At the moment

I've been feeling very down on myself lately. I don't cling to my past but when there's too many gaps I overly think. And I have that right I suppose. It's starting to distort my vision of myself. Not like I HAVE any sense of clarification of who I am but at least I had pieces of myself which I understood. But I know it's all relative! That's why my past is important to me at the present moment. Lately, all I've been doing is just floating through life while I have this blank paper in my head. It's all too weird.

Has anyone else been feeling this way lately?

i think i may understand somewhat. a lot of the times i'm not sure who i am, but...you're defined by many things. your past doesn't define who you are, its just things that happened to you that may effect you now. i get confused because i look toward the future and i see so many possibilites and yet also... very few because of the restrictions that life can put on us. just try to survive through the gaps, and you will eventually straighten yourself out. or find something else new and exciting about you that you never knew. but you'll always be you. i probably got off topic a few times but HEY i'm tired and its my first post ^^ \v/

I know, it HAS effected me and I think that's the point of why I'm down on myself. But then I think what's the point of feeling these things when life is just a speck of nonsense outcomes that deal with nothing because experiences do come and go right? But it goes back to the whole relative deal.

The past is the past I know, but if it's all relative then even the smallest things can be connected. So either way the past and the present are the same to me because it has happened and it has all connected to the present state of how I feel right now.

I don't know how to find the 'answers' which are probably not going to be retrieved because life was never meant to be that, correct? But people have gone so far as to claim that you can make your own answers.. but is that just the fallacy of our faith? We create so many things. We only know what we create and that goes back to how I feel at the moment. I like to set apart myself from the progressed structure that humanity created and I know my knowledge is limited but my quest for knowledge isn't!

But it all comes down to this, if our lives revolved around what we created and what is important to us, then what significance does it have? I guess I should not care. But then again I do care because I'm still living. I have no use to inculcate my flaws but I'm strictly speaking of experiences.

Aerith......."I've been feeling very down on myself lately" you begin, and then begin to philosophize alot about life, the past, the present and the future (and the gaps!).....but you don't give any specific concrete instances to share with us as to why are are actually down.....everything has a reason, a source, a root cause!! - what specifically has happened that triggered off these feelings in you - a broken heart?, loss of a loved one? Perhaps you are in some form of clinical depression? I am not saying this to annoy or frighten you..just trying to get to the bottom of the issue and clarify things..You seem to be living in your "thought" head too much at the moment....perhaps it's time to lose your mind and come to your senses:-) - thre's a time for questioning and pondering and then there's a time to put these all aside...live with the questions.....go out and have fun - whatever rattles your cage and makes you giggle and go WOW.

So you say, you don't know who exactly you are....hey, who does—?I do and say things every day that constantly surprise me, amaze me....you live another 24 hours and you catch another tiny angle or facet of your every changing, ever evolving personality - every day just say to yourself, my, who would have thought that Aerith could say that, think this, do that....it's called the journey to the unknown:-) the day you "know", is the day you die...and hey then begins our next journey:-)!! Every single moment in life, we have but one choice, and that choice is the ability to choose to be happy or sad - choose life, happy life:-)

Good luck my pal.
Alana x

And you heard it from the Best! 😉

Life is for living...moment by moment. Great words of wisdom Alana...way to go!

Gotta scoot, there is some livin to do "out there"

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