OK, i am back wish i wasn't anyways me my aries

so, its been a little sad really,
she is having some sort of insecurity issues.
she said she thinks i only love the idea of her.

granted i have been feeling a little bit insicure my self and didn't tell her.

anyways here is the main problem, she contacted me in the June and and it was good for like 2 weeks sort of.
then she said she wants to devote her time to her church and wants nothing to do with me and she only wants to go to heaven.
her church told her she cant have any sexual thoughts so she said she cant see me anymore, she has become very extreem in her believes in the bibble and what her church tells her.
anyways, so we didnt talk for about 3 weeks. when she was away on a family trip last thursday night she contact me and we talk for like 3 days everything was great.
we spoke on saturday
about the mistakes i made when i was 21 and how i was not attracted to white girls and that i like interesting people.
and i told her sometimes i worry that she is not into the news or science wich are some things i find interesting and that i think people should keep up with.

then she comes back on monday and says i am not sure i love you and that she is not sure that i love her. also the church thing.
and that she thinks i am only in love wit the idea of her.

anyways, i have been feeling a little bit detached but only because she has done this thing twice to me she comes and then she leaves it breaks my hear everytime.

anyways, i know i stil love her but i dont miss her as much which is weird but i am not sure whats going on with me either. i always tell her i love her i cant imagine
me not loving her ever but when she leave she breaks my heart. we really havent talke about that but she knows she hurts me

anyways i know that i love her but how do i show her that i do.
if i didnt love her i frankly wouldnt be trying to talk to her it would about sex i guess which is not the case here

Posted by bluemoon9043834
her church told her she cant have any sexual thoughts so she said she cant see me anymore, she has become very extreem in her believes in the bibble and what her church tells her.

Sexuality is a gift from God. It's bizarre, unnatural, and not human to put such limitations on sex. The bed is undefiled. She is a weakling, literally. Why would anyone give themselves to a belief system that limits their sexuality? It makes no sense.

well this church is little extreem and she just started going about 6 months ago and she goes there like 3 to four times a week. its call the wold mission church of god. some consider it a cult. it has changed her but i dont know really why she goes. i know she wants to grow spiritually but the only thing they do there read the bibble. i frank have never been there but i dont know what to make of it sometime i think its cult sometime i think its church that is extreem in view.

bluemoon9043834

i am actually not doing too bad, i mean i find my self somewhat in balance since of mind also its weird cause normally i am depressed but now i feel bad that i dont feel bad i dont know maybe i am just a little confused sometime i think i feel nothing at all. but i stil think of her but i dont obsess about her. but its a new feeling of peace in a way. but i dont know if its peace love or not love at all. over is just a mood feeling content but not really happy. its the best way i can describe it also a little angry that she would do this again

Posted by geminiinlove

Posted by bluemoon9043834
her church told her she cant have any sexual thoughts so she said she cant see me anymore, she has become very extreem in her believes in the bibble and what her church tells her.

Sexuality is a gift from God. It's bizarre, unnatural, and not human to put such limitations on sex. The bed is undefiled. She is a weakling, literally. Why would anyone give themselves to a belief system that limits their sexuality? It makes no sense.

well this church is little extreem and she just started going about 6 months ago and she goes there like 3 to four times a week. its call the wold mission church of god. some consider it a cult. it has changed her but i dont know really why she goes. i know she wants to grow spiritually but

the only thing they do there read the bibble.


i frank have never been there but i dont know what to make of it sometime i think its cult sometime i think its church that is extreem in view.

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"...read the bibble..."

this is the most sensible thing I have read all day

thanks for that!!

Posted by ImpressMe
Gem...

Who does she go to chruch with?

i dont know i have never been there but i have asked her if she like anyone else. and she said no and i ask her twice. she said is just about jesus and god.

no she was not, it has been 6 months

Posted by ImpressMe
She needs to prove herself to you now. It seems like she is taking you for granted. Take a stand and tell her what is in your heart and not really your head. Back away (move forward with your life) and let her prove to you that she is worthy of you.

well i have told her actually and i think i agree with you. will see i guess time will tell. i frankly dont know when she will comeback but i guess its up to her. everytime i think i am over her on the dot she contacts me. but she is not taking my call currently anyways i hope that works

Posted by ImpressMe
Aries are very independent people. So, being dependent on you or anyone is probably scary for her. So, she probably turns to the church for support.

In a way it's probably more of fear then anything.

The empty feeling you described is because she is not giving you what you need.

that makes sense, i have never really felt like that before. i guess the church can be like support.

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Posted by geminiinlove
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i am actually not doing too bad, i mean i find my self somewhat in balance since of mind also its weird cause normally i am depressed but now i feel bad that i dont feel bad i dont know maybe i am just a little confused sometime i think i feel nothing at all. but i stil think of her but i dont obsess about her. but its a new feeling of peace in a way. but i dont know if its peace love or not love at all. over is just a mood feeling content but not really happy. its the best way i can describe it also a little angry that she would do this again

Journaling your thoughts may be good. You could write some serious lyrics and poetry with those emotions you are going through. I'm sorry you are going through this, but writing will definitely help.

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thanks i guess, i dont know i guess feelings are feelings i dont know if it will make top ten songs but i guess writing helps but i am not really feeling like writing but although i do like sharing how i feel with people here at least i feel like someone is listening to me.

i have lost my appetite though which usually is means i am depressed but i dont feel depressed anyways i guess thats it i wait it out

I wish u the best geminiinlove!

I wish u the best geminiinlove!