He love me or not (cancer man & aquarius women)

Let me begin with how we met & know each other.
Honestly, I admired him since high school. My friends know that I like him so much so they decided to send a love letter to him without telling me anything about it. By the way, my cancer man was really close with his classmate especially girls. After few days, come few girls which is obviously his friends and asking my name and show me the letter that I (actually my friend) wrote to her friend. So I explained to them that I'm not the one who wrote that letter and now I know that he finally knew my feeling towards him. I didn't blame my friends either, just I feel like so nervous and don't really know how to hide my feeling anymore.

Then, one day after lunch break, I was standing at the hall, and someone touch my shoulder and called my name. I turn back and I'm shocked because the guy who standing beside me is him. I can't really forget his smile that time was really sweet and fascinating. He gave me a letter and when I at home I read his letter (which I still kept it till now). After that, we texting each others and call each other. But after I further my study, we lost contact.

After few years later, I add his friend on facebook (one of his friend is my colleague @ university). So, couple weeks after that I saw a picture on her timeline and I look at the picture, which is a picture of her classmate, and I saw him on that picture. Immediately I find the tagging list and check each one of them and finally I found his facebook. I add him and few days after that he approved my friend request. He asked me who I am and I telling him the truth all about me. He said that I'm totally different and seems quite pretty n so on. He compliment each of my photos on facebook. We always text on facebook and he gave his number to me. Maybe he likes me, but I don't want to jump to the conclusion yet.

After few months we be as a friend, I confess to him that I liked him and I want this relationship to be more than just friend. Few days after that he gave an answered that he would like to try. Then, we are become a couple for few months. Maybe because of I'm acting so impatient and childish, it really piss him off. Finally he decided that we are meant to be friend and he already gave chances with hope I will change to be more mature. But I just disappoint him and we lost contact again.

Then, early this year, he approached me on facebook , he came to my life again. But now, he make the first move, saying hi and so on. We keep on skyping each others every single day (he's far away from me). When he came back, he asked me out, and we go for dine out. That time I was felt unwell and he really took care of me and comfort me. He gave me green tea and always ask about my health after that.

Then he go for practical, and I'm still here , working. But we still keep in touch. One day, I asked him to buy me green tea that he gave to me before. Then, he really bought for me, and told me to meet his mom, because he gave it to his mom. I think he intentionally want me to meet his parents. After I go to his house and meet his parents, he asked my opinion about his parents and after that he started to tell me about his family. We going on deeper conversation which he told me deepest stories of his life, his ex (which is already died) , and I felt sympathy with what happened to him recently. His girlfriend pass away, and that's why he's afraid to commit to any kind of relationship for now. But, for me its ok, I keep on cheer him up and treat him well, try to make him happy with all my jokes and my attitudes. He once tell me, there's no one can make him feel so happy other than his ex. After that, I'm not really hoping much but I just really want to have good time with him and as long as he's happy, that's enough for me.

When we skyping, he seems really need my attention. He want me to entertain him , he became so childish like playing with his teddy bear n such cute things.. and it make me feel so happy to see him act like that. There several times he asked me , my opinion about him and he tried to promote himself, which he said , its better to be with someone that love to stay at home and play games rather than guy that always going out and play with girl's heart. But then, all the hints he tried to give me, I just take it easy. Maybe because I don't want to put a hope too much. There's also a time he asked me , among others, who's the most important one.. is it him? But I just ignored and didn't answered.

He can really accept me, who I really am, my craziness, my physical and so on. He like to give compliment each time we skyping. There's a time he just want to sing for me, or just want to stare at me and such. I just try to entertain him as much as I can even though I felt sleepy. There's really so much hints he gave to me.. but maybe I'm afraid to make a move, again. Afraid of being rejected. But, how long should I wait? Its been 7 years now, but still no one want to make the first move after the broke up.

I decided to wait for him to come back here, but he always teased me by saying that he's not going to stay here because there's too much memories with her ex. Then, all this things make me give up. I guess he really love his ex.. its been awhile now but he cant forget every lil things about his ex. But I'm not the type who get jealous easily, and I'm trying to be cool. By the way, finally I just decided to wait for him , if he really want me, he will come back and going to see me, right? I'm going to wait if he going to make a move or we will stay as a good friend. But somehow, I'm afraid if I'm not going to make the first move, I'm going to waste all the chances that we are going to be more than just friend.

I try to be patience as much as I can, and act as a good friend and comfort him through thick and thin. Only god knows how I feel right now. I really love him now.

What should I do?
Do he likes me or not?
Or am I hoping too much?
Should I make the first move or should I wait?

By the way, Im aqua =) and we've been friend more than 7 years now

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