Aries woman/Pisces man on & off relationship

where do I even begin. I met him through my best friend four years ago & we immediately hit it off. I almost felt like I was under a spell & that I had fallen HARD for him just by looking at him. Come to find out he & I had previously met a year back at my old job. He said it like this "haven't we met before?" while looking into my eyes as if I was the only one there.

Anyways, cut to the rest of the evening I ended up staying the night at his place & hanging out with him & my friends over the next couple of wks (I was hesitant to tell him how I felt after being played by a virgo multiple times). As my gut instinct kept gnawing at me I finally told him how I felt & he felt the same. I couldn't have been more happier! BUT - he told me he had slept with someone during this time & I felt like he cheated on me. No clue why I felt that way considering we weren't official but I felt like he was already mine.

So our relationship was in the honeymoon phase, you know affection & constant contact, etc - all while my own life was in turmoil & all of a sudden I needed a place to stay. He offered & I immediately moved in. Since we were now living together I had to change my perspective on things considering I had never lived with a man other than my brother - but this situation was totally different. My dad was acting like a menace & my mom was moving out of state to take care of my ailing grandparents. I had told him if things would cool off with my dad I would move out by fall. Well they didn't and we were now playing house together six months into the relationship. Every couple fights right? Well boy did we fight. I slept outside the apt one night only to have him wake me up and bring me back to bed. This was becoming like About Last Night with Rob & Demi. We loved hard & fought hard. Cut to getting pg, losing the baby, moving, then rescuing 2 more cats, another pg scare, then me finally getting a job and feeling OK about us.

THEN. May '14 happened & all of a sudden I had to move out. We were done. LITERALLY OUT OF THE BLUE. I then had to "stay at my dad's for awhile" & that it'll be "only temporary". I was devastated. I immediately started NC but damn it was hard. We kept texting back & forth over our breakup. I initiated NC in July after he told me he was seeing someone. My heart was just shattered. So as I was "moving on" he texted me asking to get back together & he didn't feel for her the way he did for me. My heart literally leaped out of my chest.

Then over the course of three months we seemed back together like our breakup never happened. We had grown, but there were still some underlying issues. Christmas came and I could feel him pulling away from me again. I had to literally drag him out to get together or even do anything for the holidays. He was always busy or couldn't make it over here. I always had an excuse to cover for hi I'm so it didnt look like he was just being an idiot. So as I brought up going shopping for gifts ( I knew we didnt have a lot of money so I suggested just cards or a small gift) he told me he would come over but somehow that couldn't happen and that I could just pay him back for loaning me money to take my cat to the vet. SIGH.

SO after Christmas our relationship was extremely strained. I tried my best to get him out and do things with me or our friends but he always said no or next time. Then Valentines day came around and he said he didn't want to do anything because he hasn't gotten me anything yet. I said okay that's fine we always have our birthdays (which are in March). March came and I had literally heard nothing from him about anything. I was giving him his space because mutual friends had been telling me what was up. So then he cut all ties with me on Facebook and even blocked my number.. It was over. He had made up his mind that we were having issues so he tried hooking up with a mutual friend but she pushed him away. He was getting nowhere with everyone.

started NC again all the way 'til June when I sent him a friendly message on Facebook. He accepted my friend request and we went to a fair together. The entire time he was distant and when he took me home I asked him what his problem was. He basically gave me a BUNCH of excuses a a none of them ever came to be true. So now it's August and its been a year to the day that we got back together.. This past July he asked me to take in one of our cats and I took that as a sign of him wanting to talk again. He's taking his time on this one and I haven't heard when he will be bringing her over. IDK.... why does this has be to be so difficult? Sorry for the long post but as you can see its been extremely up and down for me. :/ Im so torn and I just want him back.