Help need advice

I am a cancer, started a relation with a Taurus girl 1 year ago, she is a very charming girl with lots of suitors, but she pick me and say that my honesty caught her. She say she had been thru a lot and doesn't trust any guy easily. But she did say she have not for in love with me yet, and just wanted to try out this relationship.

Everything was wonderful until few months later, she lied that she went out with 3 girlfriends instead she went out alone with a guy, but the way she talk was like trying to pacifiy me before this is going to happened, and I i find it abnormal so I question til she give me the truth... Her reason was that it's a promise she made before going into relation with me, and that guy help her a lot on work stuff, and she promise this is the last time she will promise anyone anything. So I forgive her.
But everything started to change, I was less attentive to her, and tends to think a lot when she say she is going out with her friends. And we quarrel a lot on this, she say she like the freedom I used to give...
We had a very big quarrel recently and she blew it... She say hurtful words, she say she can't bear it anymore, she say she is very pretty and have more suitors she need not just bear with my attitude, she say my taste of fashion doesn't match her at all, she say that I am also suspecting something and doesn't have any self confidence at all. We quarrel til she start to have problem breathing and I stop and suddenly remember she have some short of heart problem...I ask for her forgiveness and she say she will consider.
The next day I text her for a break up because I felt that I hurt her a lot and do not want her to suffer again... She still carry on and text me morning evening good night messages, I thought she worry that I would hurt myself say I reply her that I am really fine do not worry on me... Since then her message stopped, I was really down and my dad asked me to bring her back... So I started to text her again... Hoping she would give me a chance, but instead she said some hurtful words again... And we quarrel again... This time round I too say some hurtful stuffs and she started to cry, I told her to hate me so she can feel better... Hours later she text me, saying it doesn't make her feel better at all, and saying that she was considering giving me a chance basically was a yes in the start, and there was once she even forgive someone who stole her wallet... Say I was very wrong and what she told me wasn't to m

And she told me wasn't to make me reget....I was so shock and stun because I am always thinking what I do was for her good.... Until yesterday night I told her I am really sorry and hope she would carefully think about this, she say she can't understand what I am thinking and it's very fustrating for her.... She say u miss the chance and its a missed already....I kinda get it so I kept quiet but later she asked "can you still be my friend please? I want to help you change your temper and bad attidue in relationship, you can always ask me for advice, and I have many experience in social networking"....I can only reply with a "ok...but I still love you..." Her reply was "really I hope we can be truthful to each other this time round...not like what had earlier.".....I kinda feeling mixed up...what she meant by this... Lastly she say she only hope that I can get happiness, she is not good for me and she hope I can find a better one"...... I am really puzzled.... I dun get what she is thinking now... Anyone can help? I really hope to win her back... Any chance? What should I do? Is she trying to hint me something?

Any Taurus girls willing to help me? I am going crazy and I want to know what she meant, her real meaning... I did thinking of going down on knees and beg her but I once say another guy on knees begging her to just be nicer to him and not giving cold shoulder... She was even more firm with her stand that she will not bother about his text at all....

I am not a taurus girl.

nah Cancer. Soo jealous and possessive. The cancer man I am dating.. even the crew of coffee shop made him jealous and it's frustrating to me.

So he asked a bunch of question and I was laughing.. hahaha.. sooo annoying but cute. prior this crew issues He said hurtful words thrown at me and I

take it very nasty and funny like yeah I went out last night and *f*u*c*k*i*n*g a guy. So he blown up my phone with bunch of text messages.



Shurika, All you have to do is put your brain in your head. Taurus are very sensitive. Cancer are too emotional.

Apologise just that. and don't be too jealous. Tell her you both need time and you are willing to take it slow. slow motion will work for this bullete.

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Yes Taurus are too sensitive and so is Cancer ... Probably all the hurtful words and arguments will never be forgotten ...

Im only talking about myself here ok.. my ex bf is a cancer as well.. but the reason we broke up is me finding him too selfish and i think at some point both of us did not really understand how to cope with our differences, not sure if we really understood eachother.. even though we were only friends years before the relationship .. but something tells me that both of you dont deal the same way in a relationship thats why she said that she wants to help u change ur temper ...etc. Taurus are direct.

I think its better to stay friends only at this point.. and if its meant to be more than this.. time will tell.. but everything should subtle and we also hate to be controlled by the way so be careful with that..

all the best!

In this case, I will have to admit the Taurus girl was wrong.

OP,

I believe she gravitated to you initially, because she felt safe with you, she knew that she could trust you.
However, the emotional connection, chemistry or physical attraction never kicked in.
Thus, the need for her hurtful words.
Although her words were not intentional, nevertheless, the insensitive comments were stemming from a place of disgust.. Call it a collage of annoyance, disinterest, guilt, and dissatisfaction.
Your paranoia and jealousy was just an icing on the cake to remove herself from a relationship she was never emotionally invested in.

Don't beat yourself up. You followed your intuition and gut instinct, and chances are, you were right.

You could have been a compromising gentleman, and trust me, she would have found something wrong with you.
The connection wasn't there.
She just didn't have the balls to admit it to you.

My advice,
Bow out gracefully, with some integrity & dignity intact.

Good Luck to you!