A heartfelt thank's Parallax for your opinion.

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First let me say that there is a fuller version of Dare to Dream. But I had to cut it down to 20 lines to enter it in a poetry contest. I received a letter indicating I was in the finals to be concidered for the $ 10.000.00 prize. (or any of the other prize categories). Anyway as it turns out the web site I posted on is on a list of poetry scam web sites. oh yes I was published and they are making money off my hard work. The poets are charged $ 40.00 to purchase the book their poetry is in. I resended my permission to publish and have requested my money back four times (I sent $ 20.00, to pay the remainder the next month so my book could be sent to me. I did this after I was sent a letter stating that to be part of the contest I would have to send them alot of money to attend the event. There is no number to reach anyone on, or address that does any good. I had to end up sending my request for reimbursement through the format they use to submit the poems. I did tell them what I thought about what they were doing. (It was Poetry.com.) Anyway I got a letter back telling me that my exceptional tallent had earned me a spot in the finals for yet another contest, and I could have my piece published. Guys this was a not so nice short letter asking for a refund. And I realized that everything was computer generated to send the finals notification letter to anyone who sent in anything, poem or not. I worked one and a half months rewriting that poem, can you imagine what this did to my confidence. I had only written two other poems that were not even close to Dare to Dream. I studied, I read poetry, did the exercises and followed the advise to rewrite until I was satisfied. Before the two previous poems, I had written a piece in junior high in a peotry class I took. The teacher read it aloud to the class and gave me an A++. She said I had potential, but I did not explore it any further at the time. So here I am thinking I did fairly well only to find out that I could have sent in "I'm a little teapot short and shout" and I would have been a finallist. Man I was shot down something awful. I had no idea if what I had created was of much value at all. So this is why I have asked my new friends to read my work and comment on it. I need people who do not know me to get feedback from. My family and a couple of close friends are the only one's I have let even see my stuff. Anyway I guess I am trying to figure out if I should try again, as it's been a year since anyone has seen anything I have written. I have done three other works, none of them are complete. I guess I don't have enough confidence in myself yet as I am still so new at this. I have not been writing for quite some time, Only a couple of years, and each piece takes me along time to complete. And my command of english is not as it should or could be. I am a single mom with a 13 year old son I have raised by myself since he was two. I just don't have the time or energy to go back and retake my english grammer courses. So anyway this is why I have requested that some of you read my poem, as I feel I will get honest feedback from you. I have been following the message boards for a little while now. And have figured out that you guys are a pretty special group of careing poeple. I feel like I can truly get something good from exposing myself here, what ever the responses turn out to be. You all seem so articulate and bright, I could not be putting myself in better hands. I need to know the truth and I welcome the replys. I would gain so much and grow as a person (and possible artist) from the experience. I follow the Libra board, the Cancer board, and the writing board. So I am at an advantage in that I know all of you far better by now than you know me. All I can say is that we are more alike in the way we view friends, and life than you could have anyway of knowing as of yet. Sorry guys for tooting my own horn here, but this is as close as I have come to be
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Sounds like you had a terrible experience with poetry.com - I am also becoming wary of the company as I don't see why I should have to pay so much money just to have my poems published in a book which isn't even distributed in bookstores, only among the people who pay that company directly for the books. They make everything sound very nice and weirdly enough, the Better Business Bureau rates them as satisfactory, but I'm reconsidering allowing them to publish my stuff. I'd really like to be published in a literary magazine, but don't know which one to try to get into. But I've been writing almost all my life and regardless of whether I get accepted or rejected, I'll still continue to write. You do the same! Don't deprive us. 🙂
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Thanks Guys I feel somewhat better now after realizing that I was not alone by far in letting them get a hook in me. Oh Parallax I got a great big giggle out of your comment about a relationship, and things comming loose at the wrong time. That was one cute reply! I am just now comming out of a not so nice cold, darn summer bugs anyway! There are some places that are a pretty good bet to try as far as submitting any writing any of you have. I will let you know where they are, but have to check my list first as I dont remember them by heart. I did some research on the topic and came up with some trustworthy sites. I hope they will help my special new frineds, as much as they have me. They tell you why some of the sites are not a good bet to submit anything to and why. Anyway I appreciate all of you letting me sit on my pitty pot for a bit. Now that done and I feel much better, so on to brighter and happier things. Talk to all of you soon, and again your a great group. I am very happy that I stumbled upon you, as that is how I found this site. Bye TW2
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Sweet-P
You are the only one who can say when your heart has had enough. If you still love this man, then you still love this man. The thing that turned the situation around for me and my cancer getting back together was this. I had to bite the bullet and let him know how I still felt. I did this not with words of love, but through actions. I decided that I could not loose anymore than I already had. And that I would never know where I stood unless I took a chance. Because he was not tipping his hand either way. I dont think he even was sure him self about what he wanted for us. I started by telling him about the little things that I remembered and that were special memories of our time together. Cancers are not the most secure people in the world and they need to know that you accept them for who they are. Then I slowly started showing small eliments of my feelings. Again not with words but with touch. Like if I had to lean over him to get something on the couch I would touch his shoulder lovingly for a minute. In time I would do things like giving him a gentle kiss on the back of his shoulder as I passed by. And then add something like, you are such a special thoughtful person. Nothing overly heavy or intense, just letting him feel the careing still there in my tough for him. It helped him decide to try again with us, and he was able to reveal his feelings for me in time. Cancers do not forgive easily (or at all sometimes) Even if the slight is an imagined one. We broke up because one of my girlfrineds boyfriend told him that I slept with him. I did no such thing, he tried over and over to get me to but I would refuse every time. I guess it made him mad that he did not get what he wanted, as he is not faithful to my girlfriend at all. Anyway my guy was not sure what to believe as this guy is pretty good at spinning a lie. This is one thing a cancer will not forgive. He knows now that I did not do this, but everything we went through because of this lie was awful. Anyway what I am saying is you feel how you feel, and I think you should find a way to take a chance and explore what may be left for the two of you. You will never be able to forget this man unless you follow through and do this. Take my advice for what it is worth,toss it out if you wish. My only wish is for you happiness sweet p. Let me know what you think about what I have said. Bye for now TW2