My Cap Vent Post

This is a vent post. Thanks cappysweetie for inventing the disclaimer for the vent post. This might be long.

I have been in a Capricorn world as of late. 1st most important post for the is that the Cap I have been "dating" and use that loosely for reason that are too long winded. But we workout together and talk everyday. But today he had a dental appointment, so I called him, no answer, text him no answer. So I figured he was asleep, doing over time, or couldn't talk but he always responds.

Sooooo got a call after my last text. Going out of town for a few days for his job. He got mad when I figured it out bc he is so private and I yelled it in excitement when we were walking. He's a Bounty Hunter or a Fugitive Recovery Agent. He said right after the dentist he got orders to go out of town. Didn't ask when he was coming back, didn't ask where he was going, I just understood.

BUT we had plans for tomorrow night. WHY ME? Why do I attract these workaholics Caps. I went through 3 friggin tours of Iraq with my ex Cap and the distance is what killed our relationship, not a lack of love. I already tried to stop liking this one because he got this job THEN he is starting law school as a full time student next week. I told him he would have no time for me, he was like I have Friday thru Sunday off. I tried to scurry away like us crabs do, and he wouldn't let me. Told him up front I want love, ring, and a baby. Things that would typically scare men. He said you can have all my love if you act right and just trust me. Grrrrrr GGGrrrrrr.

It's especially hard because he already tries to dominate me and he says I have to listen to him. I had a matriarchal household, father was non-existent. Its very difficult for me to submit to a man and I know with cap men I have to give them the lead. OMG, I was pefectly cool being single and working on me, but he had to come around and F my world up with his yellow eyes.

Lord knows I tried my damdest not to like him those 2 weeks we were away training, but the more cold I acted, the more warm he became. Damm Caps.

And why the fuck my DJ friend who is a Cap get mad at me today. I've known him for years, we almost had a radio show together, we went on a "date" but told him up front I wasn't interested. He was mad, laid off a bit. But yet he still persues. Shot a reality showI was managing for production company, he happened to be a contestant in it, that resparked our friendship.

Saw him last night, was saying good night, he grabbed my butt which was fucking rude, i smacked him right in the face. He was turned on apparently. Disgusted, I left. So I blasted that i got a new Blackberry add me to my contacts. He responded I said "ou suck for what you did last nite"...he goes "I suck real good"....i say "LOLOL, damm so thats how you are now" he says "Thats what you need to come for" I say "I dont think so, i am not a pump and dump" he says "Grrrrr!!!!, who said anything about pumping, you just gonna relax and release" I say "u got to spell it out for me bc i can't read btw the lines" he says "Invite me over and I will show you not btw the lines but btw your legs: I say "LOl. U a trip" he says "so now you backing off. Holla when you ready." I say "I wasn't backing in, OMG thought you were kidding around. why so serious" he says "I don't play around ma. I only joke in person" I say "Well thought we were friends u triiiipppiiinnn, relax dude" he says "Whats that gotta do with anything" i say "huh?? now Im confused??"

End of convo, he doesn't reply. WTF WTF? WTF? WTF?

I am just upset that this dude is getting mad at me for something I told him 2 yrs ago. Im not interested in you like that. I managed a show the other day and even brought him backstage, when I wasn't supposed to.

I mean he is my FRIEND but he keeps on wanting more that I can't give. He even tried to give me the "I am so faithfull. one woman man speech".....

My biggest problem in life is i get along great with guys cause I have 4 bros and countless uncles. If i wanted to hang growing up, i had to be like 1 of the boys. But I am still a girly girl now that I am older....but i find guy friendships easier. But its like someone always catch feelings and its never me bc guys I like they know it, i don't act like their buddy, with those.

ArgggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhArfggggggggggggggggggggh. you Caps are about to make my head explode.

Thanks scorpio chic, i don't mind the work, I am a workaholic myself, I just like this one, never been in like, like this in over 3 yrs, and the things that he says are so scary at the same time, like love, coming home to somebody. I told him from the get go what I wanted and it piqued his interest rather than scare him away like most guys. The thing is, i know most men don't want to hear that but I say that just to "test" them from the beginning. He just returned the sentiment with more vigor. Thats what got me, then I bitched saying, you wont have time for me anyways with work and school, he toss that right back saying I have friday to sunday off. WTF?

He say he admires me, I am cool girl, like my work ethic. I just got to chill (he thinks I am uptight, but its bc I like him, my guard is up)..we haven't even kissed, so weird.....like our lips touched before but it wasn't all intimate, it was like a peck. All week he has been trying to get me to come stay at his place over night but I say I have to work too early blah blah blah...just excuses bc honestly i been so out of the loop with sex. been just doing me. then he is around. Lord help me, I am falling. Why me?

ok I think i have done enough venting. I feel a tad bit better.

Hey LovelyScorp......you too? Gotta love em'

Posted by scorpio_chic
I saw mine earlier today too.. I got out of class at 10am and he was still sleepin, I told him I was coming to take a nap with him. Bad idea... LOL :/

Before I left, I was the quiet, moody one. Just because of how confused I am. He's at work now.

LOL, I know the feeling SC. They can be so addictive sometimes and things just always gotta feel like you are on their terms. That's why I haven't caved into this one yet because once the SEX part comes......its just gonna get worse because I actually like him.

I think that I am just gonna start talking to other guys, I mean there are other guys that call and text but I rarely respond cause I usually like you or don't, no real in between for me.

I can't be hung up on this one Cap guy. Sometimes I wish he would of just let me be.