Tortured libran

I am so tortured. I have no life, that's why I write on these boards. It does give me some hope though, just to be able to talk to other librans. Its always so easy to talk to your own sign. We are the best but we often let people walk all over us. Are there any other librans like me who feel they lack confidence? We are the best and we shouldnt forget it. Bugga.

Ive just read over my post and realised how bad it sounds. I am a sick, miserable libran (sick as in ill) 😢
Question: Whats worse than a bear with a sore head? A sick, miserable libran.
At least I still have a sense of humour,.. or a fever...

Seeya guys.

I think the best way to heal yourself,,,, is to purge yourself of your rut. Your mental toxins, your insecurities, your imperfections, your follies by simply communicating with others. Admiting to and confronting your indiscretions is the first step. Learning to pass a majority of your burden by sharing it with others is how you may slowly and gradually begin to release yourself from the block. Possibly not consciously you have created a self fulfilling prophecy. Inadvertendly you arranged the bed of nails in which you now lie. TALKing It out, is the healthiest and best anecdote.

Hey! 210.50, I have read a couple of your post and you are one smart and funny chic. We all have our bad days and they will pass. Don't you get down!! When I get that way, I start giving thanks for things like: a beautiful sunny day, laughter, family, and my animals etc...the little things we take so much for granted but are by far the BEST!! I will talk with you anytime you want! Another thing I do-- this might not be such a good idea for you, but it works for me; I go shopping!!! I only by things I need. I like to make sure the house always has enough food and supplies. Or there is always choclate and champagne for when your really feeling ill.

sorry I forgot to answer your question...ding, ding, ding

No, I never have lacked much in the confidence department; if anything, I have too much. Sure, there have been occassions I get a little nervous; I'm kind of high strung anyways but not on an on going bases. I do have a problem being miss understood because everything is usually a joke with me. I find humour in the worst situations!!! I'm from a whole family of Don Rickles. The more you made my folks laugh when we were growing up, the more attention you got. Therefore, we are from a family that insults and thinks it funny. Some people don't understand, but I try to balance the act when I have to. There are others that are smart enough to pick up on it, and help play off of it!!!

What's up with your feeling blue or insecure if you don't mind me prying?

I'll tell you what though 210.50, we all have something we don't like about ourselves. You just have to take the parts you do like and highlight those to the hilt, honey!!!

My biggest problem is fear. Fear so bad I can't even go out at night. I have someone who lives with me, just because I am to chicken to live alone!! I have no social life because I cannot get myself to go out after dark. Even if I am with someone when they drop me off, I am too scared to go back into the house. I have to have the whole place searched before I can stay there by myself. It got so bad that when I did try to live alone, at night I slept in my car. Just in case I had to drive off really fast!! Why? I don't know. I have been very sensitive as a child. I never wanted people to look at me or touch me, except my family. Geez, sorry to ramble so much. I do go on and on sometimes.

PS and yes, I do feel like I get taken advantage of, alot!! But there is a payoff for all of us in what ever we continue to allow in our lives. Mine is I want to feel safe and protected, so I compromise.

Please don't feel tortured, this is just a moment! The sun will shine on your side one day. (It always does no matter what) So no matter what, build yourself up, pick yourself up, and don't continue to let yourself down, because us Librans can make a frown turn into a smile, even for our own selves.

You will have your day to shine!!!

Smile!!!

Happy Libra

If Libran, you are bound to feel the way you feel at times. We are drawn to making others feel good about themselves, sometimes to the detriment of our own self. It is those times that I personally seek solitude and just let it all hang out. I will write down my thoughts and realize that I feel bad about myself because of rejection, abandonment or just ostracized type feelings due to over zealously helping someone else and not receiving anything back in return. Then I realize unconditional love does not expect anything back in return and that was the way I gave the help or attention to another person. Also, we are social people and when we go through our recharging or renewing periods, after putting out a lot of energy, we have a tendency to get a bit mopey or I would call blue if we don't have someone to help uplift us.
At the present moment, I am up and ready to begin a new life. But..a month ago I would have identified with where you are at. So..Hang in there~ look for the positive in the present moment and those dark clouds will disappear and the sunny blue sky will appear once more.

Thanks for you kind words guys 🙂 Ill post soon but right now i feel i need to absorb what you have said and i still feel too delerious to make sense of what is going on in my head. I will tell you one thing though, i am truelly obsessed with someone, i think thats the root of my problem.
seeya,
210.50
PS. That is my big confession of the day.

Ok, now I can understand what is going on!!!

I hope your love is requitted. I don't think there is a worse pain in the soul as unrequitted love. Although, nobody gets out of life without being knocked around some. Some get knocked around more than others. Why?? I don't even try to ask anymore. I just leave it to the Lord.

Just remember, there are plenty of men out in the world. If the one you love doesn't love you, then he wasn't meant for you and the right man is still out there.

PS I hope he isn't married!!

Geez, I hope that is even a word requitted?? you can get my point though!!

I just finished my final final at school this mornin and my brain is fried!!

I actually completed college and I will be marching May 14th. I can't believe I pulled it off!!!!

I think I'm gonna sit in the bathtub and get drunk!!!

210.50-keep us posted, if you want!! I know how your feeling, dreamworld- huh?

