life and see what happens.

Dancer- Aw, I am sorry to hear that things did not work out well for you and your Cap. Yes, that is my plan. I am just going to relax and chill. Live my life. Enjoy my life and go on as if I did before him and I reunited. Time will tell what his true intentions are. Meanwhile, I am not going to allow myself to get emotionally invested in him until I know it's the real deal...if it ever gets to that point.

Purple - Yes, he definitely is a nice guy. However, lets not give him TOO much credit. He really hasnt been THAT consistent in that I don't know him and he really hasn't done anything but call a few times. Lol. In fact, now that I think about it, he was supposed to call back yesterday and never did. Ha! I didnt realize until now. But still. Lol. Who knows whats going on with him. He APPEARS to be a very nice guy. However, I dated a Pisces for 6 years on and off. He was my first boyfriend. I know what little games and tricks they are capable of. Not saying, this guy is like that, but until proven otherwise, I dont put anything passed him either. Lol. HOWEVER, as I said before, I will definitely give him a chance. Go out with him. Enjoy his conversation and company.

Btw, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY LADIES! 😉