I can't stand this!!!

I know that incident in the bar has led to all this poofing...he ignored me the first week of this month, then forgave me and we met in the 2nd week. then the 3rd week he poofed, got in contact at end of it, and this week he's done it again!! I keep sitting here wondering what he's up to, if he's out on the town, who he's meeting or talking to etc - totally insane!!! Just i know tomorrow's his day off so strong chance he will be out, can't stand not knowing how he feels about things or what he's doing - it's driving me completely MAD!!! And knowing thers nothing i can do it about it, i cant keep texting or ringing like a complete stalker, i cant turn up at his house, i cant go into town and hope i bump into him, i have to control myself and wait to see if he will eventually contact me - AND IT IS SO HARD TO DO!

jeeez if someone hurts me once its over... i mean why are u sitting and waiting for him— cant u just move on—?

I understand what you mean. My girl did the same. But all you have to do is keep going on!!! I know its hard but you have to. I was killing myself trying to wonder how she thinks or what she was doing but you cant do that. you have to have the mindset that no one deserves to be mistreeted. If he calls ok but dont put yourself in that posion too many times. I might care for her alot but I have to care about myself more!!!!!!!

yeah ur right -well i could move on but we are supposed to be still together!! he's just in one of his disappearing moods! I just want it to be on...or off...but things cant be that simple with him and sad to say but you cant help who you love or care about so theres that tie, plus im soooo determined i can never give up on anyone or anything!! umless he turned round and rejected me or said it was over or i felt he had hurt me then i would and could walk away and never look back...but it was me who hurt and embarassed him, and i feel overwhelmed with guilt!

conn1 so what did you do to take your mind off things, did ur girl break up with you or just disappear on you each time? its so annoying, and there was i thinking a relationship meant regular and daily contact, it obviously doesnt in my guys mind yet he still says dont give up on him!

She only did it once!!! Im not going to let it happen again and again!!! I will tell you how to move on...Listen really carefully because it really worked for me. I prayed all night long for GOD to take the feeling away if she is not the one. God will not do it if you dont ask him too! God has some thing out their for you but you have to move on to find it. Yes I still care for her but I am not hurting no where near the way I was feeling weeks ago! It Works!!!!!!!She might be the one but I am not going to wait. I truly believe that he works in mysterious ways!!!!!I'll check on you tomorrow!!!!!
Stay Strong!!!!

taur04girl,

im sorry to hear that... i hope things work out for the best... i can totally understand ur feelings and ya ur right we cant choose who to love and care for..... Im assuming ur a taurus... if u are then i can totally understand ur feelings, my bro in law is a taurus too and hes EXACTLY like ya... i mean when he and my sis have an argument and she disappears he feels EXACTLY the way u do....... all i can say is just keep ur self busy and try not to think too much about it coz that will bring u down and get ya depressed...

conn1 - thanks for that i will do my best to follow ur advice and also give myself a pep talk!!!

eliza0012 thanks for nice msge of support, on outside my friends family have no idea i feel like this, it does sound pretty sad and pathetic i know, but thats what these boards are for arent they, letting go and expressing your true feelings, plus i think ppl on here are then more likely to tell you ur being an idiot or not, in which case it helps you figure out what to do by giving you something to think about...