i m thinking about my gemini ex for a few days now.when we broke off she had asked me to be friends and i had agreed initially but then some months later discovered the consequences of the misery and pain so i finally send her a clear message on email that i cant be just friends with her and (i attached a lovesong too which i wrote) 🙂 and that she was the girl i thought every waking moment and when i slept at night.she replied that she respects my feelings but cant get into 'love' thing right now. so i laughed it off and i just needed a closure to try for one last time and not regret again that i never told my feelings to her. so i decided thats that! and lets move on...i didnt contact her since july and neither did she. i dated a leo girl in between and i have left her too now. my problem is i get this pangs of day dreaming about her and the memories of the past.i feel with hope everytime to contact her..see her and talk to her but then i realise i already have got my closure and tol her that i cant be friends with her.... plus we have mutual friends from school who i cant freely see now because she might be there too and it ll get awkward..... dammit! i m in a fix..i yearn for her but then i think about how i will only get friendship with her. i wish to stop thinking about her i tried.honest.but lately i have been failing in my resolution. and i think when i think about her that if i do think so much about her i must still be in love with her.i wish to love someoneelse but i fidn it so difficult because i cant get this girl outta my hea din the first place!!! i m cancer sun scorpio moon she is a gem sun saggi moon.shes busy in her career too shes a professional athlete--a very accomplished one. what should i do people— can you suggest some thing— my exams are near so i wanna stop all this! also how can i meet my friends when she might be there— that would mean interacting with her... 😢
