SO...any crazies out there?

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i.e. Anyone have mental health issues?😛 Mental Illness ruled by Neptune and all. Such a ~magical~ planet.

Or do you live with one? Please share!!



I'm bipolar, have been since I was ~7. It's weird cause I'm either bouncing off the walls ready to take over the world, or it's *craws into bed* I wanna dieeee, kill me nooooow. Two intense extremes, I've been on meds to calm me down but I hate them. I don't think they help.
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I dunno if I have one or not... wouldn't be surprised. lol That might be linked to why my mind jumps around a lot.

I am attracted to air signs because they are detached with their emotions. They have them, they feel them but they don't let them control them. Which is admirable. Something to strive for when once in a while my emotions start to steer the wheel and the ol' shaking starts. Oh I hate it when I shake when I'm mad.

Anywho I like a partner who's a rock...keeps me centered and looks at things analytically. Would be good if we both fly off the ledge at the same time. Yikes. I need someone to touch my shoulder and lead me in the right direction with a cool exterior and sincerity.
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Posted by iceredrobot
Best we can do is treat it like people do physical diseases like diabetes or asthma. Find ways to work around it and live with it.



Exactly. It is a physical disease, a chemical imbalance, or however you want to term it. A friend once told me that more so than other people, we need to baby ourselves and take special care of our needs. Props to you for being aware and planning your night in!
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You think it's a water Merc thing? O_O

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Anywho I like a partner who's a rock...keeps me centered and looks at things analytically. Would be good if we both fly off the ledge at the same time. Yikes. I need someone to touch my shoulder and lead me in the right direction with a cool exterior and sincerity.


Twinsie heart and mind!😄 Yeah I couldn't image someone who is anything but stable. Blind leading the blind ain't cute!
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Posted by extempjunk
Exactly. It is a physical disease, a chemical imbalance, or however you want to term it. A friend once told me that more so than other people, we need to baby ourselves and take special care of our needs. Props to you for being aware and planning your night in!


It's true! People dismiss it, but that's because they don't understand it's nothing to do with us. Just something we carry around.

Yeah I'm spending a night with the fam, they can handle me😄
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It's true😢

Breaking Up Can Literally Break Your Heart

There's a pivotal moment in an episode of "The Simpsons" that has always stood out in my memory. When Lisa tells Ralph Wiggum she doesn't want to be his girlfriend, his face scrunches in agony and he clutches his heart as if it's literally breaking. I remember giggling at the exaggeration and then years later when my own heart got broken, I put my hand to my chest and felt his pain.

The word "heartbreak" is bandied about so much we often forget that, along with depression and loss of appetite, physical heart pain is an actual side effect of high-stress events like the loss of loved ones. The grief from a breakup or death can be so consuming that it's actually heart wrenching and can have serious consequences for our physical health, too.

The Physical Effects of a Broken Heart

Anyone who has experienced real heartbreak knows that it's not just a melodramatic term. The aching, tight feeling that accompanies such sadness is uncomfortable, but usually not disconcerting. However, for people with broken heart syndrome, it feels scarily similar to a heart attack -- in fact, most people are diagnosed after being taken to the emergency room.

Broken heart syndrome, also known as stress cardiomyopathy, is a sudden weakness in the heart muscle due to a severely stressful situation. It has the same symptoms as a heart attack -- difficulty breathing, chest pain, and a drop in blood pressure -- but while a heart attack permanently damages the heart, broken heart syndrome's effects are temporary. Also, heart attacks are caused by blocked coronary arteries; people can experience stress cardiomyopathy without existing blockages. This important difference is often how doctors determine one from the other.

In 2005, researchers at John Hopkins University discovered the distinction when they studied the hearts of patients dealing with deaths of family members, car accidents, financial woes, and other anxiety triggers. They postulated that being under such stress causes the brain to release a constant stream of stress hormones like adrenaline into the blood, which makes heart vessels work too hard and reduces pumping strength. However, this is but one theory -- doctors are still trying to determine exactly why adrenaline surges affect heart muscle cells the same way that heart attacks do.
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The syndrome might be serious like a heart attack, but luckily it's a temporary condition that can be cleared up in about a week with proper medical care. Mostly people just need time to recover from whatever physical or emotional event shocked their systems enough to cause cardiomyopathy. Even seemingly innocent things like surprise parties and public speaking can spark heart problems; many patients don't have preexisting heart conditions, so it is difficult to tell who is at risk for the syndrome. For reasons still unknown, it does occur more frequently in women than men, particularly postmenopausal women.

