to cappies,

how is yor year going?
like to hear from all

Well, this is my last post for the night. I am not a sun Cap; I am a Saturn in Cap. I think my year has so far been blessed, and I feel more mature and in control of myself. I feel like I know who I am and what my mark might be in the world or my niche!! I like who I am, finally! I don't blame others for what has happened to me and I know with all that has occurred in my life it has come full circle and has made me who I am! For that I am appreciative. I still find love alusive, but I am still hopefull and have given that up to my higher power! Sometimes I feel it is near and then the feeling is just as fleeting! So, with all that said, I am not waiting for anything, but I will never lose hope!!! I will forever be grateful to all those who have been in my life, and I will continue on my way!

Blessings!
BG

I too am a Saturn in Cap. My whole life I've felt like a Cap? God knows it hasn't been a Sagi w/the exception of the spritual we're supposed to eventually feel?

My year began with semi turmoil at least IMO but is shaping up to end quite nicely! Being that I've been suffering from spinal cord injuries for the past 6 years due to the ignorance and selfishness of a 16 wheeler driver on the road who all but literally paralyzed me I'm starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel! I'm now able to tolerate doing more and I'm looking forward to going back to school again! It was cut short at the time of the accident. I was going to school and hoping to earn a degree as a Special Ed teacher for children with developmental disabilities.

I now volunteer my time 3 times per week with these children. The joy can not be measured! I'm hoping that it can lead lead to possibly teaching based on experience but from what I've been told it's not likely but still it's a joyous feeling to be with these children who's parents either don't care or who have better things to do?

I can't help but comment on your comment about love being elusive. Not so. As most know my situation from the Cap board I've really taken an interest as to who our significant other should be in this life? I'm currently reading the book "Twin Souls - Finding Your True Spiritual Partner" by author Patricia Joudry and Maurie Pressman (available on amazon.com). The book is amazing and everyone should read it IMO! I'm glad you'll never lose hope and that is the key. Nor will I for that matter? But the book speaks of another kind of love should it not be found here in this lifetime.

I hope the rest of the year goes just as wonderful for you and me as well! Life is truly blissful isn't it? One never knows what tomorrow will bring do they?!

For me it hasn't been very significant as yet...though i cant say that i haven't made some inroads towards some of my goals already. It is hard but i am learning to play along.

On the whole i think the situation hasn't changed much since the last year but maybe i have changed! 🙂

Meaning, now i can look at a situation with a slightly detached attitude - and that i find has helped me in taking saner decisions (or at least in obtaining a saner perspective!!!!)

207 & 12,

Glad to hear the seas are a little calmer for you guys!!! I have just now come back to read this thread and I didn't want to give off the impression that life is heaven on earth for me. I have been a recoving from various things including a life long drug addiction. I have been clean for 8 years; but with that,I always find something else to become addicted to. It could be anything, schoolor work or exercise or whatever it is always something! I wake up at all hours with all kinds of anxieties and that is still alwasy seems to be there. What I meant to say is that,I really don't have anything to complain about because I am healthy and I have a roof over my head and food to eat and family that loves me. My life is far from perfect and at times I am drifting out there at high seas but I always find my way back and still have hope for the future!!!

Love,
BG

BG, You sure do have your head on right! You are so aware of you and I think that is where all progress and growth begin. The neat thing is we can change what we don't like...and no one says it is easy to change but it is possible. I have a Cappy friend who has said the same thing about being addicted to things...and also that he has trouble sleeping at night..he has begun to take sleeping pills...gosh, I wish he wouldn't have done that. However, I do not walk in his shoes and I do not know all that he feels. All I can do is be his friend and love him no matter what. I can only imagine what you have felt but I can tell you one thing, I sure do admire one who comes through what you have. Now, that takes COURAGE, STRENGTH and LOVING yourself to do that. Way to go, BG 🙂 You are right where you are supposed to be at each moment that you experience life. Enjoy each moment as it will take you to the next moment and the next leaving you with the memories YOU have created for you.

