In Love But marry to someoneelse

Its HURTING so bad!!!!!

Oh Debra, I don't know what to do. I'm 26 married to a 38 yr old man. I've been married for 4 years now, we've known each other for 6 years. We had a long distance relationship, to add up all the time we've spent together before getting married would probably be 3 months in all. I told him I wasn't ready, but he went ahead an planed it, so I didn't want to be the one to ruin it, so I went along and married him. I don't know if I still love him or sympathize him. But I find myself being in love with my exboyfriend from S. California where I came from. I was there on Spring break and now I will be back with him for summer break. My ex is 23 years old, a bitter younger, but we've been a couple before I've met my husband. If this is all about the sign, one thing is that it scares me that my husband and ex and I are all tuarus. What am I to do? I don't want to start jumping one bandwagon to next. I just know that I haven't had intercourse with anyone during my marriage and I won't until I'm divorce. See, there's a culture, religious (catholic), community, extended family kind of thing. I don't know to start this break up and I don't want to continue this on-going fantasy. It's killing my sanity and school work, can't consentrate. My family (3 members) live with the 2 of us and its hard to get divorce when my mom & sibs are so dependant of me. And I am dependant of him. I do have a place to move to, but I have cut back on schooling and abtain a job to live. What about my family and what's going to happen to everything. It's frightening to immagine. Need your help ASAP Debra.
I'm totally over my ex, but I don't think I will take him too seriously, though I am in love with him, but he knows my situation and I don't want him to feel that the same thing will happen to him. Will he think that way about me. I don't want to leave my husband over anyone, our marriage was fading out 1.5 years ago, but I would never leave him for anyone. It'll be problems about him that I can't live with, but I still love him, I guess.
We don't even have a friendship relationship between he and I, more like father and daughter or siblings. What am I to do? Help!!!!!
Beth

I would suggest thaat you speak your mind. I bet your man feels the same way and would probably welcome a divorce so that he himself can find a fulfilling and joyfull relationship, just like you.... be brave.....

One Day when everyone had left the house. No one there but me I Got on my knees and I start crying out to God to help me with this thing that I am feeling. And guess what God HELP me. That person needed my love but in another way And so did I. I had LOVE AND LUST mixed up. And I found out that both of us had a lonely chlidhood. What am saying is your problem my be DEEPER than you may think. SO ask GOD, truely ask God And he will lead the Way!!!

One Day when everyone had left the house. No one there but me I Got on my knees and I start crying out to God to help me with this thing that I am feeling. And guess what God HELP me. That person needed my love but in another way And so did I. I had LOVE AND LUST mixed up. And I found out that both of us had a lonely chlidhood. What am saying is your problem my be DEEPER than you may think. SO ask GOD, truely ask God And he will lead the Way!!!

One Day when everyone had left the house. No one there but me I Got on my knees and I start crying out to God to help me with this thing that I am feeling. And guess what God HELP me. That person needed my love but in another way And so did I. I had LOVE AND LUST mixed up. And I found out that both of us had a lonely chlidhood. What am saying is your problem my be DEEPER than you may think. SO ask GOD, truely ask God And he will lead the Way!!!

Don't stay with someone out of dependence you will regret you did when you get older. Trust me, once you get to a certain age you realize that you can't turn back...it gets harder to find a true love. You need to be true, first to yourself and then to your husband and that may mean seaking counseling to continue your marriage or it may mean partig your ways but don't waste your life wondering. Life is precious. I lost my husband of 20 years to lung cancer at 43 years old and oh what I would give to go back and take away all the arguments, the pain, the unfaithfulness and he I know felt the same way especially when he knew his time was near the end here on earth with me. We did forgive each other and made every moment count the last year but for 19 years we were in turmoil off and on and the pain still lingers today. Pray and ask God to help you with this. He will answer your prayers.