Square between Venus and Uranus

What does it mean... Astrologer is feeding me tidbits! All I know my heart has been aching for my love all day and yet I have had a horrible nagging feeling in the back of my head!

Natal... No wonder my relationships are so different!

Square here.

http://www.cafeastrology.com/natal/venusuranusaspects.html<BR>
Venus square or opposition Uranus
The need for stimulation and the need to break the rules with regards to love and romance is apparent when Venus squares or opposes Uranus in the natal chart. These people can confuse their partners readily with their on-again off-again energy when it comes to matters of the heart. With the opposition, this is especially pronounced--when they are given too much space, they feel unloved, yet when they get the love they seem to crave, they can feel smothered by it. They can alienate partners by adopting an "I don't care what you do" stance when they feel threatened. The truth is, they do fear rejection like anyone else, but they don't always want to admit it, and they can turn quite cold when they suspect their partner doesn't care. The energy of Venus-Uranus in hard aspect is embodied in the expression, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder". When close to a loved one, they can eventually feel smothered or antsy if the relationship becomes too predictable. They can also detach themselves from living in the moment and enjoying the love they have. When apart, they feel more free to love. This aspect is common in the charts of people who maintain long-distance or otherwise erratic relationships. There can be abrupt beginnings and endings in relationships. They are not very "good" at endings--they can appear quite insensitive, aloof, and brusque. The "let's be friends" attitude might hurt a partner who felt there was much more to the relationship. These people have a disdain for conventional, traditional, or otherwise "normal" relationships. They need to learn to balance their need for closeness and their need for freedom. They truly detest social pretenses, and insist on being sincere. Being well-liked takes second place to sincerity. There is a strong attraction to all that is different, and all that "shouldn't" be done in love and in sex. Taste in clothing and art is unusual, original, and unique.

There is a tendency to react spontaneously and intensely to others, and there is marked emotional impulsiveness with these aspects. Their most successful relationships are unconventional ones. Whether they do so publicly or privately, they delight in defying convention. They tend to move on and outgrow friendships. Some possess considerable romantic charm and humor, and they can pretty much charm the birds out of the trees when they choose to do so! Their love feelings are easily aroused and their romantic relationships begin with suddenness. There is a marked inner craving for emotional excitement and a need to feel spontaneous and free.

Oh wow.. I can relate to ALOT more of this then I care to admit! Thanks for sharing... I definetly have had my share of unconventional!!