I Want Him

I'm not sure what my deal is, maybe its because its because I'm emotional right now. His birthday is not that far from Mike's birthday -- just 7 days apart.

Maybe I'm afraid that if I don't do something to fix this situation and act on my feelings, something will happen to him ... this probably makes no sense whatsoever to someone who isn't inside my head but I see it this way right now.

If I let things go on this way -- you know, him being upset over something stupid concerning my roommate -- then what if something happens to him and I never have chance to tell him what the deal really is with he and I — I'm not sure if I could live with that ....

I think I've realized something. Maybe its been there all along but I've failed to embrace it.

I want him, yes I do. I want him, I want him, I want him. I'm not sure if I've wanted him more than I've wanted any other guy, time will tell if thats the case.

But I have to fix this ... I want him, I want him damn it ...

Go get him....on your terms of course.

Hello Shaka 🙂

Are you trying to check me off your dxp ladies list or summat??

Posted by Lady_M
Go get him....on your terms of course.

Hey ladyM ...

I don't know lady, I have all this feelings swirling around right now. That Leo-Virgo guy's birthday is way too close to MJs for my liking. I'm sorry, I know it sounds odd but I have to fix things. At first I was just going to let things be because I have way to many other things going but I can't do it anymore ...

Posted by cappygolightly

Posted by cappysweetie

Maybe I'm afraid that if I don't do something to fix this situation and act on my feelings, something will happen to him ... this probably makes no sense whatsoever to someone who isn't inside my head but I see it this way right now.

this guy...Im just wondering is he a salesman at all? I mean his profession.

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Nope, he's too shy to be a saleman lol. Unfortunately ... he didn't use to be this way ...

Posted by cappygolightly
Im saying that because it's a typical way to make a customer feel in order to close a sale. So maybe he is using sales techniques to get you right where he wants you? Tread carefully sweetie.

hmmmm, I'm feeling this way because of my own trama ...

Its just that they are both Aug virgos and they are a week apart in birthdays.

I'm just saying that if something were to happen to him and I didn't tell him everything, holy cow ...

Posted by Shaks
hehehehe..hello M 😉

On a more serious note..


cappysweetie..this certainly is a shocking revelation!

Yeah ... I don't know. I just feel compelled to fix everything now. Sure, the dude has his flaws but damn it all, at least he's not trying to hide them. Unlike my roomie with his 'halo' attitude about things -- we I see him as the devil's little helper at times ...

haha, I have to be careful with what I say about my saggie-cap roomie. haha, we are not far from each other and we are both on our lab-tops lol.

SO you think some astrological placement thing will make something happen to him ??

Posted by Lady_M
SO you think some astrological placement thing will make something happen to him ??

Will, I don't think that will happen but I'm just, you know, scared right now. hahaha, I know it makes no sense right now but once I put everything together in my head, I will be able to explain it properly.

Yeah, I kinda agree with Shaka (for once). Dont make any hasty decisions, unless you know you two are pretty much on the same page with your wants and desires of each other.

Posted by Shaks
Chill sweetie..its all in your head..no need to be afraid of anything.

I hope thats the case. Because if something happens to him ... oh shit.

Posted by Lady_M
Yeah, I kinda agree with Shaka (for once). Dont make any hasty decisions, unless you know you two are pretty much on the same page with your wants and desires of each other.

Thats the thing Lady ... we are kinda on the same page ... its just all these problems. Its not him, its me.

Its funny how you don't realize how much someone means to you until after someone else you've admired since childhood (like age 4) dies ...


Plus, I know over the last couple of monthes -- I wasn't nice to the Leo-Virgo. I wasn't a bitch, and he and I were friends ... but I was still kinda, sorta upset over last year. I mean, I got over it, but I didn't completely get over it -- in my opinion, I man should be able to open his mouth and talk and just say what he's thinking. However, people are not the same, everyone is different. Before I realized this, I know I wasn't very nice, no I wasn't very, very, very, very nice at all. I know I wasn't ...

