Finally got mad at Libra..What a fight!!

Finally had it out with Libra...It is over for good at last, no more contact ever!! I feel great because I finally got to say how I feel and did I say it and not nicely either..This man has been flipping everything back on me forever, like I was the one doing all the chasing, when every time I stopped contacting him, he would start contacting me..

I tried to be nice and to tell him to stop contacting me, that I needed space to get past the feelings are are left and he was so rude..So i sent him an email and I told him to stop deflecting his pain from his divorce, that it wasn't anybody else's fault but his own, because he didn't have enough balls to leave a marriage when his wife had a boyfriend..I told him he was a manipulator sucking the life out of everyone around him to make himself feel better..I clearly stated how he started our THING on a lie, because he told me he was broke up with his wife for longer than he was ( which I just recently found out)..Reapeated all the things he said to me, like he would marry me in year, would I have his baby and be his family, when I started dating someone else, he called me and said that he did fall for me but he wasn't ready

..Anyways he got really pissed off and emailed me and told me that I am entitled to my opinion, and he has his but he will keep it to himself, and he told me he is not interested in me in any way..Get it..

Then 5 minutes later he emailed me and sad don't ever try to contact me, I repeat don't ever contact me again..I replied and said I would not lower myself to ever contact you again..

The next morning I got another email from him which said , I read your letter again without bias, and there are a lot of punts that are quite true..I apologize for hurting you, I accept blame, I hope you have all the best..A hurt heart is no fun..Once again I apoligize..Take care..

I am sorry it had to come to this but I think it was the only way...It is finaaly over for good..I am a little sad that I was mean to him, but at least now there is closure.

Good for you . It's about time !!!

Yep it was..I was honest with him and took the time to look at my behaviour and told him that I was trying to maintain a friendship in hopes that the person I met would return..(this was a couple of weeks ago)I told him that I needed time to get past my feelings and perhaps in time we could be friends..It is very hard to look at the situation when you are in it and be truthful with yourself, but i did..Thanks to Leo kitten..

This was his gateway out and he chose not to take it by contacting me again...A co worker called him for product information and he called back the next day and left a message..I did not pick up the phone..Then he called back the next week and asked for me, to see if I had any questions about the product..

This is what blew up yesterday, he said I was only doing this because he called and that it was a business call only and that i should get over myself..When I emailed him back I said that if it was a business call only, should he not have spoke to the person who requested the information instead of asking for me..I told him to be honest with himself, as I had done, and that he does this to make sure that I am still hanging on..

Before the fight began, we were talking and he told me that he met a girl who lived out west in the summer and she just moved here..He said he went out with here twice but did not sleep with her..I guess she was telling people that she was moving in with him and they would be engaged by Christmas..He confronted her and she moved back out west three days later..He said that he did not say these things to her..But I have to question that because he definatley said all those thing to me..He even came up here once and told me that he was scared because he was having all these thought of me moving in and my daughter going to college where he lives, said he wanted to see me again and then changed his mind the next day..I wonder if he did that to her to, he says that he told her if she moved here, they could date..That's an awfully big move to make to date someone..

I'm not interested. Ha, yes they are. They are just beyond scared. They say things, like marrying you and having a baby , they mean that, but the fear blocks them so much emotionally, it's like they never ment it. When they want something, the damaged ones fuck it up. And push push push away. But they want you but don't want to have to do anything that could make them scared but they want you to always be around. Than you realize they cared more than you ever did. (In my case) Than you can just walk away because your healthy and can get better. Good for you lighthearted-leo for not being afraid. You'll get love and get it the rest of your life. He will probably never get it. And if he does, I'm sure It'd won't even be half as deep as you get. Unless he fixes himself.

This thinking is exactly what kept me hanging on for so long..I know that he was really hurt because his wife cheated on him, and he kept telling me he was scared..So I kept hoping he would get past his fear..But it has been so long now and I have been hurt so many times that my heart feels like a rock..I don't believe anymore that he cares about me beacuse if he did he would be a man and step up to the plate..

The mind gets it all but the fucking heart has a hard time believing that this person that you loved so much, does not love you back..I wish I could pull my heart out of my chest, beat some sense in it and put it back in..LOL

Finally! I hope you are done for good this time! Too much time wasted already!