A letter to him

Hey ho!

I'm new here. I'm a Virgo girl struggling with a Scorp guy. Err I mean we have a very turbulent non-relationship. He does all those games that was mentioned here and seems others go through this commonly with men born under this sign. I have to admit I did my fare share here as well because I'm quite neurotic. I got to the point with him that although I have my feelings for him but the situation between us takes major toll on my mental and physical well being. I told him I gave up on this thing between us or any future together in my head already but my feelings keep me coming back to him. Things can go quite violent and humiliating which I don't know how to cope with or react. It seems this a thing that turns him on and I like being passionate but what he does is too agressive and scary now. In the last few weeks he told me he loves me a couple of times just he doesn't know how to express his feelings verbally and told others that I'm his gf. He is not afectionate in a nice way and he has mood swings. I tried to be there to him but I feel I reached my capacity to receive any more of his tantrums. I feel sorry for him because he had a rough life and still can't get over this and his current problems so he drinks (a lot). I really want him to be happy and find his path but too much is too much and the more I try to talk to him or be nice and stable the more dismissive he becomes.
So I have two questions. When a Scorp says I love you does he really mean it? (Considering his behavior I couldn't believe him). My other question is, I would like to write a letter to him and write down for the last time what I feel but I can't continue this (he hasn't replied to my last msg-es to meet up), would he feel I'm just a senimental fool and would laugh at me?
Thanks for any reply in anticipation and sorry for my English.

Thank you Neurotoxin! I appreciate your encouragement very much. I'll write that letter then. Until then here is a song which recap us quite well unfortunately.
Good night

Hi

I have a bit of update. I haven't written that letter, there's no reason for doing it at all. This guy has serious problems in his head... he got so out of control with everybody around him that to be in his presence is quite unbearable by now. This week I had to listen from others about this guy's shenangians because they think we are together.

My episode: the last time, I tried to talk to him, to inquire where were we standing regarding our situation. He got angry then threw verbal insults at me etc. but no answers came at all. Why he got this angry why he couldn't say to me what he felt? I tried from every angle every aspect in all different style s, it was his turn to tell me to leave him alone forever or stay or what? But nothing just anger towards me. When I had enough of his primitive manifestations he went to his room I went to the main door to leave but he quickly came up to me and started chocking me... we had a bit of wrestle. This time he really freaked me out.
He borrowed some stuff from me which I wanted back. Few days after I got a rude msg from him so i went to his to get it back. Didn't care by that time just give me back what's mine and forget me. He was totally out of it. He wanted to convince me that I was the one who got physical, gaslighting me and things like that. Total mess. I noticed how he tried some kind of mirroring or I don't know that I am the insane one, I did those things what he did to me all the time. It was scary as hell to realize this then and there. Even others told me that he goes around saying how insane I am.

I really saw potential in him and with some nurturing and some care he would go up and out of his depression and we could get along well but wow... The next day he had the courage to call me in the middle of the night to meet him like nothing happened. I told him to leave me alone and get out of my life for good. His anwser was just 'oh we are like this now? come on!'

So there we are. He needs professional help immediately. I don't know how he will realize it or who will help him, he is alone totally.
And I'm just thinking: where did I mess up? What did I do to him that he hates me so much?

Posted by Perhapspapillon
Hi

This guy has serious problems in his head... he got so out of control with everybody around him that to be in his presence is quite unbearable by now.

But nothing just anger towards me. When I had enough of his primitive manifestations he went to his room I went to the main door to leave but he quickly came up to me and started chocking me... we had a bit of wrestle. This time he really freaked me out.He wanted to convince me that I was the one who got physical, gaslighting me and things like that. Total mess. It was scary as hell to realize this then and there. Even others told me that he goes around saying how insane I am.

He is
-Immature
-Manipulative
-Controlling
-Abusive

All red flags signifying=Run and be safe.This should be your top priority.Take this seriously.

There is no point asking yourself 'What I did wrong?' etc because it is he who needs help,not you.

Is he an October scorpio?

Posted by SassyVirgo
Put on your sneakers and run girl. The scorp you got sounds broken. Hold your pretty head high walk out and enjoy yourself

And when you move on hats when he would act nice but it will be all a little too late

Lietrally I've been doing this jogging again almost every night just to ease my mind. But I contacted him after 2 weeks (an innocent txt msg) I think I should take up yoga as well...

Posted by Msboop01
Is he an October scorpio?

16 Nov

I just wish it didn't hurt this much