My Aqua Love

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Oakley01
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16 Years

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Hi! I'm Capricorn girl dating Aquaman for 4,5 months. First of all i would like to say that my English is not my mother language so I'll try to explain my story and my questions as shorter as possible. Please your kind answers and tips.
My Aqua is the best man I ever met. Really. We started easily, he really try to give his best to catch my heart. We speak every day of all possible things (books, movies, astrology, UFO'S, science, arts....), and he is really the right person to talk with. I like to talk, be kind and happy all the time, I have lot of activities as dance, photography, biking, climbing etc... He finds this very cool. We have a great sex almost every day and we feel a real deep passion even when we look each other in the eyes. Recently, and finally, I opened out, I show my feelings, but also I showed my sadness when he refuses to talk with me or to give me attention which I was craving for as a woman. Then, he stop to talk and express his silence and something like a "worry". I was stunned, and was not sure what to do. Then I involve myself to learn more about Aquarius (my father is one too, and he is the best man I know!). I also stop to talk with him and stop to express my feelings. Then he came and told me that we should talk. So we talked about feelings and everything. Few days after he told me that he cold off (turn off). I was momentarily destroyed. I told him that I find this really unfair. Then we talked again 2 days ago, I almost run away (with my bike) from him, but he follows me 2 times. He finally told me that he loves me and feel care, do not want to lose me, but we have to be honest to each other. Ok, I agreed and felt sorry about bad words I told him in my affection. He respond positively to me excuse and repeated yesterday that he wants to talk with me and give us new chance. I also told him that I would like to give a new opportunity. Today he didn't call at all, he even did not try to talk with me via chat. After few hours he sent me "hi, how are you. your are not at your work? I explained that I took day off to be at home because I can have my personal "working hour" and make it as I wish. So, we talked just about some unimportant things, Now, he would like to see me and talk with me. I'm really afraid of what I will hear from him. And still do not know what to think about all his words (I care a lot, I love you) and his behavior (no more "good morning, good night, no more "my beauty,my love...) What to think and to do?
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Oakley01
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16 Years

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Thanks. I did not understood last sentence very well, but I think I get the point.
Actually, what I want to say, he confessed that he WAS deeply IN LOVE with me, but something inside him broke... because of my silence and my fear (as he thinks) to speak out. I do not have a fear, I just do not want to be to needy or something. I am independent and use to be most time alone.
And he was the first who talks about "relationship", not me. I prefer to call it "spending great time together" etc. And he was one to initiate this "start again", not me :-) I was ready to go. I am ready to keep the distance, to ignore him (sort of) and to be myself as I am.
So, why "I love you" but "was IN love"? Why is not interesting in our biking, walking, spending time together any more? Just wants to talk. And that is what I'm most afraid of. To hear finally from him - I will leave you, I cannot do it anymore... We'll see. :-)
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Oakley01
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I just finished conversation with my Aquarian. We talked almost 4 hours in the car about perception, universe, creation, materia and mind, lot of expressions and lot of energy with great humor altogether. But I realized that he didn't called me at his home as he usually do, cause most the time I visited him in his apartment (I still living with my parents...). We just stayed in the car speaking and laughing. He told me that he is tired and I suggest him to drive me home which is not far away. He said, no, no, don't go home now, lets go talk some more... Ok, I agreed and we spent hour more in talking. Finally he drove me home but we stayed for a while in car trying to resuming all what was said, that we will go out in Thursday, go to exhibition and then in sushi bar to take some food...He asked me to kiss me, and I offered him my cheek. He touched my face and my neck to give me a kiss, so we kissed. Then he said to me that, as he said 2 nights ago, he would like to give a new chance to myself and himself, to try again, that we have right better to know eachother, to learn more and then we will see what to do and do we are ok to stay in the relationship. He found this as his opportunity to wider his horizons, to be better person, to learn something more, to find something more...So, I was a bit disappointed cause he didn't mentioned his true feeling about me, us (is that now friendship only, or new beginning or what—), so I agreed and went home.
Now I'm still captured in my previous question: what he thinks at all, what are his true emotions, if there such, what he WANTS finally from all of this, for me??
How to understand Aqua who shares his everyday life, fun, and company with a women which he "adored" on the beginning and now he start again,cold, a bit sarcastic, non-emotional and ordinary? How to explain this? Cause this is my problem right now!