Toxic Relationships Can Be Deadly, Too

Suffering through a traumatic event like a breakup isn't the only way to weaken our hearts -- staying in a toxic relationship can be just as detrimental. It's no secret that negative relationships, whether platonic or romantic, can have negative effects on our physical well-being. Emotional stress puts added pressure on our bodies, which weakens our immune systems and increases depressive episodes. In 2007, a study conducted at University College London found that people in bad relationships -- characterized by a lack of support and a constant source of stress -- had a 34 percent higher chance of having heart problems in the future compared to those in positive couplings.

The study followed 8,000 subjects, initially heart disease free, over a twelve-year period. At the end of the study, 589 people had developed heart disease and those who previously reported relationship strife, especially the ones who felt that talking with their companions about problems made things even worse, had a higher occurrence of the disease. We've always known that fighting with loved ones is a sure source of heartache, and now we know it's a potential contributor to heart disease as well.

http://www.alternet.org/sex/135030/breaking_up_can_literally_break_your_heart/
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Posted by PurrrrHissss
It's horrible, and sleeping pills don't do a damn thing to help it when it's really bad.

I know what you mean. I'm not very good at hiding it when I'm feeling like shit. It's just obvious because I get rail thin and I look sick. I hate it, it's disgusting.


Do you ever feel guilty and start taking blame for it? Like beat yourself over it? I know it's nothing to do with me, but because it's MY disorder, I take responsibility for it.

I'm my happiest when I know it's an illness.
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It's horrible, and sleeping pills don't do a damn thing to help it when it's really bad.

I know what you mean. I'm not very good at hiding it when I'm feeling like shit. It's just obvious because I get rail thin and I look sick. I hate it, it's disgusting.


Do you ever feel guilty and start taking blame for it? Like beat yourself over it? I know it's nothing to do with me, but because it's MY disorder, I take responsibility for it.

I'm my happiest when I know it's an illness.



Oh hell yeah. I feel like an absolutely worthless piece of shit who can't get her life together when I'm depressed. Pick apart every little thing that's fucked up about me and feel sorry for anyone who knows me. It's not self-pity, it's more self-disgust.
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Man, ya'll are too hard on yourselves about things. Don't you know that if you take life too seriously, you will never get out alive?
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Posted by PurrrrHissss
Oh hell yeah. I feel like an absolutely worthless piece of shit who can't get her life together when I'm depressed. Pick apart every little thing that's fucked up about me and feel sorry for anyone who knows me. It's not self-pity, it's more self-disgust.


Omg you too!!😢😢 UGH why do we do that?

I HAVE to show you something. lemme go hunting for it brb
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I Don't Know 😛
Lena !


Why must you frustrate me!!!😛

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you said you were bipolar, not suffering from anxiety...

i gave you the two most popular self medications...
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I never said I suffered it Ian!! Dunno about cocaine but weed sounds like a safe bet. I can't smoke anything though, I'll have to just have to put it into brownies😛
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Vanilluna

Indoor
Vanilluna (aka Vanilla Moon) a structurally Kush hybrid of a cross between a female Blueberry Sativa (from the exact same seed stock that produced the mother of the Blue Satellite; the mother of the Vanilluna being large, green, symmetric with a distinct dominant main-stem and compact nodes, little variegation and long side-branches) crossed with the Original Blueberry male (a stretch indica). This quasi-hybrid grows medium-tall Kush-like plants with short nodes, large, dark green foliage, thick-yet-sturdy hollow stems and tight, spade shaped buds of dense-but-elongated and swollen calyx/bract flowers completely coated in large, clear trichomes of superior aromatics. Flower time is approximate. 55 to 60 days, with the more interesting oils developing in the very last week. Vanilluna possesses a complex-yet-subtle palate of a creamy, vanilla/honey blend with a hint of floral bouquet and sweet melon musk. The experience of the finished product is of top-shelf quality; smooth, comfortable, very long-lasting (hours) and dreamy. Upon final testing, a few individual plants from the Vanilluna provided an experience very similar to the Blue Heaven, i.e. calming, clear and relatively anti-anxiety. Please note: approximate. 15% of the plants from this line will sport variegated growth patterns. The other 85% will grow uniform plants with slight variation in height. Extended vegetative time coupled with early topping is recommended to increase yield, or run un-topped in a SOG-type system.

Indoor flowering 55 to 60 days.


I feel like a certain Aqua I know will have this