Tw2 Needs us

I am not the most strong person in this world but tw2 is losing her mother.

Thanks again candle girl, as I sit here with tears running down my face. I just dont know how to do this thing with my mom. It is affecting me alot more that I realize right now. It could also have something to do with how I am relating with my boyfriend right now. I think I feel insecure about her not being there anymore, as I have always been close to her. Its kind of like losing an important anchor in my life. I just get go sad and quiet sometimes, because I feel lost. Thank you so much for saying I need you guys, because right now I think I really do. I gotta go cant see from crying. TW2

Aw TW2 I am feeling what you are going through. I don't know what to say, so I will just write some of the things I went through.

I had just met my Scorpio in Jan. of 2000, my Mom got sick right after that. It was a complete nightmare. I was very unstable even though I had a professional job, my own home, when I came through that door at night I faded away.

That's were my Scorpio was my rock. I don't know why, but he just kind of let me be on autopilot. My home is my sanctuary, my place of peace, and I needed him to leave me alone sometimes, and he felt hurt. I didn't give a crap about his feelings during this time. I knew I had to be strong on the outside, but on the inside I was blubber.

Like I said I lost my Mom on the Eve of my birthday. Crushing blow. Crushing blow. But then I thought how profound.

You hang in there sweet woman. You got friends.

Oh and if you post something crazy, just don't worry about it, we all understand here at the Libra thread.

Candlegirl/Let your light shine

Bless you Candle Girl, your heart is a good one! I wish my cancer could be there for me, but I don't feel he knows how to be. Thank you once again, I knew you were good people. TW2

It is still shining but not so bright lately, (my light that is). I am so sorry that you lost your mom on the eve of your birthday. That had to be a tremendous blow to you emotionally. My mom had a bad night the day before my sisters birthday (she is the one who is helping take care of mom also). I was stayed over and was up all night with her. I was go grateful that she did not leave us that night, as I know my sister would have been affected in a profound way. She gets very emotional sometimes about mom. I also have some other news that is breaking my heart right now, but I will post it on the cancer board as it relates to my partner. Bye TW2

See what I mean I am just exhausted. I cant even make sense sometimes with my thoughts. I dont know how to process all that is happening right now, I am on overload I think. Bye again TW2

I so understand what you must be going through. Nothing in life prepares us for anything like this. Even though this is such an emotional time for you and your family, you are going through this together and for having your family around you are truly blessed.

I had some horrible days after my Mom was diagnosed terminal. I got closer to her in those days, then I had been in years and for that I was grateful.

And yes as my birthday will soon be here, I know she is always with me.

CG

Candle Girl,
My thoughts will be with you on your birthday (let me know what day this month it is ok). You are right she is always with you. I feel like my grandmother has been close to me at times in the last three weeks. I will be ok and I know that, but it still is very hard while I am going through everything. I do have some good news about my cancer mate though. He came to talk with me and it seems everything is going to be ok. I told him that I thought that he had already left me when he did not return home the other night. He held me and told me how much he loves me. He also said that I had missunderstood what he had been saying to me. He said he would never even think of leaving me in a time such as this. And that he feels so powerless to do anything to make it better for me. He aslo said that what I am going through is reminding him of taking care of his grandmother. He had tears in his eyes when he spoke of her passing. He said he was home when she went, and no one even told him. He was getting ready for shcool, and got a call after he had been there for a couple of hours. So I guess all this is causing him to relive some of what he experienced. He is a cancer and therefore very sensitive and emotional, (even if he is a guy). So we had a long talk and things are alot better. We finally communicated with each other, Hurray. It was so great to see the man I fell in love with surface again. I feel so relieved that I dont have to handle loosing him right on top of everything else. Well my sister just phoned me and I need to go talk to her. Ill post again later, bye TW2

oops sorry about the (sp) boo boo, loosing should be losing. Ah well I do try

twinflame2, my thoughts and prayers are with you. I'm sorry about all that's happening.