I just need to let it out.

I'm not sure how to describe this feeling. It makes me want to cry every time I think of it and the thought of having no one to talk to. I just found out something that I was not expecting and the person who found out first and was completely torn was my older brother.

He hates my father, and has a horrible image of my mom for unclear reasons. He left about 2 days ago and hasn't contacted us and won't pick up are calls. My younger brother doesn't want to see my dad saying that he drove away our only older brother we had.

Me; I don't what to do. For one thing I agree with my younger brother, but it feels weird to just stop all contact with my dad. I want to see him, talk to him so he can explain himself.

I don't hate him and I'm not angry at him at all. Ever since the night that I last saw my brother all I could do is think of my dad and cry. I can't feel anything but sadness and it's odd. I thought that when one day this happened I would be crying my eyes out and yelling at him, but I can't. I want to hug him as if it where the last time I would ever see him.

It's funny how even right now...I'm starting to cry. Simply for remembering and knowing my dad's coming Wednesday.

How far do you think a crazy, jealous woman would go?

.......I think I pissed her off.

Unless you've written about this somewhere else .... your words are scattered. How does a crazy, jealous woman fit into this scenerio?


Apparantly your brother and father had an argument, which led to your brother leaving home ... and your younger brother taking sides, and wanting you to take sides, which leaves you sad.


this isn't your issue, this issue belongs to your father and brother .. and not yours to own.


Your place is to remain the sister of one and the daughter of another ... without any bad blood between either.



Remain unbiased.

I'm not taking any sides, I'm trying to understand both of them and I do. I know how my younger brother is feeling, but I take another approach to the problem. Also, the problem involves my younger brother and I as much as it does my older brother.

As for how a woman fits into all of this, it's because it was all caused by one.