Posted by Shaks
Dont worry...sorry if it sounds harsh, but Ive had this sort of astrological paranoia as well a few times, but seriously the fact he's born only a few days away MJ doesnt mean anything, and thats because theres simply much more than sun-sign astrology, MJ didnt die because he was a Virgo born on august 20-something. There were quite a few other transits he was going through as well, but those were personal, and according to his individual placements, which Im sure are quite different than your guy's. But even so, you cant really predict these things using astrology, it merely seems to serve to indicate the possibilities, people always have a choice in the end.

okay

This is the one who couldn't open his mouth when he saw you at the gym right...had everyone speaking for him, but himself??

Seems like it, but it more so seizing the day...you never know how much time you have on this earth, but then again you never really want to rush into everything. I can see that and how conflicting these feelings can be.

Carpe Diem !!

MJ broke the internet too the other day. I guessed it but its not being confirmed.

Posted by Lady_M
This is the one who couldn't open his mouth when he saw you at the gym right...had everyone speaking for him, but himself??

lol, you don't forget anything 😉 Yep, thats him, but you missed the other stuff that happened afterwards. We resolved all that stuff and so and soforth. For a while, I wouldn't talk to him but he wanted to talk to me. Finally, we started talking again and became friends -- only because he such a goofball. However, there were other things that complicated the whole situation too, so I was thought, "Forget it". Being his friend wasn't so bad either hahaha. He would touch on subjects like, "romance" and all that stuff ... I would change the subject to, "So what did you do yesterday?"

hahaha, I don't know, I didn't want to get into it. Like I said, things got strange when I moved in with this Saggie-Cappie guy.

Posted by Shaks
Are you having thoughts like..(as ridiculous as it sounds I know) maybe I can "save" him by falling in love with him?

Oh no Evan, you know me better than that 🙂 I think lol, I think you do thats why you are saying it lol.

Actually, if anything, it will be the reverse of what you said. He falling in love with me would save me from myself LOL!

Posted by Lady_M
Seems like it, but it more so seizing the day...you never know how much time you have on this earth, but then again you never really want to rush into everything. I can see that and how conflicting these feelings can be.

Carpe Diem !!

MJ broke the internet too the other day. I guessed it but its not being confirmed.

Yes, MJ actually broke the internet on Thursday and part of Friday lol. I heard about it on the news and radio. There were certain things I couldn't do because everything was blocked.


I'm glad that you understand how my emotions can conflict with each other. Well, part of what Evan said is kinda of true -- in a way, but only different. I know his path is a bit bumpy, due to his own doing. I want to see if I can guide him a bit different. My influence seemed to work before ...

I'm glad he got his act together. lol
He was really getting on my nerves !!😛


A little healthy competition never hurt anyone 😉

Posted by Lady_M
I'm glad he got his act together. lol
He was really getting on my nerves !!😛


A little healthy competition never hurt anyone 😉

Yeah, lol he totally got on my nerves too. Thats why I didn't talk to him. His Leo friend, just this tuesday tells me that, "He hasn't told you everything yet" lol, I told him, "Thats fine, I know how to keep him at a distance until he's ready to talk more." haha ...

However, right now things are a little 'sketchy' and its my fault because he may think that I'm toying with him and I'm not. I'm not doing that at all but because of what happened, I can see why he would think this. However, I think its kinda stupid, only because he should have spoken to me about it so he'd know the truth.

Shaka ... you always know how to deal with me ^_^.

Posted by Shaks
😉 you know you can always count on me if you need someone to talk 🙂

🙂 🙂 🙂


^_^.

Okay, I usually don't look at these things too close, but tell me. Is this a bad reading or what?

12/25/1984 Aspect 08/22/1977 Orb/Value
Sun Opposition Jupiter 3.30 -77
Mercury Conjunction Neptune 1.11 118
Venus Opposition Saturn 2.38 -59
Mars Opposition Sun 0.30 -150
Mars Trine Jupiter 0.13 85
Jupiter Trine Mercury 0.48 96
Jupiter Opposition Venus 3.18 -56
Saturn Trine Venus 0.49 78
Saturn Square Saturn 2.28 -67
Uranus Conjunction Neptune 1.37 79
Neptune Trine Sun 1.34 77
Neptune Opposition Jupiter 0.51 -57
Pluto Trine Jupiter 3.49 31
Pluto Conjunction Uranus 4.05 53
617 -466 151

My birthday along with mine:

Inter-planetary aspects

The following aspects between planets concern the possible relationships between two charts: especially the emotional and romantic relationship, but also aspects on social, intellectual and spiritual levels.

