Permission to LET IT ALL OUT

so I have this colleague, she's a virgo/libra cusp. we got along, we still do. anyway during a drunken night out we got drunk and kissed at a very public place but it was at night. She's Lesbian. somebody reported to my cousin the incident who in turn took the info to my parents. now everyone is thinking that im lesbo, my cousin banned me from ever being with her EVER again like I can't be seen doing anything with her outside of the office. im turning 22 in july btw. of course, im so pissed I could move out from her place so she'd stop controlling me, shes a cancer btw, I seriously don't have the money to do so. my mother is so stressed by this she even had to go see a doctor and the cousin is just chilling after all this commotion she has caused, I feel like we could have sorted it out without the parents. God, I hate the cancerian drama!

its just cancer drama and tired of it and tired of talking about it, my dad keeps explaining to me things I don't care about, hes tryna communicate between me and my mother now, who has stopped calling me btw, this might actually drive him insane. and im stressed which is causing me physical pain. im so tired of it all. and I am pissed as hell! ive tried telling everyone involved that they can't choose friends for me and that's when I got the ultimatum.

I mean she really is a nice a girl. and besides, so fucking what if we're attracted to each other?! hell, dating even?! which we're totally not which means im losing out on a good friendship because of something that isn't even true.

now I'm just smiling, continuing with life as if everything fine because I feel im expected to do so, because somehow I did something "wrong" but really I am raging inside. the only way I can release is by crying, of course I do this in ways that nobody sees that iv been crying

Posted by J9



Ps: When in doubt, blame alcohol.

"it works everytime..."LOL

Posted by tiziani
Sometimes you've just got to give people explicit instructions on exactly where they can shove it and be perfectly okay if that's the last conversation you ever had with them. I've been doing a lot of that lately and let me tell you, it's liberating.

I hope one day i'll have the courage