Have fun living life!

AFx2

What exactlly does it mean when your Saturn is in Capricorn. Because mines is just the opposite- it's in Cancer.

For 198, Saturn represents structure, our life structures (rules and laws) which we can live peacefully by. Saturn represents a realistic acceptance of what we need to keep oursevelves safe and productive. It represents order in our life, and WHO we actually are. Remember Saturn will always overshadow both one's Sun and Mars placement. Therefore all these zodiac lovers should really be reading saturn placement and not their sun sign.

But for you this is what Cancer in Saturn represents...Saturn in Cancer "needs to establish guarnatees of lavability. A deep fear of abandonment may make the indiviudal appear more passive and helpless than he or she in fact is. Defense mechanisms often include extreme sensitivity to rejection and a martyrlife stance toward unhappiness. Family ties may dominate personal life because they provide a sense of belonging. Although emotional dependency may be controlled or even supressed, Saturn in Cancer secretly longs to bind loved ones as tightly as possible." Can you relate to this?

Saturn in Cappy..."urgently needs to establish rules of social conduct which preserve order and tradition. The individual may experience a deep fear of the chaotic aspects of human nature, which could erupt if conventional precepts are flouted. Defense mechanisms often inlude a rigid definition of social and sexual roles, and a need to wield authority through social or prrofessional standing. Although hierarchical attitudes may be controlled or even repressed, Saturn in Cap. secretly longs for everyone to keep to their place". And I can definitely relate to the "everyone should keep to their place" part! To bad that no one does.

Hopefully this helped?

of lavability... should be "lovability"! I'm sure there are many more mis-spellings but this one stood out the most!

Thank you 12.89. for breaking that down for me. How do you know all of this stuff? Can you refer any good reading material for me to understand this more?

AFx2,

Hey there! Thanks for the all the flowers! I wish I ran into you long time ago; you could have saved me alot of money in therapy!!
No really, you ARE a rare gift and really should employ that talent! Alot of people out there could use some of your wisdom and intellegence!

Thanks you!
Love,
BG

said very well, THANKS.
all of you Cap.'s sound like you are doing so well, I envy you, I am tring soooo hard to get over the last 8 years
it's just not working. life is just a little better than it was, just a little.
but CAP'S are the best for challenges right! GOOD LUCK TO YOU ALL!

Dear 205.188,

First of all, we are here for you!
Trying to get over the past 8 years? You are correct, it will not work. We can never get over the past. We need to ACCEPT the past for what it was and then leave it there, in the past. It is over, done, no longer exist. When you continue to bring it into your present life then you are reliving your past and are unable to enjoy the present moments that you are experiencing. One of our life's lessons is to learn to "let-go" of the past so that we may move on. There are many ways to do this....one is to accept the past for what it WAS....a learning experience to get you to where you are now. There must be a past in order to have a present and then a future, right? So, change how you look at that past. There is no way to change what happened but you can take that past to change your thoughts about what can happen today. Whatever happened to you needed to. There were specific lessons that YOU needed to learn made only for you. Trust me, we ALL have a past or we wouldn't be here today. Be thankful for that past and what it has taught you. Find the gifts in the past and use them today. Learning to let go is a difficult task for us but we need to do it and realize that the past not need to hold us there.

Try to figure out why you are choosing to live in the past (which is history) and see if you can transfer that same passion to the NOW. The only thing we have is NOW..this is what exsist for us...NOW. Sure, it is a journey and a great one at that! YOU can do it. 🙂

I wish you my best,

AFx2

thanks AFx2, you are right, I am really tring not to bring the past with me, and have learned alot ,but somehow others want it in the here and now.

TUFF AND GROWING; THANKS FOR ASKING.

what do you mean TUFF and GROWING?
they say us cap.'s do not show our feelings--- this is your chance to let it out!!!!!

Yeah, what have you got to lose? absolutey nothing...go for it, let it out! We will support you, big time!

That is what WE are here for!

Love......