I'm lost, can someone help me.

So here's my chart - http://imgur.com/mCJCvIs - I'm having a tough time and I would be very thankful if someone could give me an insight on myself - my bad and good traits, how should I deal with my clinginess and emotional instability. I'm 21 and I'm male, but to be honest, I don't feel like I have any part of a man - I'm not macho, I tend to complain a lot, I'm lazy. I can't imagine a girl that would find me as a potential boyfriend (had some girlfriends, don't know how I managed that). A good example is the feeling I'm having right now - been texting with an Aries for a few days, everything is cool, trying to control myself, but she hasn't replied for a few hours and I'm starting to worry....did I say something and scared her away? Why can't I just think rationally - that she may be busy. I just don't understand myself. I don't know if I'm just down, but I do know I'm lost and I need help. So please, spare a few minutes, if you can.

"Why can't I just think rationally - that she may be busy."
You just did it.

"my bad and good traits"
Actually Astrology is a mind game. You google, find some texts and only that matters what you admit.

Follow this link: http://astro.cafeastrology.com/cgi-bin/astro/natal?member=&recalc=&name=&sex=t&d1day=15&d1month=7&d1year=1993&d1hour=23&d1min=55&adjust=-2&citylist=Jekabpils% 2C+Latvia&lang=en

Additionally you can google these subjects:
Ascendant Taurus
Sun in Cancer
Moon in Gemini
Venus in Gemini
Mercury in Cancer
Mars in Virgo
Saturn Aquarius Retrograde at 29.19 (almost Pisces)
Uranus Capricorn Retrograde
Neptune Capricorn Retrograde
Pluto Scorpio Retrograde
MC or Midheaven Capricorn
Lilith Aries 0.23 (also pisces?)
Asc node Sagittarius :: South Node in Gemini
Sun Conjunction Mercury
Sun Trine Pluto
Pluto Opposition Ascendant
Moon Conjunction Venus
Moon Trine Jupiter
Mercury Opposition Uranus
Mercury Opposition Neptune
Mercury Trine Pluto
Mercury Sextile Ascendant
Venus Square Mars
Venus Trine Jupiter
Mars Trine Midheaven
Uranus Conjunction Neptune
Uranus Sextile Pluto
Uranus Trine Ascendant
Uranus Conjunction Midheaven
Neptune Trine Ascendant
Neptune Conjunction Midheaven

Take small steps. Every day one aspect. Think about it. Talk to your family or friends and ask them if they agree.

"how should I deal with my clinginess and emotional instability"
Live your life. Nobody will eat you. Other Cancer guys did get through life too.

"I don't feel like I have any part of a man - I'm not macho"
You may not behave like a macho but with Sun/Cancer trine Pluto/Scorpio you are to be a man of power. Even worse with Pluto/Sc oppos. AC/Taurus you may try to force things by all means. And look a Cancer guy may go other ways than an Aries. No direct Motion but an indirect. Remember the story of hare and the hedgehog?

"I tend to complain a lot"
Mars in Virgo. Google it. (and stop complaining. I'm avoiding the love of my life because of this. He also have Mars in Virgo.

"I'm lazy."
I guess somebody (an Aries? A Scorp? A Virgo?) in your family has told you this. Because how could you dimiss your own tempo? Or do you mean you have no interests to go after? By the way my Cancer brother was a lazy one when my Aries mother gave us home work to do. I'm not sure if he was not interested, manipulating us or wanted to do it later. But he did everything just a few minutes before the deadline. I think it was not healthy for him to be judged by our Aries mother. Cause of course Cancer is slower than Aries. Who isn't?

BTW there are books on how laziness can be a plus at the end of the day.

"I can't imagine a girl that would find me as a potential boyfriend (had some girlfriends, don't know how I managed that)."

First the practical answer is in your sentence. Second: there are different girls. Third: you never know what keep others around us. We are simply more than this and that. With Venus and Moon in Gemini you'd be in the center of events. You want to be there and they want to have you there. A little shy despitely cause Sun/Cc, Merc/Cc and Mars/Virg.

It's your virgo mars that makes you clingy in love .. but it is also something u can control.. dont worry too much!

Thank you everyone, especially DwellingOnMove. Feeling better today, but still a bit lost. I found it funny a few years ago when some grownup said they went on a journey or did something to find themselves. Now I kind of understand it. I partially know my qualities, but I don't know myself. As long as I just go about my everyday life, everything is fine, but when something happens and I start to think, everything crumbles.