My birth chart worries me.. I feel set up to fail

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well there you have it folks... I am plagued with the sensitive conflicted soul of a pisces, always crying and getting high when things get rough, which they always do because my rising sign is a sag and I do end up in situations that are far too extreme for me. Then with the aries moon I quickly forget my lessons learned and repeat it all impulsively. I have the blunt mercury in aquarius and over analyze everything, and have a lot to over analyze because being a pisces I pick up on every vibe known to man! I'm not a drug addict... YET... but my dad was a pisces and he ended up going that way and dying. Then reading my saturn sign it says I'm SUPPOSED to feel this way because of him dying? and its my destiny? what kind of sick destiny is that... I feel like I have every wrong combination. I am well liked by many, but get close to few. I just want some feedback on this chart thats maybe positive, I cant seem to find any way its not bad. Some days I feel so good, like the past few months I've felt great, I dropped out of high school and got my GED, and now I'm attending weber state university. I get thrown all these random opportunities but the thing is... I'm always so afraid of my tendency to piss everything away... It seems like a never ending self fulfilled prophecy. Any astrologers want to throw me some advice, and tell me I'm normal for this? heh.

Well the link didn't work. Heres my signs in order. Rising in sag, pisces sun, aries moon, mercury in aquarius, venus in aquarius, mars in leo, jupiter in sag, saturn in pisces, uranaus in capricorn, neptune in capricorn, pluto in sag, N. node in scorpio.