-150 Opposition Sun - Mars

Negative aspect: Here is a couple which will have frequent disputes. Finding it impossible to speak calmly, they will always be aggressive towards each other. Conflict is caused because they both want to dominate the other. They cannot live on the basis of mutual understanding. The man is the type who lays down the law, gives orders, makes decisions and the woman is independent type, who cannot stand being limited, taking orders - the more so from her partner.

118 Conjunction Mercury - Neptune

Positive aspect: Good spiritual understanding.

96 Trine Mercury - Jupiter

Positive aspect: An ideal couple, prosperous, happy, good intellectual understanding, great confidence in each other, a successful family life.

85 Trine Mars - Jupiter

Positive aspect: This is an excellent aspect. They boost each other's confidence and fill each other with enthusiasm. They make plans together, and they are realistic enough to fulfill.

78 Trine Venus - Saturn

Positive aspect: This union could be favorable and lasting, if Venus is really looking for a mature person to be with. There can be a certain level of self-consciousness together that is always present, no matter how long they are together. There is a lot of loyalty between them, and a feeling of responsibility for one another.

-77 Opposition Sun - Jupiter

Negative aspect: While they get on well when they first meet, sharing the same ideas and tastes, with the years their ideas change and they do not develop in the same way. They will no longer understand each other and could split up because they no longer love each other, have nothing more in common.

77 Trine Sun - Neptune

Positive aspect: This aspect shows an attraction to each other beyond the physical. There is a level of forgiveness and mercy in the chemistry between you. You may share your dreams together with a sense of freedom. Tolerance exists between the two of you, which is a very soothing and settling quality.

-59 Opposition Venus - Saturn

Negative aspect: Unfavorable union, as it will be very difficult for a Venus to put up with a Saturn who is too austere, cold, hides their feelings and puts Venus ill-at-ease.

-57 Opposition Jupiter - Neptune

Negative aspect: They sometimes encourage impracticality in one another. They often feel let down with one another, usually because each wants very much to please the other, but it is hard to fulfill all the promises that are made to one another.

-56 Opposition Venus - Jupiter

Negative aspect: A life together that can be very challenging at times on an intellectual level. Intellectual misunderstandings, diametrically opposed tastes, different ideas.

31 Trine Jupiter - Pluto

Positive aspect: A possible union. Your belief systems change and evolve as the result of your relationship. Look at the other aspects to interpret exactly.

Posted by Shaks
Ok..Im having a look at them.. so far, I dont wanna sound negative, but venus opp. saturn is one of the least favorable placements to have in synastry..

Checking more..

lol!!! uh oh ... no wonder we can't get things in order 😛

-59 Opposition Venus - Saturn

Negative aspect: Unfavorable union, as it will be very difficult for a Venus to put up with a Saturn who is too austere, cold, hides their feelings and puts Venus ill-at-ease.

My Venus is Aqua and his Saturn is Leo

Oh dear ..

Posted by cappysweetie


Maybe I'm afraid that if I don't do something to fix this situation and act on my feelings, something will happen to him ... this probably makes no sense whatsoever to someone who isn't inside my head but I see it this way right now.

I completely understand sweetness 🙂.

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Posted by cappysweetie


Maybe I'm afraid that if I don't do something to fix this situation and act on my feelings, something will happen to him ... this probably makes no sense whatsoever to someone who isn't inside my head but I see it this way right now.

I completely understand sweetness 🙂.

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yay 🙂


^_^. So I'm not cracked in the head? lol

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Maybe I'm afraid that if I don't do something to fix this situation and act on my feelings, something will happen to him ... this probably makes no sense whatsoever to someone who isn't inside my head but I see it this way right now.

I completely understand sweetness 🙂.

yay 🙂


^_^. So I'm not cracked in the head? lol

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Hell no! .... If you are I would be too 😛.

Hey! You're back!