Congratulations!!!! Good for you. You should be very proud of yourself for having done what most people don't. That is, graduate from college.

Thanks for the flowers! I guess it's those ol survival instincts kicking in. I'm not gonna let anyone push me out of living a good life. I am gonna go kicking and screaming if you know what I mean!! I feel better; I did it on my own (meaning I paid my own way) no one did it for me!!

I feel very fortunate and privelaged to be sitting here in my house and to have accomplished this, and now I am having a nice meal etc...

I wish the folks over in the Middle East had some peace. I just heard of another bombing at a Kentucky fried chicken...poor people can't even go eat a meal without being killed. C what I mean. This is why I don't even want to go out at night. This stuff is getting really crazy!! September 11th didn't help much either!! Why does there have to be so much violence??

All that violence in the world and I sit here thinking about my problems! Silly me...
Im not sure about the obsession, he is a she (yes, i have sexuality issues) which makes it even harder. Its the equivilant of falling in love with a married man (im guessing; that would be pretty painful!)
I understand what you said about plenty more fish in the sea and the divine plan God or the universe has in stall for all of us but i cant help but be deeply affected like this. Its been so long since i have felt this way and in a way its good, but oh it hurts just so much. Ive been very careful not to manipulate people we both know though, so i spose thats one thing in my favour.
Isnt it funny how obsession eats you up inside? What is that?
Congradulations on your college degree, its greatest reward is itself and will be your pay cheque when you get a good job. What did you do?

210.50 (I really must register, then at least i will have a name!!!)

210.50, When you love someone and it is not returned, whether male or female, I still would assume that the pain is the same!

Your particular situation is not quite the same as being obsessed with someone who is married. That is just wrong!! But, I could see your point. Your probably equating it with the fact that she may or may not be available not knowing if she is gay).

Sometimes we think that we never have felt this way about a particular individual because of our abnormal preoccupation with them(making it feel like love.) Obsession is strange in that it's like your mind plays a trick on you. Your mind is telling you things like, this time it's different, I think of them every minute of everyday, therefore, it must be love. When in fact, what is really going on is a need to connect with them physically. Your mind has a continual idea or emotion in place about this one person. In other words, if that is all your thinking about, then that's all your going to be feeling.

Libras are big flirts, and there is probably a long line of heartthrobs out there waiting to be charmed by you.

It's one thing to be heartsick over someone your in love with; it's really not worth it if you don't even know this person is interested in you, or even worse, they aren't interested at all!!

Keep making yourself open to all types and you'll have a better chance of finding someone right for you.

Good luck and I hope it works out the way you want!!!

Just a # and I feel like a #1 today!!!

I have realised recently that I have the propensity to be jealous and obsessive about someone who is not worthy of my breath. Why him? What did he say that was so substantial that hooked me per se. I think it is the gradual bits and pieces of a lack of recriprocation from the other person you yearn for. It is comparable in taking a butter knife and slowly slicing little pieces of your heart and most importantly your ego. It feels so horrible you think of any way to make show "that person" the most desirable sides of you in hope that they will want you. When they cannot "absorb" your potential or aren't capable heart-wise then you are left with Panic. You feel as if you have failed in persuading this person to desire you in the same way that you desire them. Leaves you fixated on why couldn't I make them see. Then doubt and insecurity sets in, and thus you feel fixated on why you weren't good enough. Your pride is so degraded thus evoking and thus leaving you with a mindset that has no answer. No resolution. Remnants of rejection. Thus obsession. Sucks.

"I have to say that men and sex are way over rated. I'd take a bake potato over a roll in the sack with a man any day!!"

Joan Rivers

The poor thing, she must not have had a very passionate love life. Not that I don't like baked potatoes, but now really!!!!!

"I 've been down so much, I should have the word Welcome tattooed across my a**."

Joan Rivers

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So what your saying is, you think you are so great that you have to have everyone in the world confirm it for you.

You can't do it. It's impossible. Learn to understand who you are and what you have to contribute to the world that makes you unique and different from any other.

Some people just are less compatible than others. So what! No big deal. The worst thing you can do to yourself is to stay around people that don't support who you are 100%

Get away from negative people for you, and find people that love you and admire you, for who you are.

Unless you like torturing yourself!!! Are you some type of masochist??

self defeating personality disorder.

No, it isn't a personality disorder. It is low self esteem.

I think that it's a nice quality, but how is it making you feel?? Sounds like it is a heavy burden to carry.

Let it go when someone doesn't reciprocate. Instead of taking it to heart. Look at it like this--it's the other persons problem. You did the best you could and were a nice and reasonable human being. You can't control others behavior only your own.

I give you applause for being so gracious, but being so hung up on pleasing others will wear you down if you take it upon your own shoulders to try and make everyone love you. DON'T DO IT!!

Search out those that love you and support you 100% and leave the others to their own misery!@!

You completly pin pointed it for me. I forgot to add that I was deeply in love with him. Love can be painful and make you feel nuts at times, as I have recently experienced. Thanks for offering your advice🙂

I'm sorry, I should have read between the line!!

try cultivating an interest--literature, computers, music, whatever. be an expert in one thing by starting to read materials about it. read, read, read if you have the time. doing so will make you a more confident and interesting person.