aqua sun cancer ascendant

I get it now. That desire to fade in the background and seem unassuming, the intensity of sexual relationships, that desire to settle down get married and bake things...i bet my taurus moon enforces the suzy homemaker tendencies lol. But despite my emotional reactions to people i feel like im always going back and forth between emotional and intellectual point of views. These opposing views give me too many options to analyze leaving me with millions of what ifs and a overwhelmed approach to life, mainly with ppl. I can solve any problem that doesnt involve individuals and their emotions. Not because i dont understand why people do what they do, i dont understand the validation of some of these feelings...i accept ppl for who they are, i just have a hard time relating....
I guess this post is random introspection

if you have a hard time relating, maybe it's due to lack of suffering in your life. Not that one should suffer,(i'm not condoning it) but the lack of suffering does give distance to the rest of the human race. Some people can go through life happy and protected, since birth. Probably know about hardship and suffering through newspapers, books, tv shows, movies, ectera. But, most people like purging their emotions, it helps them, very much. And alot of people look upon others who have gone through hell, probably thinking, they are crazy and why go through it? OR probably go around thinking to themselves, 'i'm glad i'm not one of them.' Probably.

To the contrary ive had LOTS of suffering...thats probably the issue. I used to really get depressed but life taught me most ppl dont care about your problems or respond to your,sorrow. I also cant relate to ppl talking about family get togethers or close,relationships, cause i have few. I desire connection, but i went through most of life feeling misunderstood. Now i keep everyone at a distance, i guess cause my relationship issues make me feel inadequate and i dont want to be 'exposed' i hate that look of pity on ppls faces when i tell them about my life. It makes me uncomfortable.

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To the contrary ive had LOTS of suffering...thats probably the issue. I used to really get depressed but life taught me most ppl dont care about your problems or respond to your,sorrow. I also cant relate to ppl talking about family get togethers or close,relationships, cause i have few. I desire connection, but i went through most of life feeling misunderstood. Now i keep everyone at a distance, i guess cause my relationship issues make me feel inadequate and i dont want to be 'exposed' i hate that look of pity on ppls faces when i tell them about my life. It makes me uncomfortable.

oh no i just threw that out there, as a thought because it does ring true for alot of people.
however, what you said, reminded me a lot of famous comedians who had very hard childhoods and rough times growing up and use comedy to channel their sadness into happy ones. 🙂

so yes, i do understand that, too. And i'm glad you get what i mean about exposed, (like the sky). I come from a large family and we have many gatherings so i like it and used to it.

yeah i come from damaged dysfunctional parents from damaged dysfunctional families. I feel like it took me till recently to admit despite all my big ideas that what i would value most is a complete family unit. I tend to use witty sarcasm as a cover lol. Kind of a dark comedian.

It's fine to be sad and cry and get weak if you want to. It's not only you feeling misunderstood and find it hard to relate to others. I find it hypocritical of me to blame the virtual world and internet because I'm using it right now to talk to you guys but I sometimes wish i can still bring a basket to visit my neibourghs and get to know them better like people in the past generation did. I find us having less real meaningful contacts and more "fantasy" and virtual things. In public, I saw young people would be mostly having their headphones on and refuse to even give you a hello back. In fact, they'd find you to be strange if you start to smile and say hi to them. Hah, I feel like I'm venting in your thread now. I feel like an old lady even I'm still in my 20s 😛 so yeah, just show it, laugh , smile , laugh, cry whatever you want to do do. As long as you feel Free and you are being Considerate enough for others' welfare. I think sometimes, we all need time to put our "wings" on and fly for awhile in space to find again that lovely and innocent smile we once have as babies 😄 It's ok to goof around and laugh at yourself or act silly. It takes the stress away. Family and babies? Those will come when it's time.

As for the validation of certain feeling or explaination. It will be a hard task, almost impossible. Feeling are not similar to thought. For e.g. You see someone for the first time and they might be nice and all to you but you still "feel" uneasy somehow. It will get even mose messy if you try to give many reasons to explain the feeling. Words just simply aren't enough to describe that sort of thing. Not even enough to describe some kind of feeling to be honest. What I can say is the old cliche" only time will tell". Time will give you the advantage of witnessing, observing , judging and easier to come to conclusions . That can come with more experiences because yoi have to face ceratain people or situations alot or as a routine. Interaction and communication are I guess important here. However, what you already have is accepting others. It's very valuable. In time, you might even turn it into compassion and it will be much easier for you to realte to others 🙂

*relate*

excuse all my mistakes here. It's 3 am in the morning here 🙂

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As for the validation of certain feeling or explaination. It will be a hard task, almost impossible. Feeling are not similar to thought. For e.g. You see someone for the first time and they might be nice and all to you but you still "feel" uneasy somehow. It will get even mose messy if you try to give many reasons to explain the feeling. Words just simply aren't enough to describe that sort of thing. Not even enough to describe some kind of feeling to be honest. What I can say is the old cliche" only time will tell". Time will give you the advantage of witnessing, observing , judging and easier to come to conclusions . That can come with more experiences because yoi have to face ceratain people or situations alot or as a routine. Interaction and communication are I guess important here. However, what you already have is accepting others. It's very valuable. In time, you might even turn it into compassion and it will be much easier for you to realte to others 🙂

hey that's very cool. 🙂

aiy, one of my sister's owns a Pisces Mars like yours. She ended up happily with a man similar to the description of her pisces mars, and whilst many outsiders, including family thought she deserved "better" (which better can mean very subjective in the style and manner which other people WANT for you, but not exactly better for you, for your happiness), because she's ambitious, workaholic, successful. So "others" want her to be with someone "higher" than her. Which, is in theory trying to "control" what she desires. But she was very good in picking out a good man, and a man who catered to her feelings and emotional need for nurturing. And that's what matters.

@exam thanks for the kind words. I already have kiddos so the pressure to complete my family has been overwhelming for me in the past, but I've learned that its better to wait on something worthwhile than to keep getting wrapped up in emotional nonsense hoping for a storybook ending. I too wish it were easier to conversate with people in person, and yet I constantly find myself uncomfortable when approached by people. Its like I'm instantly on guard and everything is kind of nod smile laugh haha. It takes awhile for me to really enter into worthwhile conversation, and I only do it when I feel the person can receive what I have to say. If not, I keep it to myself. But I guess that's not a bad thing, and Aqua that has learned a thing or two about tact lol.
@lisabeth, my current interest has a pisces venus and a taurus mars. He's a sweet touchy feely huggy holdy type guy with a witty tongue, but we NEVER EVER talk about feelings. We both have this indirect way of approaching things. Its like I'm kind of saying it, but if it backfires you cant prove I actually said it lol. I'm inspired by his passion though.