Kickin' me out and pullin me in

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lildandy
@lildandy
11 Years

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Hallu!

i was wondering why cancer seems to be so insecure , and coward sometimes.
we've been friend for so long and he know that i love him.
he treat me nicely and indeed he's caring and kind. but the next day he will act so cold and heartless.
eventho' we've been friend like more than 5 years but with his mood swings and love to run away when problem occurred might pissed me off and i dont know how to react to his attitude.

that day, last month as i remember, we fought. really bad and he said he treat me so cold n etc because he want me to stop liking him. so then he decided that we should be not more than just a stranger.

i was soooo tired with his drama and back and forth kind of decision.
i love him even when he treat me so bad but that time i just follow what he asked.
so then, on valentine day, he suddenly text me. i dont know if i should reply or not.
my heart seems tasteless and im afraid if i reply i will just hurt him or maybe he will misunderstood me, like always.

then after 2, 3 hours.. i replied with just "hi 😉"
with hope everything is gonna be alright.

then he reply and the text message seems to be cold and i dont feel good when i read it even it just a simple question "how are u" without a question mark.

i keep on calming myself and try to text him nicely and after texting for awhile and he disappeared. again..

what should i do? should i just ignore him or find him?
may i know the reason why he treat me that way? like all the time.
im tired but im not saying im giving up.
im never madly in love like this before.

we both had made confession before and both knowing that we hv that "special feeling" towards each others but..
i dont know how to make it work..

help me ;(