wanting to know more of aqua man.

okay so this is my story.
i was once attached to an aqua man when i was in 7th grade.. maybe we were too young back then.. i was the one making the initiative. he was so shy. back then nothing much happened and the relationship just ended because i was going overseas for further studies and theres a girl that came into the picture.. after that i was secretly finding out things about him for the next 2-3 yrs cus he was in the same class with me tgt with the girl (lets call her T). throughout the yrs i haven much being single always together with different guys but none lasted.Until the 4th yr. when i met this gemini guy.. we dated and we lasted for 2.5 yrs i thought he was the one for me.. but it still ended..then this aqua guy came into the picture again.. it was on the new yrs eve. of 2008 he appeared.. we went out and just talking about the past but i was so devastated over the brk up with mr gemini that i start to break down. aqua guy hold me sat quietly and console me with his gestures lending me his shoulder after i calmed down.. he told me he want to make me happy again.. and the real relationship btw us started.. but this time i can feel the difference btw us.. i dont "love" him as much as i used to. i dont adore him as much as i used to... so this continue to drag till 3 mths back i broke up with him cause i yearn to have more freedom.. he is 24 hrs around me.. showering me with gifts and cared for me.. but i couldnt breathe.. then one day his fren contacted me and asked for help.. he toold me that aqua guy was hooking up with the girl he love and that girl too was madly in love with him within 4 days. promising him to share installment payments to get a car for him. i tried to stop him cause i know he still coulnt forget me.. he wrote in our blog asking me how am i doing.. and his life is turning into a mess cause im not beside him.. missing and all..
and his friend was worried that he might hurt his girl, knowing that he doesnt love her at all.so then the story in btw just happened. conclusion is that he promised to turn a new leaf and im back with him again. i'm not sure wether im doing the right thing.. and im not sure wether he will keep to his promise turning a new leaf. im always tempted to try out with different guys even when i know i dont wanna let go of someone that treats me and loves me as much as aqau guy.. what should i do?

Wow that was hard to read, maybe some paragraphs on your next post? No offense!

It seems to me that you are being a little selfish, because you are keeping him there as a safety net, despite the fact that you clearly want something different to what this man is offering you in the relationship. He may love you but he is trying far too hard to impress you, the constant gifts etc etc will force you further away, everybody needs space in a relationship and some people can change, but others can't. Are you an Aquarius yourself?

He is doing all he can but it seems that you want something else, yes he treats you right but every man should treat a woman right, it's a basic rule in my opinion. He loves you a lot clearly but you don't feel the same as before, it's because your feelings have faded for him. I think it'd be unfair to continue in something which you are not fully committed to. It was kind of hard to understand the situation but was he recently seeing another girl before you guys got back together?

I guess it is up to you after all but personally I wouldn't continue in something if that was not what I wanted, you'll only be wasting yours and his time.

yes he was seeing his buddies girl. but the problem is he told his buddy he have no intention of being tgt with her for long cause he doesnt love her..
he just wanted to hurt her like how hurt he feels towards me.

i apologise for the paragraphing...

well yeah but sometimes when im with him now i really do care about him..when he is in need of help or when he is sick im always the first to go down..
ill try my best to make time to go down to console him to take care of him.. and ill worry for him.. i seriously dont know wether do i still love him...
i must admit i love all the gifts that he is showering me with... and sometimes when im with him i feeel totally comfortable... and i do feel that i love him sometimes.. thats what makes me confused..

i'm a virgo btw.