How to mentally let go of a cancer man

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commondarling194
@commondarling194
12 Years

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Aquarius f. He's quiet and mysterious, and so funny. He loves his family and his friends and all I ever wanted was to be apart of that. When we met he was leaving for college in 3months, he didn't want a gf. So we were friends with benefits an as time went on he treated me like a gf. His friends called me his girl, his family liked me and he took me to family events. This left me confused and always hurting. I started arguments trying to get him to define the relationship. After 9months of this, we got in to a petty argument and he disappeared for a year. I never forgot about him and no matter what he was always in the back of my mind. We go to the same school now and when he saw me on campus he quickly looked away and pretended I wasn't even there. One night at 4am I got a text from an unknown # when I texted back in the morning asking who it was there was no reply.
A month later I got a message from him on twitter he asked me how my family was and how my first year of college was going. And when he texted me it was from the same # that texted me at 4am. This made me happy because it made me feel like there was a reason I hadnt let him go. He told me he contacted me because he missed me(a shock to me because he rarely tells me how he feels). So he picked me up and instead of treating me like a bootycall he took me to dinner and a movie. He introduced me to his friends and they all said that we look like we will last. I said I wouldn't have sex with him(atleast on the first date) I couldn't help it I missed him very much! It felt like old times and on the way home we got on the subject of love, he asked me have I ever been in love and I said no(If I said yes I would have to tell him!). I asked him the same question and he said yes, with a girl named Michelle(MY NAME). I don't know if he was joking. After our date we continued texting, a week goes by and he hasnt tried to come see me yet even though he told me he was close to where I am. I dropped hints, but he never came. Confused, I didn't text him for a week. And when he finally texted me I didn't text back. After 3 days(feeling stupid) I texted him apologizing. No reply. I texted him a lengthy text tellin him how busy I was an to text me. Never did. I gave him space and sent a text a month later. In my feelings I told him how I felt, hurt. I let him know I atleast want him in my life. Nothing. Its been 2 months I feel used and heartbroken. Is this normal cancer behavior? Will he come back?