A Vulnerable Core.

Hey Ya'll,
I'm here at the library about to begin my homework for my Psychology class. I'm still on non-speaking terms with my mother regardless if she did try to talk to me last week. She tried to butter things up by cooking dinner early so that I could eat before I went to work. she called me for dinner, but I came out of my room in my work clothes and coldly walked out the house and drove to work. She really doesn't get it. She offended me badly because I came out honestly with my sexuality and then she turned around a month later calling me a liar and a thief? I am at a loss for words and I don't know if I could ever speak to her. (I'm done.) I'm terribly vulnerable and sometimes I don't know if people could ever handle that. My friendship with Jesse is awesome. He's been trying to be even more sensitive towards me now a days, but now that i've began classes, I hardly ever get to see him. So, I wrote him a letter telling him that he means alot to me. I hope that it's not too mushy to where it does more wrong than good. I hope he appreciates it, because I probably won't see him thru out the whole summer. He's kinda like a best friend, but I try to stay away from that sort of ideal. Well, I got to go start on my homework ya'll. I'll check in every now and then. Later.

You in emotional hiding from your mom until you get your bearings, then? It might be the best place for you to be right now, with her. As to the letter, tricky stuff. Even when we wear just part of our heart on our sleeves it can be intense for others. But do you feel better having gotten it out? Because that really matters.

You probably weren't looking for this kind of opinion, but I'm taking my liberties in making an observation. I'm not trying to judge you as a person, but by your actions, you're kinda being a drama queen. Your admitted sensitivity is exactly why you should be aware not to take things too personal and blame others who don't live with it day by day. It's a lot easier for one person to be aware of their own inner weakness than to expect/force every single one of their friends/family members to be that considerate of it as if it was an actual physically visible handicap.

She's your mother and she tried to make amends as well, but you don't seem to be the forgiving type. Personally, I kinda expected more from a psych student. I'm saying this assuming it won't make much difference since in my past experience in dealing with a friend in your situation, it's like trying to redirect a train that only moves along its tracks.

Sometimes, at times when we are feeling great emotional wieght within ourselves .. we tend to view something as burned, when it is simply broken.

Just 'listen' to your mother...she'll probably not say sorry (aqua/cap cusp, iirc)...she's showing it. Take your time, but not too long...

Your mom, will always be your mom...