Dealing with Saturn return in 8th

Hi. I'm currently rounding into the end of the first year of my first Saturn return, and even though I feel stronger on the inside, I also feel pretty awful overall. Life has put me through so many ups and downs- trauma, death, losses, fear, and hopelessness- and I haven't quite had a moment to catch my breath.

I'm struggling the most with people's apathy. Does anyone else feel that way? I have Saturn conjunct Uranus and Neptune in 8th. I am having a lot of struggles in being understood by those around me, and because of that I face a lot of apathy from others. I often end up having to fight my own battles completely alone. It feels... Awful. Because I've always been able to count on people to pull through for me. Now, I just feel alone. And it scares me.

I wonder how anyone else is faring in their Saturn return?

I had my Saturn return when It was in Scorpio the last 2 years. I'm not sure about the houses and how all the chart stuff plays out.

I do have to say that they were probably the 2 hardest years of my life. I felt very confused about all relationships and I was just not myself, and yes it can leave you feeling alone for most of the time.

Just do your best to learn as much as possible. After Saturn left Scorpio I felt like I had kind of found myself. I was more sure of me and found a lot of self strength that I did not previously have. I would say that once it left, it became one of the best years of my life just because of how I felt about myself on the inside. Saturn seems to give you a certain confidence.

It's a struggle, but hang in there. It a tough love.

Thank you for the encouragement. I felt a lot better after reading your post.