Posted by Shaks
On the other hand there is Saturn Trine Venus to counteract the Venus opp. Saturn..so that probably means, you probably feel more repelled by him than him by you, in fact, he sees you as the solid one, strong one, while he seems the insecure and controlling one..

You know, there may be some truth to that ...

The reason I say this is that he seems very drawn to me, espeically in the beginning. Its still the same now. The only difference is that I've taken notice to it all whereas in the beginning I was clueless ... until his leo friend stepped and I suggested that I get my head out of the clouds and start realizing what was going on lol

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Maybe I'm afraid that if I don't do something to fix this situation and act on my feelings, something will happen to him ... this probably makes no sense whatsoever to someone who isn't inside my head but I see it this way right now.

I completely understand sweetness 🙂.

yay 🙂


^_^. So I'm not cracked in the head? lol

Hell no! .... If you are I would be too 😛.

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hahahahaha!!! Well as you can see ... even a cappy girl can have her moments where she just can't seem to get her head together over a guy lol!

Oddly enough I was fine until recently. Everything made sense and I was peachy. Now I'm a mess ..

Shaka——?


I need more 😢

Oh wow!

Where did you get that? I got the short version :O

Theres only opposition at Jupiter and Mars for you too. Thats soooooooooo awesome 🙂 🙂 🙂

lol, I think I tried to check the synary between you and myself once, but I messed up lol.

I tried you then I tried Devil and I was like, 'okay, this isn't working'

Whoa, my eyes just crossed >0

I wish I was good at reading these. I'm only so so.

Tension in my chart? Well, I am a bit airy lol. He has the saggie moon, the cancer venus, the gemini mars ... yeah, I can see where that would come from lol.

The spiritual connention is there.

You know, about two monthes ago ...


I remember I was reading around like mad on campus, but I always went back to the lobby because thats where all my stuff was located. I went back and forth. I kept feeling really weird, like I felt this force around me but I was like, "Its all in my head or maybe I ate something bad last night" The I notice -- slightly to the right of me, there he was ... staring at me. Just looking, without saying a word.

I was shocked because we happen really spoken in weeks and he scared me because the look was intense. It wasn't scary or anything it was just very @_@ )))))))))) you know? lol

I asked how long he was standing there and he wouldn't say lol. It almost felt like prey lol

I guess I was a bit grateful to him because I left my stuff unintended without even thinking lol

Posted by Crazy4cappy
Go get him girl. Get in his face and make it happen because life is fleeting and you don't want any regrets thinking about what if?

🙂

Posted by cappysweetie
I'm not sure what my deal is, maybe its because its because I'm emotional right now. His birthday is not that far from Mike's birthday -- just 7 days apart.

Maybe I'm afraid that if I don't do something to fix this situation and act on my feelings, something will happen to him ... this probably makes no sense whatsoever to someone who isn't inside my head but I see it this way right now.

If I let things go on this way -- you know, him being upset over something stupid concerning my roommate -- then what if something happens to him and I never have chance to tell him what the deal really is with he and I — I'm not sure if I could live with that ....

I think I've realized something. Maybe its been there all along but I've failed to embrace it.

I want him, yes I do. I want him, I want him, I want him. I'm not sure if I've wanted him more than I've wanted any other guy, time will tell if thats the case.

But I have to fix this ... I want him, I want him damn it ...

Then you should go get him.

Posted by eric11

Posted by cappysweetie
I'm not sure what my deal is, maybe its because its because I'm emotional right now. His birthday is not that far from Mike's birthday -- just 7 days apart.

Maybe I'm afraid that if I don't do something to fix this situation and act on my feelings, something will happen to him ... this probably makes no sense whatsoever to someone who isn't inside my head but I see it this way right now.

If I let things go on this way -- you know, him being upset over something stupid concerning my roommate -- then what if something happens to him and I never have chance to tell him what the deal really is with he and I — I'm not sure if I could live with that ....

I think I've realized something. Maybe its been there all along but I've failed to embrace it.

I want him, yes I do. I want him, I want him, I want him. I'm not sure if I've wanted him more than I've wanted any other guy, time will tell if thats the case.

But I have to fix this ... I want him, I want him damn it ...

Then you should go get him.

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Thats what I'm trying to do but theres a road block lol